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[winddancer]

You can't give up now. There are people who are counting on us.

(And someone has to keep an eye on Josh, you know that.)

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[hellionated]

[ He stares at her. He doesn't even think he wants this apology, not when she doesn't know what happened. Because if she did, he doesn't think she'd apologize. In fact she'd probably not even want to talk to him.

Guilt isn't good for him. He can't deal with it. Anger is easier, but she's making it pretty damned hard to stay angry at her.

He should've expected that. He could never stay angry with her. ]

I know you better than you think. I always did.

I don't know if it can change. I don't think it can. But if it could? Don't go, Sofia. Talk to me.

I'll never not think you're beautiful. If anything can be different, remember that.

[winddancer]

I would promise you that things will be different this time, that I'd stay, but I can't. I don't know what happened or why I did what I did, but I'm sure I had a reason.

[As much as it hurts her to admit it, it's true. There's that brutal honesty thing again.]

All I can do is promise you that no matter what else changes, these feelings that I have for you won't change.

[Then she repeats something, because it's obvious that whatever she's done has hurt him badly... in addition to whatever grimdark things happen in the future.]

I'm sorry, Julian.

[Even if it's not enough, she does mean it from the very bottom of her heart.]

[hellionated]

You did. [ She probably had reasons he'd never known about, on top of the ones he did.

And if she hadn't gone when she did, there was the chance she'd have been on that bus, and---

He can't even go there. He looks at her. ]

You're sorry before you know. It doesn't matter. [ A beat. Because he's sorry too, but he can't bring himself to say it. ] I missed you.

[winddancer]

Of course I'm sorry. I don't need to know what happened to see how it's hurt you and when you hurt people you care about you have to apologize.

[It's simple as far as she's concerned and while hearing him say I'm sorry would be nice she can hear it with her mind. He might talk about how he knows her better than she thinks, but she also knows him better than he thinks too.]

I've missed you too. [Even if it hasn't been nearly as long for her.] At least I'm here now, so maybe we could do something. Wouldn't that be nice?

[hellionated]

[ God, what she was asking. He didn't know if he could trust her. Actually, scrap that to hell, he knew he couldn't trust her because no matter what she said, she was still that girl who'd walked away from him without even saying goodbye.

He should've walked away. But Julian had never been good about walking away from Sofia. And even though the words 'I'm sorry too' got stuck in his throat every time he tried to say them, he still hated that she'd left after what he'd said to Prodigy. David was a dick and Julian would never like him. But for all he hated David, he'd never have said those things to Sofia.

Not when he'd been pretty damned sure he loved her. ]

You know that summer you came from, where I wanted you to stay with me. I had so many plans, Sofia. I was gonna take you everywhere.

We missed a lot of time. You want to do something? [ And he smiles. Cocky like it used to be, like nothing else matters. Like he's not even thinking about anything but the good stuff. ] Yeah, okay. Remind me then. [ He holds out his hand. ] Come fly with me.