possibly going to Ataraxion

[allay]

I've lost my family, and I will never again be the Susan of the past because of that. But you must try to understand my situation. This world is where I am, and it's this world that I must make my own. I will refuse to lose my grasp on reality when it is the one thing left to me, regardless of your -- forgive me -- meddling.

Please, Miss Mun. You musn't take me away. Even if it is to deposit me amongst the stars.

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hiiiii this is not going to be pretty

[statured]

Even now, Susan?

( even now, you still cling to this reality? )

Nope.

[allay]

You've taken the easy route, Peter. You've no right to judge.

[statured]

( straight-faced and icy. this is a battle in itself. )

Indeed, to have a wayward train crush every bone in my body and leave me for dead was a choice I made.

Can't say it could have gone any easier.

[allay]

Then, tell me this - if you'd been given the choice. Would you have stayed? [ doesn't really matter what his answer is. she's already made up her mind about his stance. ]

[statured]

No.

( they both know it, so why bother sugarcoating?

still, this is his sister. this is susan. once a king and queen of narnia... right? )

But I would not have left you.

( i still have not, he wants to say. )

[allay]

[ there, vindication. it's a bitter victory. ] Noble, empty words. [ but you did. ]

[statured]

I know. ( a crack in the ice [and the first of many].

he could say many things - you left us first, we called but you didn't answer, we're waiting for you, we're still waiting for you - but he doesn't. )

If you were given the choice, Su, ( - and she had, she had, she-- ) would you have gone with us?

[allay]

I was never allowed a choice, Peter. Don't delude yourself into believing that. [ it's not an answer, but it's the best he's going to get. ]

[statured]

( he wasn't going to take whatever answer she gave him, anyway. ) Was it not your own choice to forget Narnia? To dismiss our adventures as silly children's games and move on with the world around you?

You chose, Susan.