Balder wants his mun to step away from her weird ideas

[dusk_and_dawn]

Please cease writing these "AUs" at once. I do not scheme. 'Tis true, no one would ever expect me to scheme, but 'tis because I do not scheme. I know you know this, for my userinfo contains a proclamation about how I never lie.

If you are getting bored please do something we would both enjoy. Perhaps allow me to pick up and throw Loki out of Asgard again, if only to prove that I trust him a lot less farther than I can throw him.

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[dusk_and_dawn]

I have made my own choices and reaped the consequences. I do not regret it.

Perhaps they do. But now that the cycle of Ragnarok is ended, are we not to define ourselves?

[ex_asynja827]

You would define yourself the same way you've done before - so much for change, my lord.

[Considering Loki's hand in your death, why still speak?]

[dusk_and_dawn]

But I was something good before, wasn't I?

[Balder doesn't know when to stop, and now you've made him sad. Please leave him to his midlife crisis.]

[ex_asynja827]

[Screw your post-midlife crisis, Loki has a gender identity problem over here.]

Define good. Odin was "good".

[dusk_and_dawn]

[You can step out of that body any time, you know. He can't step out of his angst.]

Something better than what I am now. 'Tis all that matters. That is the change I shall always seek.

[ex_asynja827]

Always with the drama.

[Coming from Loki it's kohl mascara calling eyeliner black, but hey. Your angst can go jump off a cliff for all he cares right now.]

What will you do when you've found it?

[dusk_and_dawn]

Do you not enjoy drama? I thought you viewed all the world as your personal theater and us your puppets. It is hard to imagine you could create that last intricate play otherwise.

Though I do still wonder if you meant to die well or at all.

I shall try harder.

[ex_asynja827]

Mm, but not all follow their lines, do they? Least of all your brood, if I'm allowed to say so. It's always a headache, dealing with you both.

[Funnily, he's almost fond when he says that. Thank you for that nugget of information, though. Truly, you enlighten.]

If you try any harder you might find yourself coming around from the wrong direction. Just a thought.

[dusk_and_dawn]

I suppose. I have never been on your side of things.

[What happens in DRs stays in DRs!]

I would say that you were right, but I fear all Asgard would appear to question my sanity.

[ex_asynja827]

You would think yourself above my side of things, Balder, there's no need to be indirect.

_{[Sure, mhmm. That can change somewhere!]}

We are far from Asgard now, and still you worry so.

[dusk_and_dawn]

I did not mean to imply such.

[Bor's stones, why must you be so difficult when you're the version of yourself he likes the least? The one who advised him in his worst moments and who reminds him of nothing good?]

My heart is always in Asgard.

[ex_asynja827]

Pitiably so. It's the cause of the fall of so many, but none of you will ever want to see that.

[Loki doesn't believe there was ever a time you'd cared. All these years, through the cycles, it's always been contemptible indifference from you.]

What did you mean, then?

[dusk_and_dawn]

We see it, but we embrace giving our lives for something bigger than ourselves.

[And murder from you.]

I meant that I have never had the sort of mind to scheme, as I have told my mun. And if I wanted to disapprove of your methods I would simply say that I do. Which I do.

[ex_asynja827]

You'd die for glory than live to see the change you fight for. That's also a way of seeing it, yes?

[Have you ever expected anything less than the grand from him?]

You tell me you disapprove, and so does Thor, but neither of you had sought to change me. Why is that? Fighting me is hardly any effort for you, but neither have you been blind to what I can do.

[dusk_and_dawn]

There will be no change if I don't fight.

Things could not change before. And now they can--and are.

[ex_asynja827]

Spoken with the true optimism of a fool wandering blindly in hopes of finding the truth.

You made it all so easy.

[dusk_and_dawn]

Yes.

Perhaps. Do you expect me to be other than I am?

[ex_asynja827]

You keep insisting on change, yet you wonder why I expect differently from you?

Come on, now. Don't be daft.

[dusk_and_dawn]

Do you think you shall change, Loki?

[ex_asynja827]

I am change. You've all known this to be so.

You're the ones who have never changed your views.

[dusk_and_dawn]

We know that you have never changed being change. Nor have you ever truly changed anything. It was Thor who did that.

I've always known what to expect from you, Loki, just as you predict us. If I am foolish for my ways then so must be you.

i just saw you apped into singularity holy dkgjdfg!!!

[ex_asynja827]

I've never forced your hand. None of you, but especially you. All your choices have been at your feet - choosing the ones I'd choose for you given the option can never be held against me.

[The thing about lies - most of the time, they're usually true.]

You made your choices, despite better judgment. That you cannot blame upon me.

haha well, I'm not in yet

[dusk_and_dawn]

I know my decisions were my own. I know they were foolish.

All I say to you is that Loki is always Loki. If you have changed I have not seen it.

that's okay, they're still reading apps

[ex_asynja827]

Then perhaps you were looking in the wrong direction. It happens.

[dusk_and_dawn]

Where shall I look? 'Tis true I have never known you as Thor does, not even when you sat by my side.