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[I could always fight, though. And I get hurt a lot, and I...don't want to imagine you getting hurt.]

...Yuuki-kun told me you rejected a Switch, once.

[ well, there is that. fighting and getting hurt are like two sides of the same coin, aren't they?

...oh. yuuki-san did? ] It was... probably a few weeks before you arrived at Amanogawa, Ryusei-san. It was Scorpio who gave me one.

[I may have occasionally asked her about things to get her to stop singing. But you didn't hear that from me.]

We're different from Zodiarts, but...Meteor Switch is also just a Switch. ...Tomoko-chan...how about just simple self-defense?

[ but why? hayabusa-kun is one of the best songs of all time

of all time ]

Mm. But the Meteor Switch doesn't amplify any of your negative feelings, does it?

[Our musical tastes will be one thing we will never agree on. ~~You can use Hayabusa-kun Metal as a weapon PROBLEM SOLVED~~]

......Tomoko-chan, I... [...killed Gentarou once.]

...I know I'm the one who brought it up. But I didn't...I don't think....

...does it? [ wait this is something i've never thought about before. i've always thought kamen rider switch only grant positive ~~statuses~~ things to its user... ]

[Flustered.] ...No.

Tomoko-chan, do you...want to use a Switch?

[ now i'm the one flustered. ] ...no, No! I just--

[ clasping my hands together! ] I just... sometimes I think it might be nice, being the one protecting others instead of... being protected.

[Remember when I first arrived and I beat Gentarou up and then you yelled at me? It was because I was a better fighter at the time. The Rider thing isn't this...magical thing that can...make things happen...]

I understand. But... [How do I put this? Jirou wanted power, too...] ...I don't think...it's something that can be forced. [I've seen you angry, but I've never seen you hit someone.]

[ i... yelled at you because you were doing things you weren't supposed to be doing :(

sigh. i suppose that's another thing that makes riders different from zodiarts, even if they both grant powers to their users, right?

and i could never-- hit anyone. probably. ] Mm. You're right, of course.

[Well...our Rider Switches are just tools. The Zodiarts Switches force spontaneous evolution. It's why, when you said you wanted to experience power....]

[Don't get me wrong. I'm not opposed to the idea of you defending yourself.] Didn't you...give me a charm for the sake of protecting me?

[ but sometimes i... want to do more. you don't know how it feels like to watch someone you care about getting hurt while you basically can't... do anything to help.

nodding! ] Yes, but... a lot of people don't believe it works. [ including you? ]

[Would you...get angry at me if I told you how helpless I felt with Jirou, even though I was given the chance to help him? How helpless I felt when Tachibana-san died, and when Sagittarius shot me? ...How I felt when you all offered your souls to Kijima for my sake? I'm beginning to realize... I don't think there's a cure for feeling helpless.]

...Why should that matter? [Doesn't it work?]

[ ...no, no i wouldn't. i guess even people who are powerful enough to be kamen riders can feel powerless, at times. you're right: there's no cure for it. ]

Because wards are more effective if the user believes they work. If they're skeptical of it at the beginning, then its effectiveness is lessened, and ultimately it... fails to do what it's supposed to.

[ sigh. ] I know it makes me... different [ and, before gentarou-san arrived, why i don't have any friends at school ] but I... believe in these things.

[Tomoko-chan...I didn't mean to criticize you. ~~I hear our kohai Rider are pretty magical.~~]

[I appreciate the charm all the same, you know.] I think we're all...different...in some way. We protect people in our own special ways, too. [Tachibana-san protected me as Virgo a few times, and Shirakawa-kun tried to protect me from Aries. My point is...] ...I believe this charm works.

[ ~~do you mean wizard because i am studying him and i plan on scrutinizing him when we meet~~ ]

You... do?

[~~We'll probably get to meet him in the next Rider-Rider movie.~~]

I do. [Why did that sound so serious uh] Shouldn't I?

[Wait no that is a circuitous question. Instead...] It's...from you. [And it has your feelings in it.] So I believe in it.

[ ~~i hope we will i'm so excited to see him in person imagine a new kamen rider and he's a wizard ryusei-san do you know how awesome it will be? it will be so awesome i can't wait!~~ ]

Ryusei-san... that's so nice of you.

[ohtokugod don't let him be too impressive I finally asked her ...in the vaguest way possible but that counts right]

[I've always believed in you, though. Anyway, back to the topic that started all this...] About the games thing...if it seems like a Switch, I don't think it'd be...wise...to take it. [I can't stop you or anything, but...]

[ don't be silly meteor will always be the kamen rider for me but wizard's the newest and haruto-san seems so cool and i happen to be an otaku ]

If it was up to me... [ then i'll just do what i did before and throw the switch away. but, this time... ] Mun-san is still looking, though-- Ryusei-san, do you know what a psl is?

[You don't mind if I just happen to be loitering in the background, right? ~~I'll outcool him no matter what~~]

[Ah, that's right, muns can force... Calming thoughts, Ryusei, calm...] I've never heard of it.

[ ryusei-san that... isn't really necessary... ]

...Hmm. Mun-san is thinking it can be an alternative to games.

[...I feel like we've had this conversation before, in reverse....]

What is it?

[ no i don't know what you're talking about ]

I... don't have a clear understanding of it but from what I know, it's... something that muns talk about and decide on what we should do?

[I feel like I should be learning something from this.]

That's horrible. [I have this bad feeling, like my mun is...]