Balder wants his mun to step away from her weird ideas

[dusk_and_dawn]

Please cease writing these "AUs" at once. I do not scheme. 'Tis true, no one would ever expect me to scheme, but 'tis because I do not scheme. I know you know this, for my userinfo contains a proclamation about how I never lie.

If you are getting bored please do something we would both enjoy. Perhaps allow me to pick up and throw Loki out of Asgard again, if only to prove that I trust him a lot less farther than I can throw him.

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[ex_asynja827]

You ask as though there's a distinction between the two.

[You should have learned by now, Balder. Obviously you never learn.]

You're very lively, for a dead man.

[dusk_and_dawn]

[Raises an eyebrow.] Do be kind to your young self. He may be you, but he is also but a boy.

[No, he really doesn't.]

I have been hunting. It keeps me busy.

[ex_asynja827]

You've been hunting.

[That was so typical an answer Loki thinks he must have ate something to have expected something different. No one ever changes.]

Youth never stays, you know. Hold out your hopes for a child as well as you could, Balder - given the time, and knowing this twisted world we belong to, it won't be for long that young remains young, despite the body that keeps it.

[dusk_and_dawn]

'Tis honorable service, Loki, and more than I deserve.

[Hey, he changed that one time he died. But these things don't always take.]

Perhaps. But I could no better pry that child from Thor's arms than pry the sun out of the sky.

[ex_asynja827]

Then bless that child, he has a hard life ahead of him.

[Bitter? Well, when was he not, save for the few times that the Norns thought him useful? It gets tiring to be who he is - catalyst of chaos, and yet constantly held to the threads of fate. Free for as long as destiny allows; that boy will learn, one way or another, the pain of Thor's mark on his soul.]

Pray tell, what does Balder hunt in these here parts?

[dusk_and_dawn]

I do not doubt it. All see your eyes in his, and perhaps he will never have a chance to be anyone else.

Demons. Perhaps not challenging, but useful.

[ex_asynja827]

Cruel, isn't it? [For all that your sort have claimed to be heroes - but that's a story for another time.]

Suppose you that must have been entertaining, at least? It seems a waste of time, really.

[dusk_and_dawn]

Yes. But his brother has protected him so far, I am told.

[Let's ignore the part where Balder didn't want the little brat back in the first place, thanks to someone he might be currently speaking to.]

It is neither entertaining nor a waste, it is simply my duty.

[ex_asynja827]

Your duty ended when you died - but I trust that doesn't matter to you.

[If that's your way of backhandedly saying you miss someone who's going to be the cause of your death, well, that's flattering. If that's your unsubtle way of saying you'd rather not have the child around because of some regret you're still holding on to, then shame on you.

How many times have we met, skirmish arguments and beheadings notwithstanding?

Fool. Always. You make it so easy.]

And at what cost has that been?

[dusk_and_dawn]

My duties never end. You die and your mischief does not end.

[Now that the child's around, Balder will accept that. But bringing you back? Of course he didn't want that. He's not that much a fool.]

I cannot speak of it, as I am dead. Perhaps my brother shall appear and enlighten you.

[ex_asynja827]

Yes, your brother. Not much good he is for you, lately, isn't he?

[And you wonder why he's held so much contempt for your family.]

My mischief is a part of me. Do your duties define you?

[dusk_and_dawn]

I have made my own choices and reaped the consequences. I do not regret it.

Perhaps they do. But now that the cycle of Ragnarok is ended, are we not to define ourselves?

[ex_asynja827]

You would define yourself the same way you've done before - so much for change, my lord.

[Considering Loki's hand in your death, why still speak?]

[dusk_and_dawn]

But I was something good before, wasn't I?

[Balder doesn't know when to stop, and now you've made him sad. Please leave him to his midlife crisis.]

[ex_asynja827]

[Screw your post-midlife crisis, Loki has a gender identity problem over here.]

Define good. Odin was "good".

[dusk_and_dawn]

[You can step out of that body any time, you know. He can't step out of his angst.]

Something better than what I am now. 'Tis all that matters. That is the change I shall always seek.

[ex_asynja827]

Always with the drama.

[Coming from Loki it's kohl mascara calling eyeliner black, but hey. Your angst can go jump off a cliff for all he cares right now.]

What will you do when you've found it?

[dusk_and_dawn]

Do you not enjoy drama? I thought you viewed all the world as your personal theater and us your puppets. It is hard to imagine you could create that last intricate play otherwise.

Though I do still wonder if you meant to die well or at all.

I shall try harder.

[ex_asynja827]

Mm, but not all follow their lines, do they? Least of all your brood, if I'm allowed to say so. It's always a headache, dealing with you both.

[Funnily, he's almost fond when he says that. Thank you for that nugget of information, though. Truly, you enlighten.]

If you try any harder you might find yourself coming around from the wrong direction. Just a thought.

[dusk_and_dawn]

I suppose. I have never been on your side of things.

[What happens in DRs stays in DRs!]

I would say that you were right, but I fear all Asgard would appear to question my sanity.

[ex_asynja827]

You would think yourself above my side of things, Balder, there's no need to be indirect.

_{[Sure, mhmm. That can change somewhere!]}

We are far from Asgard now, and still you worry so.

[dusk_and_dawn]

I did not mean to imply such.

[Bor's stones, why must you be so difficult when you're the version of yourself he likes the least? The one who advised him in his worst moments and who reminds him of nothing good?]

My heart is always in Asgard.

[ex_asynja827]

Pitiably so. It's the cause of the fall of so many, but none of you will ever want to see that.

[Loki doesn't believe there was ever a time you'd cared. All these years, through the cycles, it's always been contemptible indifference from you.]

What did you mean, then?

[dusk_and_dawn]

We see it, but we embrace giving our lives for something bigger than ourselves.

[And murder from you.]

I meant that I have never had the sort of mind to scheme, as I have told my mun. And if I wanted to disapprove of your methods I would simply say that I do. Which I do.

[ex_asynja827]

You'd die for glory than live to see the change you fight for. That's also a way of seeing it, yes?

[Have you ever expected anything less than the grand from him?]

You tell me you disapprove, and so does Thor, but neither of you had sought to change me. Why is that? Fighting me is hardly any effort for you, but neither have you been blind to what I can do.