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[tasted_the_sky]

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I hate it here.

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[heardyoucall]

[Sanzo approaches him slowly, cautiously.]

Oi.

[tasted_the_sky]

[ Tightens the ball, muttering incoherently to himself. ]

[heardyoucall]

...

Cheshire.

[tasted_the_sky]

[ His eyes shoot open and he's on all fours nearly immediately, growling-- but not advancing. His teeth are clenched. ]

Don't fucking come near me.

[heardyoucall]

Calm down.

[He grits his teeth.]

I was trying to wake you up.

[tasted_the_sky]

Yeah, thanks.

[ He covers his head. ] I hurt all over. I feel everything.

[heardyoucall]

You didn't kill me.

[tasted_the_sky]

Yeah, thanks for reminding me. [ He shivers. ] I couldn't even move, asshole.

[heardyoucall]

Do you remember what you said?

[tasted_the_sky]

... [ Lowers his head, his ears folding a bit. ]

No. I don't. Okay? I don't remember. I.. I lose it and I can't remember what's going on in that moment. It passes like a second and I'm left with the pieces.

[heardyoucall]

You were frightened. Said you wouldn't do it anymore. Said to let you go...

But it didn't seem like you were speaking to me.

[tasted_the_sky]

[ Cheshire looks extremely uncomfortable for a moment. ]

N-no, I don't think so. I don't think I said that.

[heardyoucall]

...do you think I'm lying, Cheshire?

[tasted_the_sky]

You could be. Everybody does it. Everybody. [ Looks away. ] I do it all the time. My friends do it. They did it...

[heardyoucall]

What crime did you commit, Cheshire?

[tasted_the_sky]

I don't know what you mean.

[heardyoucall]

Cheshire...

[He shouts angrily.]

DON'T YOU FUCKING LIE TO ME YOU LITTLE PUNK ASS RAT!!

[tasted_the_sky]

[ The sudden increase in volume is nearly enough to send Cheshire back into psychotics, his teeth bared. ]

SHUT THE FUCK UP AND LEAVE ME THE FUCK ALONE!! I'll-- I'll rip you apart, I don't need someone like you around me-- You're just like them!!

[heardyoucall]

You mean the ones who did this to you? The ones who punished you by ripping your mind out of your skull while you pleaded and begged them not to?! AH? IS THAT WHAT YOU SEE, CHESHIRE? IS THAT WHY YOU RIP AND TEAR? BECAUSE YOU SEE THOSE ANIMALS HURTING YOU AGAIN?

[tasted_the_sky]

Shut up, shut up, shut up shut up shut up!! [ He grips his head, his angered cries soon becoming disturbing laughter. ]

You don't... You don't know anything...!

[heardyoucall]

Hm... hm hm hm hm...

[The laugh is a quiet, dark laughter, lacking in any humour.]

I don't know... is that it?

What an absolute farce.

((ooc:If you come back tonight I'm ordering pizza. I've caught a bad cold and I've been in bed all day sneezing and watery-eyed. I don't want to cook. No strength for it. T_T i won't order any breadsticks))

[tasted_the_sky]

[ooc: okay]

[ Cheshire's losing it again, and he doesn't appear to be paying attention to Sanzo anymore. He's tugging at his head quills harshly, as if trying to rip them out. ]

That's how everything is! It's all a joke... A great big joke!! Better to just laugh and smile through it, right? No one really cares about you. They just want you to suffer and suffer and they don't care if you apologize and then when you do it's too late! Then they lie and promise things they don't mean and then you kill your friend by accident. Smiley, why didn't you run, Smiley? You were right all along, all this freaking time....

[ He lets out another shrill laugh. ]

So I don't care anymore, because they didn't care about me. I made a mistake, I did a bad thing and no one forgave me, so I don't care anymore. They told me I could make up for it but they were lying. They hate people like me.

You're just like them-- you give me something, pretend you're nice to me and then all you do is hurt me. You kept it away from me and mocked me and then hurt me more....

[ He shakes his head, trembling again. ]

If that dumb kid had just given me a fucking cigarette, none of this would have happened. It's all his fault. I wouldn't have bashed his head open, I wouldn't have gone to the asylum, I wouldn't be like this if it wasn't for that dumbass kid.

[heardyoucall]

[Sanzo walks forward despite the danger and moves to put his hand on Cheshire's head.]

...don't lump me in with those bastards.

I know the world is a joke better than anyone. Even so, Cheshire...

There are some truths in it.

[tasted_the_sky]

[ Immediately slashes at Sanzo, snarling. ]

Yeah? Like how those shitty overlanders hate us? I know, you don't have to fucking tell me.

Or maybe that blood's red when it comes out? Or that people die? The sky's blue? Night and day are different? Fuck.

Everybody knows that!

[heardyoucall]

[Sanzo ignores his now bleeding injury and tries again to put his hand on Cheshire's head.]

You're not so misunderstood.