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[tasted_the_sky]

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I hate it here.

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[heardyoucall]

[Sanzo softens his voice but there is no lack of strength behind his words.]

Why? Why would that sort of thing please you?

[tasted_the_sky]

[ Shakes his head. ] I don't know. It's... soothing, I guess.

[heardyoucall]

To kill... is soothing?

...

Are you angry?

[tasted_the_sky]

Angry? [ Tilts his head, thinking about it. ] Angry.... Am I angry? I feel...

I don't feel good. I never feel good unless I rip someone apart. But even then it doesn't last... I'm not angry but... I'm not happy.

[heardyoucall]

It doesn't last and then you need to do it again... but why would it be such a violent action that soothes you?

What part of you are you soothing?

And why does it need soothing?

[tasted_the_sky]

[ Growls. ] I don't know! Stop asking me!!

[heardyoucall]

You are angry, aren't you?

At your core.

[tasted_the_sky]

[ Cheshire narrows his eyes. ]

I said I don't know... Leave me the hell alone.

[heardyoucall]

I think you do know.

And it frightens you, doesn't it?

[tasted_the_sky]

[ Clenches his fists. ] No, I don't... If I knew, I could stop... I wouldn't have to be alone anymore if I could stop...

[heardyoucall]

Then what are you going to do?

How do you intend to solve this problem?

Are you going to do nothing and just rely on others to deal with it?

[He frowns.]

Are you content to just slaughter over and over until you've nothing left?

gotta go, be back later

[tasted_the_sky]

[ Peers at Sanzo, his head lolling from side to side. ]

Hey...


Do you like killing?

sure thing!

[heardyoucall]

No.

But I do kill.

[tasted_the_sky]

Why do you do it?

Are you sure you don't like it...?

[heardyoucall]

Kid, you still haven't finished being questioned. Don't think you can just turn it around because you don't want to solve your own problems.

[tasted_the_sky]

You like it, you really do like it!

[heardyoucall]

Having to kill to avoid being killed isn't liking killing.

It doesn't "soothe" me. I'm sorry. I don't know what's wrong with you, nor do I suffer the same way you do.

But do you really think running away from it will keep you from killing again?

[tasted_the_sky]

If I confront it, I kill. If I run away, I kill. I'll always kill. I can't stop it. I tried... I killed more. It's like... a reflex.

[heardyoucall]

It can't be a reflex if it hurts you.

[He narrows his eyes.]

You were earnestly upset.

[tasted_the_sky]

I can't control it... Isn't that what a reflex is? Something you do automatically...

[heardyoucall]

...it's not often something you feel misery over... or delight.

[tasted_the_sky]

I guess. I don't know. I'm all messed up...

[heardyoucall]

You don't have to be. There must be something you can do that you haven't thought of yet.

[tasted_the_sky]

Hey, man, if it were that easy, you think I'd still be killing everyone I meet?

[heardyoucall]

I didn't say it was easy.