On being bound for Adstringendum

[rapunzelled]

M-mundane?

I'm... very grateful you want me to be with Yuui so much. I... I didn't mind dying when it was for him, but... I would've liked to spend more time with him. And... hugs. I want him to hug me.

But, um. It's going to be hard for me. I hope that won't make you angry, but... It's going to be strange, that he is grownup and I'm... like this. And there will be people. Other people. There has only been him and me and we were all that mattered and... I don't know what I think about having other people around.

I'm scared.

But if you don't mind that, then... please. I want to go to him now.

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1/? I DON'T EVEN KNOW.

[youthoughtiwasserious]

[Is that really...]

HE'S ALL FLAILY AND SHIT IN THE MY HEAD RIGHT NOW.

[youthoughtiwasserious]

[But that's impossible. He know's it's impossible because he watched Fai die all those years ago.]

IT'S KIND OF HILARIOUS.

[youthoughtiwasserious]

[And yet...

And yet he had been warned that people could come from different points in time to that place, to the city where he was currently living.]

[youthoughtiwasserious]

[But he really hadn't thought his brother would be one of them.

And now...]

OKAY, I THINK HE'S DONE.

[youthoughtiwasserious]

[And now... he couldn't even think of anything to say. Except for maybe.]

I'll hug you as much as you want.

[rapunzelled]

[And that's...

He's tearing up, and trembling, and yet all he can manage is to curl up on himself helplessly.]

Really? Will you? Will you please?

[youthoughtiwasserious]

[Please, please don't do that, Fai. He know he's supposed to be the strong one. But he can only be so strong against your tears.

He drops to his knees, allowing them to be closer to the same height, and opens his arms.]

I won't let go until you tell me too.

[faeconman]

Funny story, kid, the muns do what they want no matter what we think.

[rapunzelled]

[This glare would totally be fierce if he wasn't so intimidated.] She seems really nice and she's really worried about me and she wants me to be with my twin and that's all that matters.

[faeconman]

She's lovely, I'm sure. My mun likes her an awful lot I can tell you that much.

Your twin, huh? Never had any siblings myself but I do know what that's like. To have someone be the only thing that matters. You be careful with that, okay? It tends to hurt a lot, but I'm guessing you already know as much.

[ Robin is immune to totally fierce glaring. ]

[rapunzelled]

Good.

[Then, in the smallest voice:] He... he's the only thing I had.

I... I don't know if it can be different. I don't... I don't really want anything else.

[bigdogninja]

[Hang on, this kid looks like a mini-Fai.]

You don't have to be scared. [Says the scary-looking huge man.] Kids get looked after around here.

[rapunzelled]

[Flinch flinch WHY DO YOU HAVE TO BE SO SCARY MISTER?]

You... you sure? But I don't... I've never been with people. I don't know how to be.

[bigdogninja]

[Kneels down because wth? The kid is flinching.]

Yeah I'm sure. Haven't been there long but I know it. It'll take some getting used to but you can do it, right? [Have the smallest of smiles, bitty.]

He actually likes kids. ^^;

[smugfox]

Another chance at life, you should be glad.

You'll do fine, I'm sure your Yuui's still gonna hug you, even if you've got more of an age difference now. Besides, you might find y'like other people, too.

No need to be scared.

For breakfast? ^^

[rapunzelled]

I am. [And then, firmer:] I am.

Y-you think so? People that are not Yuui... [This is a completely foreign concept to him.] But I can't help it. But... if he's there... then it won't be so bad.

Hey! He's a good dad and everything. xD

[smugfox]

Glad you are. Living's pretty nice, once you get the hang of it.

He's gonna be there, right? So he can introduce you to nice people and you'll still get to be with Yuui, too. Sounds like a good deal to me.

[earnedmystripes]

[He looks...like a younger version of Fai. And well, with the things he says, and what he knows of the man (even as little as it is), it's not too hard to make the leap.

But it can't be a younger Fai, because Fai's not the one who died...unless Fai is really...Yuui.

...Oh.]

...Is...your name...Fai?

[rapunzelled]

[Another Other Person. That is to say, someone who isn't Yuui. And what is even more terrifying is that this one seems to know who he is. Does he know what they are as well, then?]

Y-yes. A-are you angry with me?

[earnedmystripes]

Why would I be--?

[He shakes his head, smiles gently.]

No, of course not. I think I might know your Yuui, though. [Softly--] But he said his name was Fai.

[rabbitinthemoon]

I hope that you're able to go to him.

[rapunzelled]

...so do I.

She promised, though. A promise means it's for real, right?

[feelsthestorm]

[There's so much fear coming off this kid that Eilidh could feel it from miles away. Which she did. Which is why she's here now, but that's not really relevant. All that matters is this poor kid in front of her who looks completely terrified, with the slightest bit of hope mixed in.]

[He doesn't trust adults, that much is painfully clear, so she crouches down to mitigate the height difference. Not that she has a great deal of height herself, but.]

[She sends a wave of comfort and safety to him, gently so as not to overwhelm him or scare him more than he already is. Visions of what happened to him are coming to her in waves, but she tries to block them out as best she can. It feels like such an invasion of privacy to see them, although she can't help it any more than he can help sending them.]

You don't have to be scared, sweetie. [She says it softly, sending a touch more comfort to him when she speaks, knowing it won't be enough and hating the universe for that.]

Yuui will give you all the hugs you want. He loves you very, very much. [She says it with certainty, because, well, it's obvious. And she wants him to know, because she can feel the doubt bleeding into the corners of his hope.]

I'm not very good at being around people either. [She hesitates. Normally she'd never look into her mun's head, but it seems necessary now.] Neither is my mun. But she's very good friends with your mun, and I can promise you that your mun is safe. She wants to take care of you and take you to Yuui so you can be happy. She's really good at taking care of people, so you don't have to be scared of her.

[It's not enough, but for the moment, it's all she has.]

[rapunzelled]

[This person feels... warm. Nice. But there is something, something like a change coming from her, and that makes him a bit wary.]

You... did something? [He bites his lip uncertainly.] Not bad, though.

[But he does look the tinest bit more relaxed, and there's a spark of hope passing briefly in his eyes.] That sounds... nice. Warm. I'd... I'd like it, if someone took care of me. But I wouldn't want to cause trouble.

[feelsthestorm]

Oh sweetling, you wouldn't cause any trouble. I promise. [Every instinct she has is screaming at her to hug him, but she can feel the wariness and knows it'd just scare him more, the poor thing.]

And no, I don't think I did anything...well, sometimes I can feel what other people feel, and most people can't do that, so it makes them uncomfortable. Sometimes people don't like me because of that, or they get scared of me. But I'm more scared of them. People can get...noisy sometimes, and I just think they won't like me.

[She feels like an idiot for admitting this, given the visions of this poor kid's past that are still finding their way into her head. She hesitates, but feels it needs to be said.]

For what it's worth, I don't think you did anything bad either. People are just...strange sometimes. [Have all the awkward avoidant lady, bitty. But she means well!]