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[waitedlongenough]

Oh, you're crying again. Well don't. It was a great story. It was a real story. Not everything turns out the way you want, but I got my ending. I got the boy, and I had plenty of adventures. I don't regret anything.

I don't think the Doctor does either. Endings happen. Even he knows that.

Besides if he's here then you're already rewriting time. And you have me on the island. I've got loads more things to do. And you know it. So wipe your eyes and come on, then.

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[ofdrumsthesound]

It's okay.

Soulmates never die.

[lonelyassassin]

[ I guess then a "you're welcome" is in order. ]

[timeforgotten]

[ Aha, someone talking sense. ]

I thought it was a very nice ending. [ he says while he you know very determinedly does not think about the Doctor's very upset face, nope not even a little. ] I mean, you've only got to look at things logically.

[waitedlongenough]

It isn't logic. It was my story, and I chose the ending.

[timeforgotten]

But it is about logic. You chose, and then you lived for a very long time. Not where you belong, but comfortably. That's nothing to regret.

[waitedlongenough]

He won't see it like that. But I hope my letter helped.

[timeforgotten]

Oh, I expect so. I don't know him with that face, but it is still the Doctor. [ More or less. This requires serious pondering. Gotta get your head in the game. A+ comforting going on here. ] If there's anything he can't stand more than endings, it's not knowing something.

[ Like whether the endings are good ones or not. ]

[waitedlongenough]

You know'im then? [She grins a bit. Not the first Scot.]

Then I'm glad he had the letter.

[timeforgotten]

You should be. [ Aww yes, the feeling of feeling like he's right a lot. ] And yes, I travel with him. I'm Adric. We've also got Tegan and Nyssa. [ Tsk. ] Or did, I suppose. It must have been a long time ago now.

[waitedlongenough]

I'm Amy. [She smiles with a nod.] Yeah, flow of time works even more-- wobbly here.

[timeforgotten]

'Wobbly'? [ The eyebrows are going, going... up. Gurl what sort of way of putting it is that even. And why is Adric such a dick no one knows ]

[comeonthensexy]

I told you I hate endings.

[waitedlongenough]

Then go and begin something fantastic, bow tie boy.

[comeonthensexy]

[ Don't give him that look. ]

Of course I will. But that doesn't change that there's been an ending.

[waitedlongenough]

Then don't think about it. I was getting old anyway. What would you do with me when I was say sixty and couldn't run as fast?

We got our ending, the Williamses. And they grew old together.

[comeonthensexy]

Oh, I was old once. You make do.

[ That does make him smile, just a little, though.

He was never really meant to be a part of their life. But how a part of him wanted to be. ]

I can't just stop thinking about it.

[waitedlongenough]

I'm not saying you should.

But you're here now. There's loads of mes. This could never have happened if you want it. Pretendy funtimes they call it, yeah. So go on, pretend.

[comeonthensexy]

[ He gives something like a laugh. ]

If it was that simple.

[waitedlongenough]

It is. My writer has two other versions of me. Plus she put me in a game from the time I forgot Rory. On purpose.

You can do it, too.

[justthedoctor]

Yes, Amy Pond, endings happen. I'm just tired of being the cause of so many untimely ones. [No pun intended.

Honestly, he doesn't even seem to have enough energy in himself for enough humor for a pun even if he had intended it. He looks downright wrecked, and is obviously doing a very poor job of hiding it.]

[waitedlongenough]

Oh, you. Who said this was anything about you? It was my choice. Don't you remember? The Doctor or Rory? I love you, I will always love you, but I can't live without him.

[It may have been an ending, but it was hers. She chose it.]

[justthedoctor]

If I had just learned to stop dragging other people along when I know it will just get them killed, then this never would have happened. You could have stayed that happy little child who would grow up and get married to her childhood sweetheart, have an army of happy little children, and live a long, happy, normal life.

I never asked you to, Amy. I would never ask you to...

I'm just...so tired of wrecking so many things.

[Alright, so she did live a long life. The tombstone told him that. And she said she was happy in that hearts-breaking letter in the book. But that doesn't change the fact that he still blames himself for what happened, and inside his head, that horrible little voice he never lets anyone know about is shouting accusations and hate inward, telling himself he ruined their lives and they had to make due in a time that wasn't their own, that they'd had to suffer so much trauma and heartache over the years they knew him and afterward, all because he simply couldn't leave well enough alone.]

[waitedlongenough]

You didn't wreck anything. We knew all along it could happen. But we chose it. We chose you. I wouldn't trade anything. I had a normal life, Doctor. I grew old with the man I love. What is more normal than that?

And you listen to me. Never stop changing people's lives. Go find a new companion. A fun one. Get yourself out of this rut.

[justthedoctor]

[He just wilts quietly, and tries to wipe away the tears discreetly, pinching the bridge of his nose. As if she can't tell anyway.

And for once, the rambly, chatty Doctor simply can't think of anything good to say as he tries to keep from completely breaking down. Because he hears what she's saying, and he understands it, and he loves them so much that he wants to be happy for the happiness they were able to find.

But just as strongly, that self-hate is in his head, whispering toxic things and telling him it's wrong, it's all wrong, and it's all his fault. Most times, he can prattle on and throw up a happy face and do his best to ignore that horrible voice that curses him in his own voice. But not now. Not after what happened. Maybe in time, just like he does after every time he loses those he loves. But not right now.]

I'm sorry. I'm so. sorry.

[waitedlongenough]

No. Don't you apologize. The only thing you did wrong was try and keep me from Rory. And I don't blame you for it. So look at me, Raggedy Man. Don't. You'll go on. I promise you will. You'll have lots more adventures, and meet new people. You're good at it.

You won't forget us, and we won't forget you. [To her, that's what matters. She had a long life. She had a happy life. In all the endings there could ever be, she grew up. Amy is okay with that.

But she knows it isn't enough for him. He tried to leave many times. In the end, this was the only thing that could have happened. Or worse. She pulls him into a tight hug.]

You'll be fine, Doctor.