dear_mun | SPOILS! SO MANY SPOILS!

Road....You're like that because of me....

I'm sorry.

Allen, I was the one that jumped in the way. I'm old enough that I can take on the burden of my own actions.

I'm really happy to see you.

[He still couldn't help but feel guilty, but for her sake he smiles. She shouldn't be worrying about him in her condition.]

I'm glad to see you too.

That...chapter, is really confusing. I thought Nea hated the Earl, so why?

[She tries floating closer, but it's hard.]

Allen, pick me up first, okay?

[He blinks, and then does as she asks. This is all so confusing. He doesn't even feel as if he's carrying anything.]

Is this okay?

[Well, she really isn't anything at all right now, so that makes sense. She settles down in his hand.]

Perfect.

As for why? Well, all I'm willing to say is that the bond between the Noah is far stronger than any hate.

[This isn't very comforting, Road. Even if Nea forgives him, he never could. Not after all that he's done.]

....

[He look's down, eyebrows creased. What's he going to do about this.]

Allen, please don't make such a face when I don't have arms to hug you with...

[But he just want's to cry. How do you keep moving forward when the road seems to only lead to your own extinction?]

[Still he takes a deep breadth and presses his emotions back. He needed to support Road for now.]

I'm sorry, don't worry about me. I'll manage somehow.

...Road do you love Nea?

[A small smile crosses Roads little face.]

I do. I love Nea very much. I used to hate you. I wanted Nea back and I wanted you to just disappear. But... I feel in love with you too, Allen. So I can't keep from worrying about you. I want to see Allen smile too.

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[That's a lot to take in. Even after everything, he never actually thought she loved him. Perhaps he convinced himself she had other motives, or he just thought she cared about him as Nea's host.

But her words clutched at his heart. He wanted to believe them, even though she was a Noah, even though they are enemies and destined to fight.]

....I don't want to disappear, and I don't want to die. I don't expect you or anyone to forgive me afterwards, because really I'm just being selfish.

I want to keep living, to keep being me. Even if it means endangering people.

Is that wrong?

It's not wrong to admit that you're human, Allen. No one wants to die. I love that about you. I want you to keep moving forward, no mater what.

[there's a translation for what's on marumaru now, but that's the farthest thing from Allen's mind]

Road . . . He said you're not healed yet. Does that mean you'll be okay? [PLEASE BE OKAY]

[Smile smile, appears floating in his hand.]

Allen~ Of course! I am cuter than Tim, right?

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[weakly smiles down at her. the guilt is just dripping right off him, but when is it not?]

Considering Tim gnaws on me to get his way, I'm going to say yes.

Hold me up to your cheek.

[a slow blink, the ??? practically palpable. then he does as he's asked]

[Road nuzzles her small face against his cheek. She's a warm and swirling mass, but clearly just as human as she was when she first hugged him. Remember the first time, Allen? This is like that, but for a totally different reason. She wants to assure him that she will come back. That she's still alive despite the small form.]

[yes, he remembers the first time, and it wasn't exactly nice. God, everything is so complicated. this, though, surprises him. Allen was expecting a peck on the cheek for effectively calling her cute. this is touching. this is nice. his expression collapses, shocked and tearful]

Ah . . . [still alive. still human. everyone's getting hurt because of him, just because he's selfish. and despite everything, here's another person being so kind about it.

because he made her worry about him. she'll be okay. he stitches himself together and pulls Road's lunar form away, instead holding her in front of him. he gives Road a reassuring smile of his own]

We'll both we okay. [he says it like a promise. a finger pats her head] Thank you, Road.

[Road nods, a few sparks going off around her. It's not that easy to keep any form for long.]

Thank you, Allen, for being alive. Keep moving forward no mater what. [She chuckles softly, tired, as her eyes start to close.] I really love you.

[Allen's smile becomes pained at the edges. he never quite knows what she means when she says she loves him. does she mean the Fourteenth, or Allen? sometimes, even Allen isn't sure where his feelings regarding Road originate. the lines are beyond blurred.

but she used his name, so he'll take it. he nods, determined] Even though it's selfish, I won't give up. Even if my legs stop and my arm rejects me, I'll drag myself forward.

. . . I care about you too, you know. I couldn't say why, but I do. So heal quickly, okay?

[hmmm, who really knows? At first Road would have happily killed the human named Allen like any other human she had met. But now? Well, she just couldn't leave his side. Maybe it was because the 14th was awakening within him, but she didn't think so. She did love Nea, but in the end he was still the Noah of destruction and the one that had killed many others of their kind. Those feels for Allen weren't the same as the ones she had for Nea. Somewhere along this crazy path they had taken Road just knew she loved Allen because he was Allen, even when he said really odd answers like that one.]

Promise.

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aughhhh my heart

feeeels~ so many feeeeeels~ ;-;

feels overloaaad! /lies on the floor and cries

/curls up with so we can have cries pile