Balder wants his mun to step away from her weird ideas

[dusk_and_dawn]

Please cease writing these "AUs" at once. I do not scheme. 'Tis true, no one would ever expect me to scheme, but 'tis because I do not scheme. I know you know this, for my userinfo contains a proclamation about how I never lie.

If you are getting bored please do something we would both enjoy. Perhaps allow me to pick up and throw Loki out of Asgard again, if only to prove that I trust him a lot less farther than I can throw him.

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[ex_asynja827]

Then perhaps you were looking in the wrong direction. It happens.

[dusk_and_dawn]

Where shall I look? 'Tis true I have never known you as Thor does, not even when you sat by my side.

[ex_asynja827]

And you would suggest I advise you, once more? Have you truly not learned anything yet?

[dusk_and_dawn]

Perhaps I shall ask Thor how you've changed, then. His eyes are clearer than mine.

[ex_asynja827]

Mm.

[The question, now: Would Thor tell him everything, or just the warnings Balder needs to hear? How well would even Thor see past Loki, who now wears Sif's body like a cloak? By how much would he be willing to right now, if that?]

You are brothers, after all.

[dusk_and_dawn]

[Balder isn't going to mention that Thor thinks of Loki as his flesh and doesn't think of Balder that way. They're close, but still not brothers in the way Thor is with Loki ... sad as that is.]

You are my brother as well, Loki. Though perhaps it is not my fate nor my role to understand you.

[ex_asynja827]

[Everything about Odin's brood is sad. Bless the Norns, it's so depressingly sad.]

For some reason that's nearly the most flattering thing you've ever said to me in the longest time.

[dusk_and_dawn]

What was the most flattering?

[ex_asynja827]

[That you'll give him the benefit of your doubt, after all the times you've thought to condemn him a liar. Not that you'll ever know. Not that he'll tell you now of all times.

Too bad, though - Loki could have used those words a long time ago.]

Your warning.

[dusk_and_dawn]

[Balder will just tilt his head at you, Loki.]

It is not my desire to see you harmed, Loki. It is my desire not to be laden with mistletoe.

Though, yes, throwing you was fun, I admit.

[ex_asynja827]

Idiot.

By the Nine, you're an idiot.

[But yeah no, Loki's maybe actually laughing here, if a bit quietly. Of course you'd misunderstand. Of course.]

[dusk_and_dawn]

As I am so often told.

[That's just going to make him tilt his head at you more, Loki. Not that he is surprised that he doesn't get it.]

[ex_asynja827]

[And this will be the one time he'll risk physical contact in a place like this, to reach out and pat your cheek.]

I mean it kindly, this one time.

Don't abuse the sentiment.

[dusk_and_dawn]

[Balder is not exactly enthusiastic about Loki touching him with his emotional wounds so fresh. But Loki can't hurt him here, so he allows it.]

Then I shall accept the sentiment. And I do hope you have a better fate than I saw for you. [If only because you died trying to undo your own work.]

[ex_asynja827]

[There always comes a time when everything just gets tiring; even the worst of men can want to be someone else at least once in their lives, can they not?

Thor might have fared better in life had he claimed you kin as he's claimed Loki, ill-advised as that had always been; it might have made Asgard a safer place had Loki simply moved on from the resentments he's carried as Laufey's son. Even Balder — he could have been a great king, a great son, a true lord of Asgard, if he'd kept to his path as he saw fit.

But that's not the world they belong to, and the mess they have is theirs alone.

In a different time, and a different life, they'll have all their chances.

It just won't be in this one.]

It's a sad state of affairs when you're the one wishing me a better end. Is this what we will become, Balder?

[dusk_and_dawn]

[Balder has always struggled with who he is and thought of Thor and Loki as being steady, though in opposite ways. That was why they would always go together, and he would always be to the side, close enough to touch.

It's a grim, fixed fate, but still better than Balder thinks he deserves.]

Who knows? We have been as we are for countless centuries; it will no doubt take more to change us.

[ex_asynja827]

[The failings of Odin's sons, from Tyr down to you - that you would think things so simple, when they hardly ever come so.

It's noble, really, but it does quite a disservice to the old man.]

Or it could take a single changed decision to upset all that has come to pass, if only you'd care to look.

[dusk_and_dawn]

[The old man doesn't deserve a son like Thor.]

[Balder gives Loki a look, because isn't that what he tried and failed to do when he brought down Asgard?]

You are willing to upset things, Loki, but most of us treasure what we have even if it is not what it could be. For that you think us fools ... well, perhaps we are.

[ex_asynja827]

[The man deserved no children at all, but what do you do.]

So you'd rather repeat the same lives over and over again. Is that what you mean to say, my lord?

[dusk_and_dawn]

I wish to keep Asgard for myself. My brothers, my wife, my people. I don't wish to risk losing them.

We fear change, Loki. You know that.

[ex_asynja827]

And you have, as countless others, held it against me for not fearing it - indeed, for welcoming it into my bed.

Is this correct, also?

[dusk_and_dawn]

Yes. Perhaps you will save us, perhaps you will damn us.

But you risk our lives because we don't matter to you. That is what I think.

[ex_asynja827]

For once you realize something that's partly true about me.

[It's that he doesn't care - well, no, he really doesn't, but not in the way you'd think.]

You make it sound as though Asgard's fate lies entirely in my hands.

[dusk_and_dawn]

No. But you are quite powerful, Loki. I would not underestimate you. It is merely a matter of how you apply yourself.

[ex_asynja827]

If you're about to begin telling me to apply myself kindly, I'll be so sad. You were doing so well with keeping up for once.