On voice testing and muse unhappiness

[tragic_optimist]

So, you think yourself quite clever, don't you...what did you wish to call yourself? Mun? Mundane?

Whatever your moniker might be, I don't find it or the moniker you've stuck upon me amusing in the least. I am in mourning, in anger at what has happened to me. I have lost my best friend and my great grandson within recent memory. Their loses are fresh and raw wounds on my psyche, and now there are rumblings of war with their murderers by my own people. They can rot for all I care. Susan is the only one of out kind I would have needed, and with Earth the mess it is and the...the loss of Alex is quite the strain on her already. I cannot ask her, no matter how much I actually need companionship, to give up her time and be a compass for me at this point. Nor do I need a dense fool of a human like you to pretend to be me.

You don't understand my pain.

You never will understand it and I demand you leave me be.

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[tragic_optimist]

*The Doctors hand meets hers with a squeeze, lingering for a bit. His gaze is distant.*

Would you wish to hear me out? I would very much appreciate being able to tell you about those I lost. Lucie and Alex, I mean.

[magsthewoof]

I would.

*She gives his shoulder a gentle squeeze of reassurance and then moves to sit next to him. She pours herself some tea and then waits quietly, allowing him to start when he wants.*

[tragic_optimist]

Thank you, Mags.

I'll start with Alex. He is...was my great-grandson. Born just after a species called the Daleks invaded Earth, he was the son of my granddaughter Susan and a rebel leader from that time. He was such a brilliant boy, but...he sacrified himself to ensure the Daleks couldn't stop them from turning another invasion away.

*There's a sigh*

I did care for him deeply, but I barely knew the boy. Lucie, on the other hand...she was my best friend.

[magsthewoof]

Did she traveled with you?

*If he weren't in such a state she might have asked about Ace too, but she doesn't want to risk upsetting him further. He's clearly in enough distress already.*

[tragic_optimist]

Yes, in much the same way that Ace did. I probably should go back to see her sometime, at least once I'm more...stable, I suppose is the right word.

*Another distant smile appears on the Doctors face.*

Lucie and I met under not very good circumstances. She was trussed up by the Time Lords in some witness protection scheme and was thrust upon me. After a few antagonizing turns, we began to bond and get really close. Not romantic close, mind you, but as friends.

Then came an incident involving her aunt. It was...it was something horrible overall, and something that I am partially responsible for. I will admit that. When Lucie found out, she left.