On recent developments in Fate/Apocrypha

[penisenvy]

Fuck this update.

Fuck this user name.

Above all, mun...

FUCK YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!

Do you know why I keep myself well-covered at all times? It's to hide my fucking failure of a body! It's to hide the fact that I CAN'T BE LIKE FATHER! Apparently it's too much work for you or this Nasu asshole to have some respect for my fucking privacy!

Dear fucking Christian God and pagan Celtic deities alike! Does my life suck that much? Is the bar for human decency and respect set lower for me than for everyone else? My heart and body can be ripped to shreds and no one would care!

...You're laughing, aren't you? Stop trying to hide it. You're laughing. Everyone is laughing. That's right, laugh at this failure of a clone who can't grow the right body parts! You think I didn't try you stupid bitch?

AAAAAAAAAAAAAARGH!

The only thing that keeps me from slaying you where you stand is chivalry. I hope you know that.

Comments

[ex_cashcow493]

You speak of chivalry, yet you speak so crudely. Have you no manners?

[ This is all sorts of awkward. ]

1/?

[penisenvy]

...

[She's frozen in shock at the newcomer.]

2/?

[penisenvy]

[Give her mind a second to process.]

F-f-father?

[Well, this was extremely awkward.]

3/3

[penisenvy]

[A hot blush spreads over her cheeks. Not only had she been caught using curses, but her father had caught her using curses. She knew she was a disappointment, but this was the clincher. She could see any tiny shards of hope that Father could still accept her growing wings and taking off without so much as a farewell to the utterly pathtic child they were leaving behind. All she wants to do is for the Earth to open up beneath her feet, casting her into the abyss of an iron spiked hell where she would be impaled on red-hot spits for an eternity.]

[Even that would be better than having to deal with this fallout.]

[Alas, Fate saw fit to play her for a fool again. Heaven answered no prayers, nor Earth any pleas. She was left living in this cruel, awkward world, trying to come up with a defense for her unknightly behavior.]

S-so I have sinned with my speech. I shall accept any punishment that your Majesty sees fit to dole out.

[She finally manages to check herself and give a good reply.]

But my mun is still a huge bitch.

[tactlessly]

[ ... angry much ]

"What was the purpose of your creation?" asks Misaka as she wonders why you are a failure of a clone.

[penisenvy]

To be the perfect successor to my Father. As you can see, my body renders me unfit.

[goldentheater]

[Oh no, what a sad... Girl? Boy? Whatever. That kind of thing doesn't matter to Nero, obviously. She waves a hand dismissively.]

There, there. I know about the spirit and the body not aligning all too well. Rather than letting your differences be a source of misery, make them into a source of pride!

[...Though when she says this, she's talking about the people she wants to fuck, but eh. CLOSE ENOUGH.]

[penisenvy]

[She growls in consternation at the woman who not only stole her face, but her color as well.]

Why should I take pride in it? This body is the best proof of my spirit's weakness.

[Yes, she's of the mind she can grow the right genitalia with sheer manly willpower.]

And I who am to be Father's successor cannot differ from him.

[never_nor]

I will never understand why you mortals care so much about gender.

[penisenvy]

[She growls.]

It is less a matter of gender as it is the fact that I cannot be a perfect copy of Father!

[grownintodreams]

[a middle aged man -- about five feet tall, and a bit hunchbacked, though a well-tailored suit hides most of that -- is leaning on his cane]

That's the thing about bodies. As strong as your will is, generally you can't will them to grow the right way.

[penisenvy]

[She looks absolutely serious as she says this.]

The power of a true man's spirit is such that he can defy all the odds, even physical ones.

[conner_el]

Just as one clone to another, you're your own person. No matter who you're made from ... trust me, I almost drove myself nuts about the same stuff.

[penisenvy]

I know. I'm not making any claims about actually being Father.

[Nobody could truly match her father.]

But I'm supposed to be a perfect successor for him.

[castersplaything]

If they are laughing, their opinions aren't worth your time.

[Though he is intimidated admittedly. Not by what she said per say but how. That and the threats.]

[penisenvy]

[She glares at him. What does he know about her situation? What does he know about craving the approval of others, but suspecting the worst of them at the same time?]

It's not her opinion that matters. It's the fact that she has control of where I go. I have yet to acknowledge her as a Master.

[twinbuns]

... What's wrong with being a girl?

[penisenvy]

Don't call me a girl!

[She snaps at the girl before she can get a hold of herself.]

And there is nothing wrong with being a girl. It is just that I am not supposed to be one.

[darkenemyoftheworld]

O FAIR MAIDEN, IF YOU DESIRE SO MUCH TO BE A MAN, PERHAPS I, MELKOR COULD OBLIGE YOUR WISH...

[penisenvy]

E-eh?

[This seems too good to be true.]

Would it interfere with the material from Father's seed?

[mama_saber]

[Arturia is silent for a long time. There are so many things she wishes to say, words that she had been holding in the deep recesses of her mind for centuries. But, for now, that could wait.]

No amount of cursing, nor threats of violence, will change your fate.

1/2

[penisenvy]

...

[It was happening again. Being caught once by her father was bad enough. Being caught a second time was even worse. If one Arthur's gaze could burn into her soul like a searing flame, than the gaze of two Arthurs could consume her unfortunate soul in a blazing inferno.]

F-father...

[Again, she gives her father a meek greeting. Again, she shrinks away, expecting, even desiring, punishment.]

2/2

[penisenvy]

I mean, Your Majesty. Forgive me for sinning with my words.

[She looks away, unable to meet Arthur's eyes.]

But yes, I am aware of my horrible luck. It is not so much my fate that disturbs me as it is my mun's actions.

[unreachableutopia]

Sir Mordred...

[She wants to say something else, embrace the child she could not raise, but all she says is.]

Mind your uncouth language. Are you not a knight of Britain?

[penisenvy]

[This is the third time she has encountered Father here. Though the shock and bitterness have been dulled somewhat, the sense of shame at having her outburst witnessed by her father is as sharp as ever.]

Yes, Your Majesty, please forgive me. I will accept any sentence you choose to impose upon me for my unknightly conduct.