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You know, I'm really glad you're waiting a few months before you get me into the dating scene because I gotta say, as I am now? I'm not up for it.

Sure, I'll wink and smile and play it up, but that's just me. It doesn't mean too much, it's the usual flirty ole me, you know? If I don't, it'd be obvious, and I don't need Angeal asking me if I'm okay all the time. He's got enough to deal with. But the longer I'm there, the longer I think about it and the more you learn director? I think it's becoming more clear that I'm not ready for that. Every time I even think about her, there is always that question of why didn't I call her? Sure, I was on the run, but hell, I already knew the Turks were on my trail. It wouldn't have hurt me much. Just one little phone call. Cissnei was on my side...I could have...I should have.

I know I shouldn't sit around, crying over all those past mistakes. That's not like me, but damn is it hard not to. I got over some of it, but this seems to be the hardest. Or one of them.

Just, promise me I won't go on the network talking about her like that. It's not that I'm embarrassed...just, ashamed. I made her my goal when I should have made her first priority instead. And I have this sinking feeling that I'm never going to get over it. Maybe, come December or January...if she doesn't show up?

I can take his hand and we can walk that road to recovery together. Maybe.

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[There is just something so cute an innocent about Aerith that gets him every time.]

Answering machines. Like VCR's, damn near impossible to set up, right?

But if you've got the right skills, you can figure it out! Hmm, let's see... [Frowns at his chest doing her best to look like a Serious Professional.

Then she's perking up with a little sound of triumph.] I think I've figured out the problem! You've got a blockage here, caused by too much guilt!

That's a work in progress, it'll get fixed sometime, but the jury is out on the exact date.

But sooner is always better than later, right? [Aaaaaand she's back to looking mysterious and all-knowing, though there's definitely mischief there, too.]

That is true. [He smiles, just a little and puts a hand on his hip.]

Man are you just full of these little sayings, aren't you?

I'm a Cetra - I think giving wise advice is part of the job description. At least I'm not like the Chocobo Sage!

[What's a Chocobo sage, sweet heart? He has no clue.]

Well, if you're sure. I'm thinking you should get into the fortune cookie business though. You'd make a killing in profits.

[Right, right, time differences. She always forgets that part. Well, not always.]

I think I'd be too tempted to write, "Help, help, I'm trapped in a Wutai fortune cookie factory."

[Excuse him as he just bursts out laughing, shaking his head.]

One in every hundred maybe. You could call them Cetra cookies.

"We're Ancient, but we're still delicious". How's that sound.

[Clasps her hands over her mouth, but it's only barely muffling the fit of giggles.]

You're awful, Zack!

[He grins back at her and claps his hand to his knee, walking a circle of joy before he settles down again and can't help but laugh.]

Hey, its catchy right? That's what matters!

I makes it sound like the cookies are old, though! And you know that I wouldn't serve anything except fresh pastries. [She's trying for stern, but can't get past the giggles.]

Well if you don't like my idea, fine!

Don't use it then. [Excuse him as he's faking a pout.]

Awww, don't worry. I'd still let you be the taste-tester?

Well, here's hoping eating all those pastries aren't going to get me fat.

Gotta watch my girlish figure, you know.

Ha! Your figure isn't girlish. It's manly!

Now Cloud, on the other hand...

[Yes, she just brought that up. Zack's lack of knowledge be damned.]

Why thank you! [He kind of grins, enjoying the compliment, though he looks a little confused at her comment.]

Well, he's always been thin, but he's got muscle on him. Just, lean, yanno?

[Oh, that's a mischievous, devious grin. An evil grin, one might even say.]

Mm-hm. And he's got lovely hips, too. And very clear skin. Really, you should see him in a dress.

[Zack kind of stares at her a bit. And then squints as he's trying to imagine, and then a huge smile splits his face.]

Oooooh. I think I can see that. He's got this big blue eyes too.

[He's catching on.] Was he cute?

Uh-huh! The cutest of all of us, even!

[Grins and winks.] He even inspired a dressmaker to start up his craft again!

[Zack whistles and shakes his head.]

Man, what I'd give to see that. Did he have make up on too? Or, I guess he wouldn't need much of it.

He's got a pretty face.

Mm-hm. I was busy taking care of a few things, so...

[Leans in close, hand cupping her mouth like she's hiding a secret.] He got a Honeybee girl to do it!

[Let's hope there's no Clouds around to explode in embarrassment as she spills all his secrets.]

[Okay, so Zack can't help bursting out laughing. The idea. Or even the thought of Cloud getting into a dress and getting his make up done, was hilarious.]

Do I even want to know why?