Canon why are you a thing.

[catchingfallingcaps]

 Hey, kid.  It's not that I don't appreciate having the chance to stretch my legs, but you got a lot of work to do before you're ready to handle this.

And if it's all the same to you, I don't think I have it in me to play safety net for idiots who like to leap before looking right now.  I thought I'd had enough when we lost Steve.  Then Bucky shows up outta nowhere...

Fury's not all bad, but he doesn't have the greatest people skills and the kid needed someone to keep an eye on him as much as he needed someone who had his back.  Nat's great, too, but they're the same kind of people.  They'll get caught up in all their shadowy pasts if you give 'em half the chance.  

...Don't really know if I did any good in the end.  Not like he ever really listened to me.  Stupid freaking kid.

I miss the hell out of that idiot.

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saaaaaamm 8D

[neversurrender]

I know you did the best you could, Sam. I appreciate that and I know he did to.

8D i had to

[catchingfallingcaps]

Yeah, maybe so. I still can't stop thinking I could've done more...

You holdin' up okay, Steve?

i approve of this so hard

[neversurrender]

I think we all do. But you can't let it get to you.

[He hesitates on his answer. A part of him wants to tell Sam the truth, but the other part wants to respect Bucky's wishes. But it's so hard keeping it a secret.]

As well as can be expected. Even when you've been in the game as long as I have, you're never quite prepared for it.

i'm glad <3

[catchingfallingcaps]

[ Studies Steve a little, weighing that in his mind. He reaches out, putting a hand on Steve's shoulder. ]

Yeah, I know what you mean. Just don't go clammin' up about it, aight? You know you worry the hell outta everybody when you do that.

[neversurrender]

[He shakes his head and smiles a little. The last thing he wants is to have people worry about him.]

I won't and...I don't mean to. It's just hard finding the words sometimes. [Especially when they're all partial truths. He tries to stay away from the outright lies. As if that makes it any better.]

[epidermis]

You did right by him, Sam. Trust me, I used to work with the guy too. Wouldn't have done without Bucky back in the dark days.

[catchingfallingcaps]

I know what you mean. Not sure we woulda made it out of that Osborn mess without him. It was good, him with the Avengers. You guys did a lotta good for that dope.

[epidermis]

Mostly we just cleaned out his refrigerator.

[catchingfallingcaps]

And wrecked his kitchen, yeah. All the same, less time he had to work himself into a bad place, the better.

[cold_shoulder]

'course you did good.

[catchingfallingcaps]

...Ahh, coulda done better.

[cold_shoulder]

Sure, but none of us are perfect, remember? You did what you could, and that's what anyone can ask.

[catchingfallingcaps]

I know. In my head, I get that, but it's not so easy feelin' it. I can't help thinkin' you'd still be around if I'd done better by you.

you just had to set this up awkward :')

[kneecaptain]

You did. It wasn't— [Damn.]

I'm not an idiot.

yes 83c

[catchingfallingcaps]

Yeah, you are. You're a first class idiot.

[kneecaptain]

[Here, have an "I don't have a snappy comeback" look.]

[catchingfallingcaps]

[ He likes that look, it usually meant Bucky was actually listening. Now, it just kinda hurts. ]

You were good, though, kid. I know you never thought so and that whole bullshit with Sin and the trial... You were good as Captain America.

You gotta know that, at least.

Because obviously this means you need MORE Buckys

[winteredsoldier]

What's that about the pot calling the kettle black? [Gee, thanks for the vote of confidence, Sam. You fill Bucky with warm fuzzies.]

You're staring to creep me out with this eulogy crap though, Sam. I'm right here, yanno.

I need all Buckys. All of them

[catchingfallingcaps]

There's a difference between mournin' and making a career out of broodin', Bucky. [ Hey, it's what he does, no thanks necessary, Bucky. ]

...Here's the only place I got you.

OBVIOUSLY.

[winteredsoldier]

Well I was talkin' about you calling me a 'stupid kid' part. Though I'll grant you the brooding thing. [Nobody broods like Bucky Barnes. ] 'cause if anyone was gonna be the 'kid' around here it's you, pal.

[And have a confused look, because this Bucky hasn't gotten to that point in his canon and thus has no fucking clue what you're talking about, Sam.] Okay....cryptic much, Sam?

[catchingfallingcaps]

Hey, there's more to it than just age, Bucky. I got years of practical wisdom stored up in here. [ He taps his forehead. ]

[ ....Oh shit. ]

What's goin' on back home right now?

[thirteening]

You know, you could stand to give yourself a lot more credit.

Sharoooon!! <33

[catchingfallingcaps]

Maybe... Steve must be rubbin' off on me.

saaam :*

[thirteening]

The modest and bashful thing is only charming for so long.

[catchingfallingcaps]

[ He snorts, managing smiling. ]

You're welcome to deck me if I ever get that bad.