Considering doing a retcon and giving Jarjammed another shot

[whereyourheartsupat]

HeY, mUn.

I KnOw yOu'rE AlL FeElInG IlL As aLl fUcK Up iN YoUr cEnTeR ThErE, aNd yOu cAn't rEaLlY Be hElPiNg tHaT, jUsT GoTtA Be fLoWiNg wItH ThE WoRlD WhErEvEr iT'S AlL TaKiNg yOu, BuT ArE YoU SuRe yOu wAnT To bE Up aNd tUrNiNg mY WhOlE MoThErFuCkInG HiStOrY AnD ShIt oN It's hEaD? eSpEcIaLlY WhEn yOu aIn't aLl bEiNg sUrE At wHaT YoU WaNt tO Be uP AnD DoInG WiTh mE In tHe fIrSt pLaCe? I CaN GeT DoWn wItH HaViNg sOmE NeW MiRaClEs aLl pReSeNtEd bEfOrE Me, BuT I JuSt aIn't sUrE AbOuT LoSiNg mY OlD SeLf iN ExChAnGe. ThAt sHiT'S AlL At bEiNg pArT Of wHo i aM, yOu dIg? EvEn tHe bAd sTuFf iS PaRt oF WhAt gEtS To bE MaKiNg mE My oWn sElF, aNd i dOn't rEaLlY WaNt tO GiVe uP On tHe gOoD YeT EiThEr.

BuT If yOu'rE ReAlLy sUrE AbOuT KiCkInG ThIs rEdO NoIsE, i gUeSs i cOuLd tRy tO GeT DoWn wItH It tOo. JuSt gOt tO ReMeMbEr tHaT MeAnS We'vE GoT To sTaRt fReSh. HaVe tO FiNd sOmE WaY To gEt a bItChInG NeW BeGiNnInG On, YoU AnD Me, Me aNd mOtHeRfUcKiNg yOu. We gEt tHaT AlL GoInG FoR TrUe, ThAt sHiT'S GoInG To bE A MiRaClE In iTsElF, eVeN If wE Do eNd uP MaKiNg a mOtHeRfUcKiNg fOoL Of oUr oWn sElVeS TwIcE. sOmEtImEs sHiT JuSt dOn't pAn oUt aNd tHaT'S CoOl tOo. JuSt gOtTa oPeN YoUr eYeS To tHe mIrAcLeS ArOuNd yOu aNd sEe wHaT NeW DiReCtIoNs yOu sHoUlD Be hEaDiNg iN.

:o)

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[whereyourheartsupat]

[He's not quite sure he's got a full understand for what his other self wants him to know, but he gets that it must be something important as all motherfuck to be making him look like that, so he listens carefully. He's all for lending an ear to a motherfucker what's all needing it. He likes being able to help a brother or sister any way he can, and if hugs didn't work, there was always this. He listens in on the harshness of what his other self is saying-- right up to the world "killed".

Gamzee goes still as stone.]




...What?

[bayou_miracles]

This fucker killed him. He took Tav away from this world.

[Gamzee's face was contorted with anger, the rage from that night filling him up again.]

[whereyourheartsupat]

And so you up and took that fucker out in return...

[It'd be near impossible to tell whether it was supposed to be a question or a statement. His voice is barely audible.]

[bayou_miracles]

Exactly. I destroyed that fucker's body smashed his face in until they made me stop.

[whereyourheartsupat]

[Gamzee threads a hand into the wild black mess of curls that is his hair. He is looking anywhere but at the other Gamzee right now. This other Gamzee what is telling him he should understand this when he doesn't. Understanding is the exact opposite of what was happening here. Even if he'd done something like that his ownself he can't imagine being able to wrap his head around it proper. He can't wrap it around the idea of someone hurting Tav- Any Tav, his own or not. The pieces of that motherfucking puzzle just ain't going together for him.]

I ain't never killed nobody.

[The words slip out from his mouth, as small, fragile things. Even he can tell it sounds stupid. The other him wants... something. Something more than this.

He doesn't know what to say.

He's losing control of his own shit and he's losing it fast, but calming himself isn't exactly on the table here.]