Balder wants his mun to step away from her weird ideas

[dusk_and_dawn]

Please cease writing these "AUs" at once. I do not scheme. 'Tis true, no one would ever expect me to scheme, but 'tis because I do not scheme. I know you know this, for my userinfo contains a proclamation about how I never lie.

If you are getting bored please do something we would both enjoy. Perhaps allow me to pick up and throw Loki out of Asgard again, if only to prove that I trust him a lot less farther than I can throw him.

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[ex_asynja827]

[There always comes a time when everything just gets tiring; even the worst of men can want to be someone else at least once in their lives, can they not?

Thor might have fared better in life had he claimed you kin as he's claimed Loki, ill-advised as that had always been; it might have made Asgard a safer place had Loki simply moved on from the resentments he's carried as Laufey's son. Even Balder — he could have been a great king, a great son, a true lord of Asgard, if he'd kept to his path as he saw fit.

But that's not the world they belong to, and the mess they have is theirs alone.

In a different time, and a different life, they'll have all their chances.

It just won't be in this one.]

It's a sad state of affairs when you're the one wishing me a better end. Is this what we will become, Balder?

[dusk_and_dawn]

[Balder has always struggled with who he is and thought of Thor and Loki as being steady, though in opposite ways. That was why they would always go together, and he would always be to the side, close enough to touch.

It's a grim, fixed fate, but still better than Balder thinks he deserves.]

Who knows? We have been as we are for countless centuries; it will no doubt take more to change us.

[ex_asynja827]

[The failings of Odin's sons, from Tyr down to you - that you would think things so simple, when they hardly ever come so.

It's noble, really, but it does quite a disservice to the old man.]

Or it could take a single changed decision to upset all that has come to pass, if only you'd care to look.

[dusk_and_dawn]

[The old man doesn't deserve a son like Thor.]

[Balder gives Loki a look, because isn't that what he tried and failed to do when he brought down Asgard?]

You are willing to upset things, Loki, but most of us treasure what we have even if it is not what it could be. For that you think us fools ... well, perhaps we are.

[ex_asynja827]

[The man deserved no children at all, but what do you do.]

So you'd rather repeat the same lives over and over again. Is that what you mean to say, my lord?

[dusk_and_dawn]

I wish to keep Asgard for myself. My brothers, my wife, my people. I don't wish to risk losing them.

We fear change, Loki. You know that.

[ex_asynja827]

And you have, as countless others, held it against me for not fearing it - indeed, for welcoming it into my bed.

Is this correct, also?

[dusk_and_dawn]

Yes. Perhaps you will save us, perhaps you will damn us.

But you risk our lives because we don't matter to you. That is what I think.

[ex_asynja827]

For once you realize something that's partly true about me.

[It's that he doesn't care - well, no, he really doesn't, but not in the way you'd think.]

You make it sound as though Asgard's fate lies entirely in my hands.

[dusk_and_dawn]

No. But you are quite powerful, Loki. I would not underestimate you. It is merely a matter of how you apply yourself.

[ex_asynja827]

If you're about to begin telling me to apply myself kindly, I'll be so sad. You were doing so well with keeping up for once.

[dusk_and_dawn]

I shall not tell you what to do, Loki. But you know how I will respond one way verses the other.

Not that I imagine you seek my approval or fear my wrath.

[ex_asynja827]

...Do you truly value yourself so little? I had my opinions, but I would hate to assume.

[Is it hereditary for Odinsons to be so... hammy.]

[dusk_and_dawn]

[YES, YES HE DOES. And yes it is.]

Value myself? I speak of how you value me.

[ex_asynja827]

[This is such a withering look Loki just lost what little affection he gained for you in this conversation. It's like you want to deserve the treatment you think you get, here.]

You are Odinson. Does this not mean anything to you at all?

[dusk_and_dawn]

Odin is my sire, not my father. But yes, it means something.

Is that the only reason for any value I have in your eyes? Because I am Odin's son?

[ex_asynja827]

I believe I must have told you not to assume so much, in so many words.

If I were to value you by your relations, I'd place yours as Thor's true kin. Would an answer like this satisfy you?

[dusk_and_dawn]

If you wish me not to assume, speak plainly.

No. That does not tell me if you value me only by my kinships.

[Shakes his head.]

It hardly matters now.

[ex_asynja827]

Why, because of the future ahead of us?

You haven't played a hand at being a villain, Balder - speaking plain is hardly ever that, if at all. What's the point in that?

[Is there even a point in telling you the value of your heart, here?]

[dusk_and_dawn]

It is already past, for me.

Speaking plainly may pierce the heart as lies never shall.

[He wouldn't listen anyway.]

[ex_asynja827]

You assume all I say are lies.

Balder, given the chance - what would you have changed? About all this? Humor me this one.

[dusk_and_dawn]

[Shrugs] I would see us work for each others' benefit and find joy in each others' existence.

[ex_asynja827]

Hope springs eternal.

Perhaps in a different life, you've all you could wish for, my lord.