It All Adds Up To Zero

[as_reckless_as_ever]

I know that I have no say in where I'll go if you do decide to send me somewhere else, but I do have one request.

I...

Can I still be Suzaku, even if its just part-time?

I know its selfish of me to ask this, and that I'd be breaking another promise by doing so, but... I got my life back, I don't want to give it up all over again.

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[alchimia]

That's kinda dumb, y'know.

[as_reckless_as_ever]

Is it?

[alchimia]

Asking that kinda thing. You're you, no matter where you go. 'Snot something you or anyone else can change. Some people try to hide it or try to become someone else, but... in the end you'll always be you. And there's nothing wrong with that.

[as_reckless_as_ever]

Except in this case, I'm required to be someone else entirely.

[alchimia]

Doesn't change who you really are. Like I said, some people try to hide who they are, but it doesn't change. And your friends'll always know too.

[as_reckless_as_ever]

...

Can I ask you something?

[alchimia]

Sure. Dunno if I'll answer though.

[as_reckless_as_ever]

What makes you think that beating up Lelouch is the best way to get him to admit that he has any depth?

[alchimia]

Heh, he told you 'bout that, huh? What can I say, I'm a violent guy. You gonna tell me you never beat the crap outta him? Or wanted to?

[as_reckless_as_ever]

You're wasting your time.

[alchimia]

I think I'll be the one to decide that. They don't call me Fullmetal for nothing.

[as_reckless_as_ever]

Think again. I'd really rather not have to interfere in... whatever the hell is going on between you and him, but if you keep this up, I'm going to have to.

[alchimia]

I won't kill him, if that's what you're worried about.

[as_reckless_as_ever]

Its not. Its your life that's in danger.

You really need to stop pushing him, you really don't know what you're messing with.

[exiledpower]

[ Sipping tea at a nearby table. Ever so calmly. Definitely not going to get mad this time, nope! ]

Hn. They grow up so fast, don't they...

[alchimia]

My life... [ Pardon him as he snorts. ] If he actually kills me, I wonder if it'll stick this time. Is he powerful enough to kill what's already dead?

[as_reckless_as_ever]

...man, after all your interrogations, you really don't have a clue at all.

I thought you were smarter than this.

[as_reckless_as_ever]

...oh. You.

[exiledpower]

The one and only, Suzaku Kururugi.

[ Eying him over the lid of his teacup. ]

Rummaging for scraps again?

[alchimia]

Maybe I am an idiot. You tell me. What can he really do to me, Suzaku? If I know, maybe I'll be more careful.

[as_reckless_as_ever]

Your math is a little off there, since you're neither the one nor the only.

[And he'll ignore that second part.]

[exiledpower]

Ah, but I am the one and only "me". I am distinctive from the Lelouch that you obey. Therefore, my initial statement was correct.

[ Pressing onward, then. ]

Your mouthiness is unbecoming for a Knight. Your mundane must tire of it.

[as_reckless_as_ever]

That's not my secret to tell. All you need to know are two things:

First, he is the bastard he says he is. There's no such thing as "off-limits" to him.

Secondly, don't expect any kind of physical confrontation. He won't even have to so much as lift a finger in order to destroy you.

[as_reckless_as_ever]

Actually, my mun is rather fond of me. Can you say the same about yours?

[exiledpower]

[ Flinching. Sensitive topic, Suzaku. Be careful. ]

...you still like tea, don't you?