Dear Mun . . .

Nine women in this year's Rolex 24. I can see why that made you want to bring me back.

But your idea is that I'm just hanging out around the paddock with my husband and my friends? Why wouldn't you want to say I'm out there racing? That's what I do; I'm a racing driver. I'm a three-time Rolex 24 winner. Someone, somewhere, would want me to be in their car.

[Even though her friends are out there racing and doing very well, Shelby can't help but be jealous. She wants to drive. Not stand around and eat the catering. Especially not at one of the biggest races in the motorsports world. The one that restarted her whole career.]

Oh well. Let's see if you get any more tags this time and maybe we'll be able to stick around until St. Petersburg.

Did you miss me? 'Cause I missed this.

[ She's practically bouncing. ]

I know it's intimidating to start a new season, especially when this is the first one after you had to retcon... Well, my whole life. You're in uncharted territory here. But let's face it: I've been in this position before. I moved to Europe after college... Had to start my career over after the year I spent with Tobey in New York... We're good at the picking ourselves up from nothing trope.

It's a new season. There'll be new races and new things for you to get excited about. Plus it's a chance for you to introduce me to new friends, now that my entire social life doesn't revolve around the baby you didn't actually want me having in the first place. Which sounds a lot meaner when I say it like that. But you said you wrote me into a corner a little bit so... Now you're not in the corner anymore.

Let's have some fun with this, huh? And go hit up some memes and find some new friends. That'll keep you going. After seven years, we don't give up easily.

I can't believe we're even talking about this...Two guys fighting over me? I've gone years without a man in my life and now you're thinking there could be two of them? I mean, I'm flattered but...

Okay. Let's back up.

Thank you for getting back into writing for me again and for writing for my teammates. They're great people and they deserve to be developed more than they have been. Particularly Derrick; I'm glad he's back and that he's so happy with the new path he's chosen. Even Shane, you could try getting back into his journal again, as scared as I am of what's in his head.

But this idea you have...

I don't know how this is going to work. Derrick's a great guy and he's changed since I saw him last. It makes sense we'd feel a spark together after being apart. Peter and I are probably a better match, living together for the last five months and all, but he would never cross that line. If we didn't get together years ago, why would we do it now?

Which means we're stuck. We're between the guy who's great and plausibly would want to date me or the guy I could marry that probably wouldn't happen for another six years. I don't want to hurt either of them after everything they've both done for me. So how are you going to write us out of this one? Maybe you should ask for help.

...and also, thank you that it wasn't Shane. I know you used to tease that but no. I'd rather be celibate for the rest of my life than that.

I know we're not engaged anymore, but that doesn't mean you're not allowed to feel bad about what happened to him. I feel bad about it, too. I always wanted the best for Connor, and it's not like Dino wouldn't understand. After all, we've all been through some rough times.

You should never, ever feel badly about caring for someone. That's what makes us human.

I know this is difficult for everyone, but difficult doesn't mean it shouldn't be done. We need Tobey to be here.

I'm getting married, for God's sake. It would be out of character for him to blow off the biggest day of my life. Just like it's been out of character for you to say he just up and left me. He never would have done that.

Dino needs him to be here. There's nothing more in the world that man wants than to mend fences between them. It may not work, Tobey may punch him in the face again, but he deserves the chance to try. He really has changed, and having Tobey see that would really help him.

And Julia. Don't forget Julia.

We all were influenced by him. He changed all of our lives. It just doesn't feel right to have us all coming back together, and him not be here. He deserves his part in the story, too.