You know I'm no fan of pretending to be someone else.
( leia's going to scold him for this if he ever sees her again, han feels. of all the things he could've done for a long-lost reunion with their son, he's sure the mild anger isn't something she had in mind.
it's futile to try, but he tries to gather himself. tries. )
You want me to answer to the affirmative. To say that, yes, I am fine.
But to be honest, no, I am not okay.
[His tone is grim and he wonders to himself why he's not just turning and walking away. But there's a twinge of guilt and regret there that he can't quite ignore.]
Just because I am on the correct path does not mean that there are not forks along the way. I... have to remain focused and not let myself be distracted.
[Such as by his father. Still, he isn't yet leaving.]
You're grown up, right? You're making your own decisions, right?
You chose to be on the Dark Side and I'm not mad you for that. I'm not even disappointed at this point. If you think that's what's best for you then that's what's best--you're an adult now. And I can see you don't want me in your life.
But that's the thing, Ben. You can only blame your parents for as long as you keep 'em with you--for as long as you let them influence you. And what have I done, huh?
I'm so sorry~
i, too, am sorry
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[There is a disdain underlying the restrained layer of calm in his voice.]
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( a wry smile. ) Unless you want to shed some light on that for me, Ben.
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I simply wanted to see if it was really you.
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I'm not the one who covers his face all day.
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( leia's going to scold him for this if he ever sees her again, han feels. of all the things he could've done for a long-lost reunion with their son, he's sure the mild anger isn't something she had in mind.
it's futile to try, but he tries to gather himself. tries. )
... you're okay, aren't you?
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[He's so stubborn and obviously bitter about something.]
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But that doesn't answer my question.
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But to be honest, no, I am not okay.
[His tone is grim and he wonders to himself why he's not just turning and walking away. But there's a twinge of guilt and regret there that he can't quite ignore.]
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You got any idea why, or am I supposed to guess?
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( he digresses. han bites his tongue. ) ... did you go wrong somewhere?
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[Still trying to convince himself of that.]
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I'm asking this 'cause you're tellin' me you ain't okay.
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[Such as by his father. Still, he isn't yet leaving.]
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You're grown up, right? You're making your own decisions, right?
You chose to be on the Dark Side and I'm not mad you for that. I'm not even disappointed at this point. If you think that's what's best for you then that's what's best--you're an adult now. And I can see you don't want me in your life.
But that's the thing, Ben. You can only blame your parents for as long as you keep 'em with you--for as long as you let them influence you. And what have I done, huh?
How is it my fault?
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[Under the helmet, he's sounding even more like a petulant child now.]
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I'M ABOUT TO THROW MY LAPTOP OUT THE WINDOW OH MY GOD BEN
Aww, no smashing laptop..
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