the adventures of bad life choices pt. 2

[dicey]

Yeah, yeah, so I'm a big fat hypocrite. I'm really confused about stuff, and I'm not telling my moirail about some of it. But you know what? I'm doing the best that I can, so you can stuff it with your judgements, asshole! If it wasn't all wrapped up in someone else's personal shit, he'd have known days ago, so it's not like I don't have my reasons.

And look, this has been a long time coming. Being enticed by the idea of power and infamy is way more a part of my biology than being okay with living a quiet and unassuming life. If you think about it that way, NOT doing bad things makes me more of a freak than anything! Maybe I'm going to burn out from goodness and get bored. Maybe trying to adapt so I won't have to be alone will fail, and I'll just end up alone anyway. Maybe I don't want to spend the rest of my life as a freak. There are a lot of maybes here.



And quit saying I'm making bad life choices. I haven't done anything. I haven't made a fucking choice.

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[dicey]

Why do you?

[senseofjustice]

You're the one who said I was...

[She pauses. Is this really worth getting into an argument over?]

Look, I just -- I didn't mean for it to come out like I was meaning for any of this to be a last resort.

Because it wasn't.

[dicey]

I don't really care, anyway.

[senseofjustice]

But you didn't sound all that happy when you said that before. It kind of sounded like you cared to me.

[dicey]

I think you're reading too much into things! You do that a lot. It's annoying!