dear_mun | (no subject)

[But they're supposed to be past the picking on each other stage by now! How'd they get back to this? Sh was glad when they left that behind!]

Last time I saw you we were making plans for next summer. So could someone please tell me what's going on already?!

[What'd she do? Ditch him hat summer and then kick his puppy? Geeze.]

[~~And this is why earlier canon points are awesome.~~]

[ Pause. And also what. ]

...That summer. That was a long time ago.

Before you left. [ And, here comes the awkward. Damn it. ]

How can it be along time ago, it hasn't even happened yet?

It did for me.

I'm from the future, beautiful. Turns out it's not a happy one.

You could at least wait until I've actually done whatever it is before you give me a hard time about it.

[She's used to him calling her beautiful, in fact she even likes it now... most of the time. But hearing him call her that while looking like that? It just makes her uneasy somehow and she's not sure why.]

[ Why does she have to look at him like that? She looks sad. He was ready for angry because that's how they left things.

Not how he wanted to leave things. Because he never wanted her to leave.

He wasn't supposed to feel this way. Not again. Not for her. ]

What difference does it make? You will do it. You'll leave. Nothing else is gonna matter.

[Now she might not be a know-it-all like David, but she's not exactly dumb either.]

If you're from the future and I'm from the past, who can say for sure your time is my future? It's happened before, right?

[Because she refuses to believe she'd leave her team, her school and her... him like that. There is no way.]

[ He lifts his eyes to hers. He's not sure how to answer that. Paradoxes aren't his strong point. He isn't the science guy. ]

Because I've been there, okay? I know how it goes.

Shit happens and nothing's ever the same. [ M-Day will always happen and he'll never not be a jerk about it. He'll also never stop regretting it. Not that it means anything now. ]

[She isn't exactly the science gal either so she's stretching it as it is.]

Life always changes Julian, and sometimes those changes aren't always for the better.

[Her mom, her dad, and... well pretty much everything in her life that's not related to the academy at this point.]

I don't know what happened Julian, and for what it's worth I'm sorry I hurt you.

[She means it too. Sofia's always pretty upfront about this feelings stuff, but then her spine straightens and she continues on.]

But if you think I'm going to just let you judge me for something I haven't even done yet, then maybe you don't know me very well after all.

[ He stares at her. He doesn't even think he wants this apology, not when she doesn't know what happened. Because if she did, he doesn't think she'd apologize. In fact she'd probably not even want to talk to him.

Guilt isn't good for him. He can't deal with it. Anger is easier, but she's making it pretty damned hard to stay angry at her.

He should've expected that. He could never stay angry with her. ]

I know you better than you think. I always did.

I don't know if it can change. I don't think it can. But if it could? Don't go, Sofia. Talk to me.

I'll never not think you're beautiful. If anything can be different, remember that.

I would promise you that things will be different this time, that I'd stay, but I can't. I don't know what happened or why I did what I did, but I'm sure I had a reason.

[As much as it hurts her to admit it, it's true. There's that brutal honesty thing again.]

All I can do is promise you that no matter what else changes, these feelings that I have for you won't change.

[Then she repeats something, because it's obvious that whatever she's done has hurt him badly... in addition to whatever grimdark things happen in the future.]

I'm sorry, Julian.

[Even if it's not enough, she does mean it from the very bottom of her heart.]

You did. [ She probably had reasons he'd never known about, on top of the ones he did.

And if she hadn't gone when she did, there was the chance she'd have been on that bus, and---

He can't even go there. He looks at her. ]

You're sorry before you know. It doesn't matter. [ A beat. Because he's sorry too, but he can't bring himself to say it. ] I missed you.

Of course I'm sorry. I don't need to know what happened to see how it's hurt you and when you hurt people you care about you have to apologize.

[It's simple as far as she's concerned and while hearing him say I'm sorry would be nice she can hear it with her mind. He might talk about how he knows her better than she thinks, but she also knows him better than he thinks too.]

I've missed you too. [Even if it hasn't been nearly as long for her.] At least I'm here now, so maybe we could do something. Wouldn't that be nice?

[ God, what she was asking. He didn't know if he could trust her. Actually, scrap that to hell, he knew he couldn't trust her because no matter what she said, she was still that girl who'd walked away from him without even saying goodbye.

He should've walked away. But Julian had never been good about walking away from Sofia. And even though the words 'I'm sorry too' got stuck in his throat every time he tried to say them, he still hated that she'd left after what he'd said to Prodigy. David was a dick and Julian would never like him. But for all he hated David, he'd never have said those things to Sofia.

Not when he'd been pretty damned sure he loved her. ]

You know that summer you came from, where I wanted you to stay with me. I had so many plans, Sofia. I was gonna take you everywhere.

We missed a lot of time. You want to do something? [ And he smiles. Cocky like it used to be, like nothing else matters. Like he's not even thinking about anything but the good stuff. ] Yeah, okay. Remind me then. [ He holds out his hand. ] Come fly with me.