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I know this seems like some sort of good idea. But, you know, it really isn't... [ !!! ] not even a little bit. It's actually really weird and--
Look, okay, it's nice to be thought of, sure. I get that. It's been a while.
But that place is really not for me. Not even a little bit. It's just-- I mean-- You'd think that they'd--
....I'm just really not in the mood.
Look, okay, it's nice to be thought of, sure. I get that. It's been a while.
But that place is really not for me. Not even a little bit. It's just-- I mean-- You'd think that they'd--
....I'm just really not in the mood.
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Oh? It's, um-- [ ... ] you mean, you have to [ hnngh ] with... other people?
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[ Sighs ]
I mean, they're not you
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Yeah. Yeah. That's where I'm at. I just... don't want to if it's not you.
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A whole bunch of the Avengers are there, Teddy. Not... the ones we know, but still--! Outside of... y'know... all that other stuff that's kind of cool...?
[ He knows he's grasping at straws but it's the only positive he's got right now. ]
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And I don't have anything that cool where I'm at.... everyone I knew left..
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Oh yeah? Who was there? --wait, so you're by yourself now??
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[ ... ]
Have you, um-- [ He thinks he can ask but HAHA jk. Can't do it. ] Are you okay?
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...but, I feel sick after every single time..
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[ <-- totally helpful over here. ]
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I don't really think I can force myself to look forward to this. It's just not... something I'm interested in.
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Well you certainly do not have to look forward to it. But at this point perhaps you should think about accepting it as an inevitability! Buck up, as it were!
[ .. are all mortals this prude? gosh. ]
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That feels too much like giving in and I really don't want to just take it at face value. That doesn't seem fair.
[ No, just a couple of them are still left floating around ]
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Ah, it is human nature I suppose, to rail against a thing you cannot hope to defeat, yes? But very well! If you wish to stew in your own misery, that is very much your prerogative! A shame, though!
[ i dunno, man .. ]
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I don't see how it's a shame. Maybe you're used to going new places and doing crazy things--but I'm not. Not like this. And you had Thor to help your transition, didn't you? I don't know anyone and I have to do that with people I don't know--
It's just... difficult to want to just "buck up" about it.
[ HE DOESN'T WANT HIS FIRST TIME TO BE WITH A STRANGER OK. ]
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Ah, but you are a young hero, are you not? You have surely done your fair share of crazy things, as it were! This is another obstacle to overcome, and nothing more!
[ sorry billy HE IS KIND OF INSENSITIVE AND HE DOESN'T UNDERSTAND YOUR FLIMSY MORTAL SENSIBILITIES. IT IS JUST SEX OKAY HE DOESN'T GET IT. ]
And you will not be entirely alone! I shall be there, to keep you company! [ ... don't you dare roll your eyes or groan or cry okay JERK ] And the other Avengers, as well! Thor will look after you, I am certain.
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Yeah, I'm not saying I haven't. But I also haven't been forced to sleep with people for no reason at all! I know it's probably different where you come from--you're a god, what does it matter to you?--but sex isn't a light topic. It means something to me.
[ He knows. It's Loki. It's sort of expected. ]
...I don't-- [ oh god. BIGGEST UNSURE LOOK OF ALL UNSURE LOOKS. ] I just met you. And I definitely don't even understand you--how you're... you. Him? Loki. [ what????? Billy use English you crazy kid. ] They don't know me. And I don't want them looking after me--that isn't what I meant.
[ >| ]
I can take care of myself.
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nevertheless, loki sighs, shrugs, and spreads his hands with a wry smile. is this what they call teenage angst? loki doesn't understand that, either. at any rate, there seems to be no possible course of action that loki can take to comfort this kid who seems so stubbornly set against it. ]
All right, yes, of course, of course! If pessimism is your chosen course, far be it for me to set you off of your rails! If nothing I can say will cheer you, I suppose your best comfort is your own misery, yes? Suit yourself!
[ maybe some people just like to whine! ]
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He's not really set against being comforted--not really. It's just... well, he doesn't know. This is all just a kneejerk reaction. It'll blow over, sure, but for now? He'll be digging his heels in to pretend it's not going to happen. Denial is a city in Billytown.
But, then he starts to feel bad. Logically, he knows Loki is just trying to help (which, what the hell--still can't really wrap his mind around that one) and he shouldn't be such a tightass about this.
SUCH DEFEAT. sighs. ]
Sorry. I didn't mean to-- [ aguwejal;kegjlakjdf ] I guess just right now I can't see it as anything other than pessimistically. I can't help but be hung up about stuff.
Like--okay. You have things that are really important to you, yeah? So super important that if it was taken or lost, you'd be upset. That's sort of how I'm feeling right now.
[ HE'S NOT READY TO BECOME A MAN!!!!!!! ]
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nevertheless, loki shakes his head and spreads his hands, smiling amiably. ]
You needn't explain yourself to me! I understand entirely! Do what is in your best interest, then, whatever that may be.
[ BILLY YOU ARE SERIOUSLY THE UNMANLIEST.
but he supposes he can understand, to a point, how it feels to lose something important. he thinks of the serpent war, the prophecy, the loss of his brother. he thinks of leah, and of thori. and of course .. ikol. loki knows very well how it feels to lose, though he still does not place virginity on the same pedestal. you crazy earth kids. ]
Nevertheless, you shall persevere!
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Billy just sighs and shakes his head, looking slightly sheepish. ]
No, I mean. It's not like it's your fault or anything. [ s h r u g s ] Dunno what my best interest is in this instance, really.
[ SHUT UP. CERTAINLY SOMEONE EXISTS THAT IS LESS MANLY THAN HE IS... ]
Yeah. Eventually, I guess. Just giving up really isn't an option. But, I don't have to be happy about persevering. And I won't.
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just. billy. ]
You're a charming fellow, aren't you?
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How can anyone relax??
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