It All Adds Up To Zero

[as_reckless_as_ever]

I know that I have no say in where I'll go if you do decide to send me somewhere else, but I do have one request.

I...

Can I still be Suzaku, even if its just part-time?

I know its selfish of me to ask this, and that I'd be breaking another promise by doing so, but... I got my life back, I don't want to give it up all over again.

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[exiledpower]

[ Flinching. Sensitive topic, Suzaku. Be careful. ]

...you still like tea, don't you?

[as_reckless_as_ever]

[Eyebrow raise. Considers that invitation for a moment, then decides 'why not?' and takes a seat across from Lelouch.]

Yeah, I do.

[exiledpower]

[ That was... easier than he'd anticipated. Don't smile, this is clearly just a trap to let your guard down. ]

Here.

[ Lelouch pours him a cup of hot tea, before sliding it over. There are cherry blossoms floating in the middle, and it smells sweet. Don't look awkward, play it cool. Totally under control. ]

[as_reckless_as_ever]

[He takes the offered cup, blowing lightly on the surface before taking a sip.]

Not bad.

[Your move, Lulu.]

[exiledpower]

[ And what move to make, indeed. Choosing his words carefully as he stares down into his own cup: ]

It has been sometime since I spoke with you last, Suzaku. Until recently, anyway.

[ His face betrays nothing, but his fingers are tracing idly around his plate. He's nervous. ]

That time... I do not even recall seeing your face for years.

[as_reckless_as_ever]

You almost say it like you missed me.

[exiledpower]

[ Lelouch flashes Suzaku the faintest of smiles. But it is somber and sad and has no place over tea between "friends", so he erases it quickly. ]

You would've been better company than I've had.

[ And just so he doesn't go too soft here... ]

Maybe.

[as_reckless_as_ever]

And here I thought absence made the heart grow fonder.

[exiledpower]

I'm afraid my heart only grows blacker by the day. As you well know.

[as_reckless_as_ever]

Maybe I shouldn't have stabbed you through it.

[exiledpower]

[ If you were going for a laugh, Suzaku, congratulations. And even if you weren't, you're getting one anyway, because it's too pathetically funny not to. ]

I see my macabre sense of humor has rubbed off on you, dearest Knight. How unexpected... or would that be unfortunate?

[as_reckless_as_ever]

I'd say unfortunate. I've probably picked up more of your bad habits than I care to admit.

[exiledpower]

That's really unfortunate, then.

[ Head tilt. ]

...wait, what bad habits?

[as_reckless_as_ever]

Do you need a list?

[exiledpower]

[ Twitching. ]

Don't insult me.

[as_reckless_as_ever]

But its my favorite pastime.

[exiledpower]

Is being a complete ass also among your favorite pasttimes?

[as_reckless_as_ever]

You should already know the answer to that.

[exiledpower]

[ FUCK YOU, MAN.

Also if there is red on my face you're totally imagining it. ]

Drink your damn tea.

[as_reckless_as_ever]

[He feigns looking scandalized]

My, how ungracious. You used to be a better host than this.

[exiledpower]

[ YOU FUCKING PILE OF FUCK STOP MAKING ME MAD ]

Do I have to start throwing things at you again?

[as_reckless_as_ever]

Because that worked so well the last time.

You can try calming down, though.

[Sips the tea, ever so nonchalantly.]

[exiledpower]

[ Pft. He's perfectly calm, thank you. Sipping his own tea like a motherfucking boss yeah I can do this way better than you. ]

I was trying to be civil, you know.

[ Except the part at the beginning. That was him just being an asshole. Also, Lulu pouting coming your way. ]

Way to ruin the mood.

[as_reckless_as_ever]

Oh, darn. No sex tonight, then.

[Can't you sense his disappointment?]

[exiledpower]

[ WHAT

THE

CHOKING ON MY TEA A LITTLE OKAY WHAT

sorry no words just staring

just this face

forever

yep. ]