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[tasted_the_sky]

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I hate it here.

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[tasted_the_sky]

You die.

[heardyoucall]

Shouldn't a brat like you be running about and being a nuisance? Why are you moping?

[tasted_the_sky]

I'm not a brat. [ Rubs his mouth on his arm. ] I just...

I don't like it here. I don't know anybody. I don't... They're not here.

[heardyoucall]

And?

[He takes a drag of a cigarette after lighting it.]

If you don't know anyone, then get to know them. If you're only waiting for those you already know, it will be a very long wait.

[tasted_the_sky]

[ Shakes his head, frowning. ]

I can't do that. They'll all die. That's how it is. That's why it has to be my friends, otherwise they'll all just die!

[heardyoucall]

Die?

You realize what you're saying...

[tasted_the_sky]

I don't mean to do it. It just happens.

[heardyoucall]

...you kill your friends?

[Sanzo's going to take a slight step to steady himself should he need to defend. Sorry, kid, this monk's been attacked by unstable youkai enough times to know when he needs to adjust his stance.]

[tasted_the_sky]

I said I don't mean it!! [ He holds his head, looking extremely uncomfortable. ] They just.. They get close and I... It happens, I don't... I just start ripping and tearing...

[heardyoucall]

You say you don't mean it, but all the same, you do it.

There must be a reason.

[tasted_the_sky]

[ Cheshire looks down momentarily, staring at his hands. ]

I get... I can't stop it when it happens. I don't want to do it but it feels... Feels so good...

[heardyoucall]

[Sanzo softens his voice but there is no lack of strength behind his words.]

Why? Why would that sort of thing please you?

[tasted_the_sky]

[ Shakes his head. ] I don't know. It's... soothing, I guess.

[heardyoucall]

To kill... is soothing?

...

Are you angry?

[tasted_the_sky]

Angry? [ Tilts his head, thinking about it. ] Angry.... Am I angry? I feel...

I don't feel good. I never feel good unless I rip someone apart. But even then it doesn't last... I'm not angry but... I'm not happy.

[heardyoucall]

It doesn't last and then you need to do it again... but why would it be such a violent action that soothes you?

What part of you are you soothing?

And why does it need soothing?

[tasted_the_sky]

[ Growls. ] I don't know! Stop asking me!!

[heardyoucall]

You are angry, aren't you?

At your core.

[tasted_the_sky]

[ Cheshire narrows his eyes. ]

I said I don't know... Leave me the hell alone.

[heardyoucall]

I think you do know.

And it frightens you, doesn't it?

[tasted_the_sky]

[ Clenches his fists. ] No, I don't... If I knew, I could stop... I wouldn't have to be alone anymore if I could stop...

[heardyoucall]

Then what are you going to do?

How do you intend to solve this problem?

Are you going to do nothing and just rely on others to deal with it?

[He frowns.]

Are you content to just slaughter over and over until you've nothing left?

gotta go, be back later

[tasted_the_sky]

[ Peers at Sanzo, his head lolling from side to side. ]

Hey...


Do you like killing?

sure thing!

[heardyoucall]

No.

But I do kill.

[tasted_the_sky]

Why do you do it?

Are you sure you don't like it...?