On recent developments in Fate/Apocrypha

[penisenvy]

Fuck this update.

Fuck this user name.

Above all, mun...

FUCK YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!

Do you know why I keep myself well-covered at all times? It's to hide my fucking failure of a body! It's to hide the fact that I CAN'T BE LIKE FATHER! Apparently it's too much work for you or this Nasu asshole to have some respect for my fucking privacy!

Dear fucking Christian God and pagan Celtic deities alike! Does my life suck that much? Is the bar for human decency and respect set lower for me than for everyone else? My heart and body can be ripped to shreds and no one would care!

...You're laughing, aren't you? Stop trying to hide it. You're laughing. Everyone is laughing. That's right, laugh at this failure of a clone who can't grow the right body parts! You think I didn't try you stupid bitch?

AAAAAAAAAAAAAARGH!

The only thing that keeps me from slaying you where you stand is chivalry. I hope you know that.

Comments

[goldentheater]

Is it truly necessary for you to be a "perfect clone"? As I said before, you should take pride in your individuality. In any case, even if you are a woman in body, your soul and your spirit are another matter entirely. It's no problem of yours if other people mistakenly believe that all three must be in harmony.

[penisenvy]

Yes, because the people of Britian will not accept anything less. Because the sword that chooses kings will never choose anything less.

How would you call soul and spirit different things?

[goldentheater]

I believe there's a modern expression that goes something like, "What they don't know won't hurt them."

Hm... I believe the simplest way to explain the difference would be that your spirit is your heart, whereas your soul is where your heart resides. [She nods to herself, evidently satisfied with this explanation.]

[penisenvy]

Then I wish to have the spirit of a man, so my body will follow it.

[Sadly, she has to admit there are some parts of her spirit that she would call feminine.]

[goldentheater]

Hm... I doubt it's so simple.

[penisenvy]

I have heard from my mun that with manly spirit, this...gar, as you might call it, you can bend anything to your will. If that is the case, then I wish to develop gar so I might make my body into that of a man.

[goldentheater]

...

I'm unsure if I should tell you that I believe your mun may have been exaggerating or ask to hear more.

[penisenvy]

Even if she was, gar is also supposed to be used to describe Heroic Spirits. At times their abilities go beyond the simple constraint of their noble phantasms to achieve gar. The smaller likelyhood of success, the more likely they will succeed, especially if they scream loudly as they do it.

[Whether she honestly believes this or if she just repeats it to herself because doing otherwise would mean to give up all hope of changing her body is up for debate.]