ATTN: Everyone named 'Yukari Yakumo': (troll) (take 2)

[shi_no_tsubasa]

So I see you have decided to return to this particular medium of interacting. I don't mind speaking to others in this way, especially since you have your reservations about any other forms of it.

However...

... You always seem so sad when you reach to speak with me. Is it something I have done?

No?

[Pause]

I am afraid I don't know exactly what you mean by 'manly tears', Mundane-san, especially since you are a female but I... if I am causing you such pain, then would it not be better simply not to speak anymore?

It's alright. I have become quite used to not entertaining visitors any longer. Except Youkai-san, yes. But she... [And she looks down.] ... She is different, or so I have come to... I have come to think...

Comments

..../peeks in here

[bloomnobly]

I--

It's best to not think about it very much.

pft <3

[shi_no_tsubasa]

Ah - ... hello, Bourei-san.

[That awkward feeling when you speak to your own ghost...]

To think about what?

[bloomnobly]

The things you feel your mundane is worried about. It's not best to dwell on...matters like those.

[shi_no_tsubasa]

The Yama said something as such the last time I...

Ah.

But if it upsets her, I don't want to be responsible for that.

[bloomnobly]

I don't think it's something you can change. Hence less of a reason to worry.

[shi_no_tsubasa]

[To be that carefree...]

... It must be so pleasant.

1/2

[colourofyearning]

Yuyuko...?

2/2

[colourofyearning]

Ah, it is the one from the past....

No, there is nothing you have done wrong child. Do not be so quick to blame yourself.

[shi_no_tsubasa]

[She looks happy! ... Then confused! Then happy again because it's Youkai-san and Youkai-san makes life...

Brighter.]

Then I am unsure as to what I should do. I don't like causing people undue... [Pain. Which is all she seems to ever do, or so she thinks. Well, except Yukari.]

[colourofyearning]

Just be yourself, there is no reason to need to be anything else. You are fine as you are, and always have been.

[shi_no_tsubasa]

Oh but I-!

[She was excited but then... she sinks down again. She wants to listen to that, Yukari. She wants that to be the truth but...]

I think it is how I am that causes... that pain. I... I don't wish to do that to anyone, I really don't.

[tsunmiko]

...Yuyuko?

[shi_no_tsubasa]

Um...

You mean Bourei-san?

[tsunmiko]

Bourei-san?

...You must be from when she was alive back then.

[shi_no_tsubasa]

I-

... I suppose.

[She's confused, Reimu.]

[tsunmiko]

[Welcome to the club. :|]

Ah, never mind. What's wrong with your mun?

[dorinta]

Hey...have you ever thought that she might be enduring it so you don't have to be alone?

[shi_no_tsubasa]

... No, I have not. [She shifts a little]

But I do not like causing people sadness. So it is alright! I am... used to being alone. I don't mind it so much...

[dorinta]

[That moment's hesitation gives her the impression of denial.]

It might be alright to you, but being used to it or not, there are people who don't think anyone should have to suffer from that, no matter what the reason.

[shi_no_tsubasa]

I, yes, I have come to realize that... I have met one such person before. But I have also come to realize that in the end, I may have hurt her as well...

And that so many things are so very fragile. I cannot be the one to put any undue stress on such things.

[phantasmgap]

She is only sad because she wishes for your pain to ease.

[Much like her own feelings on the matter.]

You have done nothing wrong, she simply wants you to have that same happiness that I wish you to have.

[shi_no_tsubasa]

[Well, step one in making this one feel better: let her talk to her best and... only... friend.]

I-... I see.

I just know that sadness is a burden and I don't... wish for myself to be the cause of it. I have caused enough of it in my life.

[phantasmgap]

[Let's be fair.. when she first lived through this, it was entirely mutual, as well.]

She wishes to help you carry your burden. You don't cause her to suffer it.

[shi_no_tsubasa]

... You sound so sure of that, Youkai-san. Can you even see beyond to the minds of the Mundane-sans with your ability? [Or are you speaking for yourself? She doesn't know how to ask that without sounding impolite, however.]

[phantasmgap]

A touch of both, perhaps. The separation of two minds is just another boundary, after all.

[Somehow, the presence of mundanes just makes the discussion slightly more awkward.]