I don't even know what I'm doing anymore

[disgracedvoid]

}↠ Your lack of self control is disgraceful
}↠ Furthermore, I fail to see how I could have brought any of this upon myself
}↠ I am willing enough to admit my shortcomings, but I refuse to let you blame me for yours

Comments

[disgracedvoid]

}↠ I do not wish to continue this thread of conversation
}↠ Please
}↠ Suffice it to say
}↠ That he has never wronged me
}↠ And would not do so, even if he were to cull me

[grand_lowblood]

alright alright
but i am sad you think you deserve that

do you want to ask me something instead?

[disgracedvoid]

}↠ I do not
}↠ Wish to intrude
}↠ But that I have made obvious what fuels my interest
}↠ Beyond curiosity
}↠ So if you are not uncomfortable indulging it
}↠ I would not mind knowing
}↠ What your life has been like

[grand_lowblood]

i dont mind but it isn't all really happy
as you probably got from what i was saying the highbloods are the warm blooded trolls and the bright red motherfucker is our emperor
the common idea put up by highbloods is that lowbloods like me and you are cold, ruthless and at worst stupid animals that hurt others
they use this as an excuse to belittle us and make us do fucking slave labor
if we go the least bit out of line then we're likely going to be culled within the hour

like in your world i became moirails with a sea troll of deep purple blood
your empress, our mutant
thats the ugly way of putting it though
she was a motherfucking miracle

for the most part my life consisted of keeping her hidden and safe
you got any more questions bro?

[disgracedvoid]

}↠ My condolences on your situation
}↠ It is clear to me the hemospectrum has failed to be understood as it should

[grand_lowblood]

the hemospectrum only exists because those in power make it so
if everyone stopped believing it then we would get along better

a better troll than me could make that sound more pretty but its true either way

[disgracedvoid]

}↠ No
}↠ The hemospectrum exists for a reason
}↠ The old tenets might have been perverted by time and ignorance
}↠ But it does not exist to oppress
}↠ It exists to guide and shelter and teach a troll the path to true nobility

[grand_lowblood]

by teaching trolls that only the blood color of the ruling class is noble and the rest are servants?

or is there a message i missed?

[disgracedvoid]

}↠ It is less about servitude
}↠ As it is about finding joy in your lot in life
}↠ Nobility has less to do with one's bloodcolor
}↠ Than it does with what that bloodcolor means to you

[grand_lowblood]

what does it mean to be a noble empress or emperor?

and what does it mean to be a noble lowblood?

[disgracedvoid]

}↠ The Empress carries on her shoulders the weight of an empire
}↠ It is difficult for one who does not share that responsibility
}↠ To understand how it can be handled, it is not our place to judge
}↠ A noble lowblood should be no different from a noble highblood
}↠ Feel pride on your blood and heritage
}↠ Find fulfillment in committing to the obligations associated to your caste
}↠ Live within your means, never above or below

[grand_lowblood]

shouldn't the empress have empathy?
understanding of even the lowest?
and why should jobs be regulated to caste?
there are some things i dont like about myself
but ive got a singing voice other trolls wish they had
but my caste is only used for labor and a way to haunt the dreams of the empire's enemies
so even though im not a green blood i want to sing
i can sing
but the only thing the highbloods see is a brute

[disgracedvoid]

}↠ Empathy will make you weak, you
}↠ Pardon
}↠ He taught me that
}↠ Empathy and sympathy will cloud your judgment, leave you vulnerable to make choices
}↠ That are based on emotions and not logic
}↠ True justice comes from facts, not from feelings
}↠ As for what duties are assigned to each caste
}↠ I do not know the conditions of your world, so I cannot hope to explain it
}↠ In mine, the training required to become proficient in a skill is one of the main considerations for such
}↠ Low bloods live short, frugal lives
}↠ By the time they would master the skills required for most highblood positions
}↠ They would have already died
}↠ It is not cruelty, but practicality
}↠ Or, at the very least
}↠ It should not be

[grand_lowblood]

empathy is a good thing darkleer
it makes you understand just a moment what it is like to be in the position of others
if you can't do that how can you understand what an entire empire of very different trolls need and want?
putting yourself higher makes you forget what is really important
what is an empire if its people are frightened and hurt by the ruling class?

where is the honor in hurting someone purely for what they say?
or what they are

[disgracedvoid]

}↠ Empathy is a refuge available only to those not
}↠ Given the duty to uphold order

[grand_lowblood]

empathy should be had by those that make the laws and everyone in general but especially the ones who make the rules
in that way they will understand how to make everyone happy and protect everyone
and not give in to tyrannical regimes

[disgracedvoid]

}↠ You are naive, if you truly believe that
}↠ No matter what the leader does, it will be seen as tyrannical by those below him or her
}↠ By the simple reason that they are not in power

[grand_lowblood]

would you say culling a troll and stealing from them are the same crime?
things can always seem like they could be better
but there are ways from staying away from a true tyranny.

[disgracedvoid]

}↠ I would say there is a law, as old as trollkind, that we must uphold
}↠ I say ignorance of the law is no excuse to not uphold the law

[grand_lowblood]

but the issue here is some of the law is flawed
or not being held in the honorable way it was originally intended.
you shouldn't have to fear being culled for your blood color
or being used as a literal tool for the empire.
serving your empire is a wonderful thing but your empire turning you into a murderer or a machine is not.

so im going to tell you this right now
what you did for the green girl,
it was an honorable thing brother and id welcome you into my hive any day because of it.

[disgracedvoid]

}↠ Then it is the task of those up above to revise and reconstruct the law so it will be fitting once more
}↠ Trolls are not culled for their bloodcolor
}↠ Trolls are culled for not accepting their bloodcolor and breaking the law
}↠ But you are wrong, there is no higher privilege that one could aspire to, than to serve the empire and her Imperiousness
}↠ If that is what the empire needs, then that is what you must be
}↠ The individual does not and should not matter, in comparison with the well-being of the whole

}↠ Do not
}↠ Speak of things
}↠ You know nothing about

[grand_lowblood]

i know a lot about this thing darkleer
ive seen it
trolls just like you looked down upon and whose worth is nothing more than a tool for people higher than you
your dignity taken
your worth devalued to only what you can do
and there is so much violence.

the will of the trolls that make up a nation are the empire and what should shape it
not someone who looks down upon the lower classes.

being peaceful and kind got me so much more than being violent ever did.

[disgracedvoid]

}↠ You do not
}↠ You see what affects you directly, the evils of your condition
}↠ You do not see or know or understand the challenges on those who oppress you
}↠ You do not wish to, because you, like all other rebels and up-risers, prefer to think of the world as a simple place
}↠ You wish to see this as an issue of black and white
}↠ Good and bad
}↠ Right and wrong
}↠ It is not
}↠ I have seen what revolutions want, Makara

[...slip of tongue, he hasn't called him - any version of him - that in a very long time, whoops.]

}↠ You don't want balance or reform
}↠ You merely want to put yourselves up and have revenge on those who abuse you
}↠ It is a cycle that will never end, so long as trolls remain ignorant and biased
}↠ And above all, blind

[grand_lowblood]

how can you have such a skewed view of us?

i love a red blood as i would the deepest of purples.
we want equality, we want a regime that wont promote fighting.
a group of rulers representing everyone on the hemospectrum rather than simply one at the top.

[He smiles.]

i think youre the one who has blinded yourself to your own emotions darkleer.

[disgracedvoid]

}↠ You want a regime that does not let trolls be trolls