dear_mun | on finishing app for poly

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on finishing app for poly_chromatic;

A place like that... Is it like Heaven or is it like Hell?

The choice isn't mine or yours. It is up to God, where I will go. But will you rather send me to that place than let me receive judgement? You must trust in God's plan for me and not interfere with it!

I beg of you. Let me stand before God instead. I beg of you...

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Judgment. Think you'll be forgiven?

I have committed many sins. Lived a sinful life, but still... in that last moment... I was able to extend forgiveness. Perhaps God will also forgive me.

That's an awful lot of negatives, though. What's your worst sin?

I gave up my belief in God's grace. It was so dark behind my eyes... I couldn't see...

So you lost your way.

I stumbled and I fell. In the darkness.

And if she brings you to that place, you might just fall again.

Do you know the darkness, Monsieur?

Depends. What's darkness to you?

To be unable to see the light ever again. To have no hope. That is true darkness.

Alright. Sure, I know it.

I can't see the light anymore, because of what happened - and because of that, I came to know of the true darkness. Not just the darkness before my eyes.

So, what changed?

I came back to Paris... to see that person so dear to me... But I didn't have the strength for a reunion. I only found out I was sick and dying. Knowing that... All of God's plans for me... I realised I could never know them, I could only accept... it all.