An old muse finally came back from lj; homeless but potentially looking

[peccaret]

[ The voice comes soft, bitter, and amused all at once. And, it is not without a twinge of envy. For someone who is seemingly leading an empty and endless existence, that's quite a bit of emotion that can be read. That is, for those who know her. Otherwise, she simply comes off as stoic. ] One more. [ Wrath. ] To what end do we seek now, if there will ever be one? Will it all burn, like all those years ago? [ Does it seem like she's talking to herself? Oh, yes. ] Or will this simply continue on, a cycle never-ending?

[ ... ]

I do not pray, Mundane. The inevitable will play out in its fatality. It would be foolish to hope for a peaceful resolution.

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AAAAAH ELLUKAAAAA

[falseidentity]

[...The Countess can tel you've been through a lot, though she. Doesn't quite understand your words.]

Sometimes, hoping for a certain resolution can be just enough. Otherwise there is little reason to continue onward, is there not?

asdfgjhkl GO EASY ON ME it's been a while for this muse

[peccaret]

[ She glances away, dismissively, a small smile upon her lips. ] Such hope... it is for the transient. [ True words, perhaps, and even truer still for her. She isn't transient. She's eternal. ]

Me and my Veno/Allen want to collect you. ;u; Because yesssss.

[falseidentity]

Perhaps you are right. But without hope for the future, then there is only stagnation. I couldn't live like that.

[It would be far to boring.]

you're at a game with them??

[peccaret]

When one does not change, yes, that is the result. [ Stagnation. ] But change occurs regardless of hope, and it is not often for the better. So I ask: why waste time with it?

NO, but I have a musebox for Evillious things! /o/;

[falseidentity]

Because even if change happens regardless, even a tiny hope can have sway.

[It's why she's risking herself to find the missing women. Not just for Yufina... But because someone has to, and because someone has to be brave enough to.]

!!!! count me in, bro/sis!

[peccaret]

You are truly dedicated to this 'hope', I see. [ A chuckle. If it sounds like she's mocking her, well. She is. ]

I will PM it to you shortly.

[falseidentity]

If I don't hope, then I've already lost. It's as simple as that. And I can't go losing when there's countless missing women.

[Not after she's already cut her hair, had to pretend to be something other than a countess, lost someone else dear to her--]

/o/

[peccaret]

[ Her lips purse as she regards her thoughtfully for a moment. Eventually, in a slightly deadpan voice: ] Ah, I suppose there is a need for people like you in the world...

[ Blah blah hopeful fools and all. ]

[falseidentity]

My husband would agree with you, for what it's worth.

[NOT THAT SHE... Likes Count Crim. :| Such a jealous and controlling man.]

SCREECHES COME TO MY ARMS AAAAA

[servantofevil]

[ ... You remind him of someone he knows though you look entirely different--the way you talk though. Allen has to be sure! ]

... Miss Clockworker? Do you mean that knife...?

[ You know, the one he stopped Clarith from using and becoming Wrath HERSELF with... man, for the one who is apparently going to eventually be important he's very out of the loop here. ]

/CRASHES INTO EMBARRASSINGLY

[peccaret]

[ Allen, too, gets a small, ironic smile. How many times has she see that particular face again and again? There is a hint of gratefulness, however, for what he has done. ] ...Ah? You recognize me. [ She'll ignore the comment about the knife for now. Pointedly. ]

HOLDS YOU HAPPILY HRRRR Ellukaaa *A*

[servantofevil]

[ A-ah... she's being herself again. This is definitely the woman he knew. Allen tries to smile, but this is a little... awkward for him. ]

It... was more your demeanor. But it's nice to see you again.

[ He isn't even aware of much. Hell, he had no idea she was possessing someone else, so he just thinks she changed how she looks using ~magic~ or something. ]

And... I'm sorry about not going with you when you offered. I don't really know what you're trying to do, but... if I can help, I'll try.

[ You know even though he's technically dead BUT STILL. ]

/ALSO CLINGS TO ALLEN

[peccaret]

[ The sharp look in her eyes tell that yes, yes, he should have gone with her. She then glances away. ] What is done is done. [ It's not a comment of accepting an apology. ] Whether it [ That is, him being like... a ghost or whatever. ] complicates events or not in the end remains to be seen.

;A; ALL THE HOLDINGS

[servantofevil]

[ ........ Yeah he has no idea what's going on with his non-life anymore to be honest. But he caught that look. There's a lot of guilt. He feels like he let so many people down. He could have done so many things differently, but he wouldn't, because it was all for her sake. ]

... You've... been through a lot more than I know about, haven't you. I... I'm sorry. It does matter. You shouldn't be alone.

[ Statement. She wasn't a very open person but Allen wasn't a stupid boy. ]

... I... hope you can find what you're looking for. Whatever it is.

ALL MY FEELINGS..... i cannot can anymore

[peccaret]

[ Yes, the intro the post would be cryptic to anyone else-- that much is obvious. But to those that do know her, they can easily put two and two together. Allen is part of a much greater plan, it seems. They are all. And she agreed to see this through-- to put herself throughout all of it-- on a mere whim of hers. It's almost laughable.

Again, she doesn't respond to the statement of her being alone. It's true she is alone now, to some extent. Having Irina as a part of her now doesn't always help, actually. ] It would be wiser to hope for yourself at this point.

Who even can can anymore (wow I'm just picturing the dance now)

[servantofevil]

[ ... He laughs lightly, but it's... it's fine, for him. Like her, he doesn't mind. He feels he earned where he's at and although he has no idea what's really going on, well... ]

... I wouldn't be too worried. I mean, I earned this punishment, right? How much worse can it get than being stuck in chains for eternity? I think that's pretty light, actually. I'm lucky. ... Besides, everyone else is okay.

[ He has no idea. Not even the slightest. To be honest, he just thinks it's purgatory at this point... though sometimes the singing he hears reminds him of the past... ]

I'm... well, I guess there isn't much I can do right now about it either way. Worrying won't do me much good.

i can't do the can can :U

[peccaret]

[ She notices his use of the work punishment. For a moment her thoughts go to the Master of the Hellish Yard, who often deals wish such things. But the moment passes. ] Whether you are chained to a certain place or not... you would still be alone. [ It's just that his prison is still very much definable and solid. They who are immortal-- they are alone regardless of chains. And, perhaps, that does give him indication that she is more than just a human. ]

[prolong]

[E's trying to make heads and tails of what she said, but in all honesty, he can't even begin to figure it out.]

You don't make any sense.

[at least he's blunt about it]

[peccaret]

[ ...Well, it was like she had been talking to herself. Or maybe she really is crazy.

Still. Plebeian. A small smile. ] Does it not?

[prolong]

No, not really.

[E shrugs. it's not like he's trying to understand either.]

But I think that it looks like you don't even want a peaceful end.

[peccaret]

[ Maybe, maybe not, at this point. Perhaps she simply wants an end. ] It is true that the swiftest of ends is not always a good one.

[prolong]

But it's the most painless, I guess. I mean if you draw something out too long then it's just too painful. [and god, how he hated pain. he had felt enough pain in his prolonged life, no thanks to the doctors.]

[peccaret]

Not in my experience. [ It's said with a slight cough. Well... it's not entirely untrue. She tends to just leave out of frustration and not deal with the problems. ]

[prolong]

Well that makes one of us. [he glances away, rolling his eye. he got used to feeling frustrated and pained, but it didn't annoy him any less.]

[peccaret]

[ She recognizes that flippant attitude. ] ...Some say the more you wait, the harder it is to abstain from such pain.