dear_mun | on the two muns planning 'shippy things

I guess I'm lucky I'm too fresh to be in one of those ships yet.

Yeah, pretty much. Look out, your mun'll go crazy eventually. I mean, if it hasn't already happened yet. Most of them are crazy I guess. Six months in a game and she decides I need to date my best friend. Like I don't have any choice or something.

That's just creepy. Well, I mean, the 'have to' part.

W-well anyways, so who is this other person? Are they at least, yanno... attractive? Looks wise, personality wise, whatever?

Yeah, pretty much creepy as hell. I'd probably do it anyway but I wish she'd keep her nose outta my business.

His name's Sollux. He's... gray. With horns. [she never really thought about that before, wow] And he's kind of an idiot sometimes. But I get along with him better than anybody I've ever met before, and he actually cares about me, which is weird. And we sort of laugh about everything and do everything together. Plus he... got along with Dad, when they met this one time during this weird "reality shatters all over the place and people pour into the facility from everywhere" phase there was. So that's a plus.

So Dad liked him, huh... Doesn't really get more 'plus' than that, I guess.

I guess so. I mean... it's not like Dad was ever the biggest fan of teenage boys usually. So this is pretty unlikely.

[she absentmindedly kicks at something on the ground]

So you're saying you think it's a good idea?

You only live once... If you really do like the guy, I say go for it.

Well... yeah. And I do, I guess.

[god this is embarrassing, even if it's just herself she's talking to]

I guess I will. I just don't really know how. I mean, it's just so weird.

How hard can it be? -Sure, she lacked a proper social life, but she'd watched enough movies and read enough Shakespeare to get the basics... Okay, no that didn't really help. But who better to encourage you than you, right?-

Just go up to the guy and be all, "Sup, Sollux, wanna go grab a burger and watch a movie at my place?" Making out optional, sure.

[she actually cracks up at that, shaking her head]

You don't know Sollux. I mean man, he can be such an idiot. I'd probably have to actually be like "hey let's go on a super un-platonic date because I have this huge crush on you" or something like that. And he's got all this weird troll lingo so I don't even know if he'd know what I was talking about. That happens a lot.

I'm no master of romance or anything. S'not like I'd be able to pull something like that off. But it's not like he's gonna do it. So I'd better at some point, right?

That bad, huh?

In that case, just smack him on the lips.

[she laughs even more at the thought]

Guess that'll have to be what I do. I mean, there's no way he could misinterpret that.

I'll cheer you on from here.

Aww, you gettin' over me already? My heart's breakin'.

Puh-leez, I was over you before I started, Aikawa.

[have a huge grin along with all that laughter]

Well, ouch. Guess I better go eat worms or whatever the sayin' is.

I guess so. I've got some pretty gross ones if you want 'em. Unless you feel like digging them up yourself.

[she rolls her eyes, but fondly]

So the Fac hasn't killed ya yet, huh?

I eat only the highest quality o' worms.

[Shrug.]

Nah. Still alive, still me.

Well, if my worms aren't good enough for you, that's your problem. Good luck finding anything better. You'll be crawling in the dirt for weeks.

[a small grin]

Good. I always worry you're gonna wind up dead like everybody else.

Please, I farm 'em myself.

Eh. Don't worry about that. [Because he wants to die, but he's not saying that.]

That's gonna take a while. You sure you won't be done with your little pity party by the time they're big enough to eat?

[if Heather knew that, she would probably just kick him and try to convince him to change his mind about it. Or cry. But for now, she just gives her friend a little nod]

I can't help it. I mean... everyone's always dying there. Now that Alessa's dead again, it's got me worrying about it.

Don't you go dying on me. Ever.

Seriously...Just don't worry about it, babe. It ain't gonna be a problem.

[Because unfortunately for him, he's also immortal. Although he doesn't exactly know that.]

[she just gives him a look for a while]

Okay. But I'm still gonna worry. You know, can't really help it. It's just... you were the first person I ever met there. It'd just be too weird to think about being there without you.

...

[And he ruffles her hair for her trouble.]

Don't worry about it, babe. I don't go nowhere I don't want to go.

[she flattens her hair out again, but she can't help smiling at the gesture anyway]

Well, I guess that's the attitude to have. Now that the consortium's gone that'll be a lot easier. It's kinda nice, not having 'em breathing down our necks.

I guess, but I don't trust that crazy computer bitch neither!

Me neither. I was sort of thinking about maybe giving her a chance, but then she decided to have that stupid bachelorette auction so I pretty much think she's an asshole.

Better than the guys before, but still an asshole.

Yeah, yeah...I aint agreeing she's any better. She was savin' her own skin when she got rid o' them guys.

Well yeah, that's true. I sort of wish we could just get rid of her too and run the stupid place ourselves. But that doesn't seem like it's gonna happen anytime soon.

[Guess who's here to make your day worse!]

Oh? Someone special for you now?

[oh gross get away Vincent]

Yeah, I guess you could say that. Why do you care?

[That's hurtful, Heather. :|]

Am I not allowed to comment on things now? Maybe I care out of the...goodness of my heart. [More like "so I can use this against you later when you make me angry."]

[Heather doesn't care, she's the worst person in this room /:]

Comment all you want. But I'm supposed to believe you're doing it out of the goodness of your heart? Yeah right. You've got some sorta ulterior motive like you always do and you're gonna find some way to use it to your advantage.

You always treat me like I'm some kind of nuisance. It's almost like you don't...appreciate all I've done for you.

[His expression changes to a darker one.] Don't act like you don't look out for your own best interests.

Done for me? It was helping you too! You want me to think you did some sort of charity!? The seal didn't even do anything!

[but now she's feeling a little bad. She doesn't really hate you, Vincent. You're just a bad reminder of what happened in that town]

Sure, I do. But not... you were gonna kill me. Don't think I didn't see what you wrote on the back of that photo. You were going to kill me so God wouldn't be born, so it wouldn't be inconvenient for you. You changed your mind but still...

[she gestures emphatically as she speaks now, moving around the room]

The fact that you wanted to do it in the first place makes it hard to trust you. I'm not saying I blame you for looking out for yourself and I guess I know you did help me but...

I just don't know, okay?

I didn't know that the talisman wouldn't work -- I only told you when I knew.

[He keeps his distance, naturally, but still looks irritated.] I wasn't going to kill you. I told you that I don't like getting my hands dirty. I wanted you out of the way...Sending you after Claudia made it that much easier.

[His own gestures get more emphatic as he continues.] In the end, you got what you wanted, didn't you? Revenge? All I got was a knife in my back.

Well, okay. That's fair. Fine.

[she's still got a certain amount of pride but she's willing to admit the Seal wasn't his fault]

Yeah, you wanted me out of the way. You were only helping me so I'd last long enough to kill Claudia for you. And I never got revenge. God killed Claudia before I got the chance. Whatever, I don't care anymore. I just... I don't. I don't care about any of it.

[she's still gesturing wildly, but she doesn't look so dangerous anymore, and there's probably no danger of her punching him like there might have been a moment ago]

I'm... sorry I blew up on you, okay? I just... thinking about this, any of this, it's really weird now. And kind of hard. Where I'm from now, it's been a while. Part of me started to think I could just forget. That I could just... be somebody else for a while, since I wasn't in our world anymore.

[she sighs, pressing a hand to her forehead]

And in case you wondered, God's dead.

[There's something satisfying about her mood turn and the apology. He wasn't about to apologize for, well, being himself, though.]

You can never forget who you are or where you come from. You should know that by now. Trying to forget got you in that little...predicament.

[He pauses and seems unfazed by that comment.] I can't say I'm surprised, but She'll be born again. It's always like that.

[she doesn't really expect an apology. He's still Vincent, after all. Something about that is actually a little bit comforting. Even if it's obnoxious]

Sure I can. Because who I am isn't the mother of god anymore. I can do whatever I want now. I punched destiny in the face a long time ago.

[she shakes her head]

Not if I have anything to say about it. That thing... isn't gonna be born as long as I'm around. I'll make sure of it. Even if I'm... done with all that. I'd do it again if I had to.

No, but you are still Alessa. You can't change that or deny it.

She will be reborn again and again. Do you really want to go through what you did all over again to prevent that? I mean...It would make life easier for me. [If he were still alive.]

I'm not denying it anymore. But I'm also pretty sure it doesn't matter, either. I mean, yeah, I'm Alessa. So what? It doesn't mean anything anymore. Maybe it's just because Alessa was at the same place I was for a while, but I don't really think about it changing anything so much anymore. She actually died there last week...

[she glances away for a moment, because it's still a pretty sensitive subject, her other self dying and everything. Especially since she actually knew her this time]

Sure I'd go through it again. Because a god that makes people suffer so much to be born doesn't deserve to live. People like Alessa have to go through hell their entire lives so that crappy thing can live, and I think it's... bullshit.

I remember it. All of it. Everything she went through. A god like that deserves what I gave it.

Edited 2012-03-02 08:15 (UTC)

Two halves and still not a complete person...I can't even begin to imagine how that feels.

[Stop giving him more ammunition to be a dick with. He can't help but smirk at the emotional vulnerability Heather showed.]

So I was right...You did enjoy killing those monsters. You're practically champing at the bit to get a chance to do it again. If you really wanted to forget about what happened, you wouldn't be so...determined to go through it all again.

[His expression and tone get harsher as he continues.] And this time, if you go through it all again...You'll have no one to help you. Not me, not Douglas, and not Harry.

[Heather had talked herself down from being angry with him but it all comes flying back at those words and the slams her fist against the wall behind her and takes a very threatening step in his direction]

Not a complete person? Who the hell are you to decide that? You don't know anything about me! Nothing at all! The closest you ever came to knowing anything about me was probably reading some stupid made-up scripture about Alessa when you were a kid or something!

I didn't... enjoy it. Okay so maybe I did, but wouldn't you if you'd... just...

[she's getting too frustrated to even speak at this point, but at his last comment she just up and snaps and she storms over to him with something almost inhuman in her eyes]

Shut up! I don't need anybody's help! I didn't have it last time, because your special brand of help didn't do anything! All it did was send me on a wild goose chase and kill Claudia's dad for no good reason! And I told you not to talk about my father! Leave him out of this! You're just... just...

[she's too angry to see straight and there's a very real possibility that Vincent is going to get murdered in the face right then and there. She closes her eyes for a moment and when she opens them she looks eerily calm. Her entire demeanor has changed, and she isn't Heather anymore]

If you knew anything about the things we had suffered, you would not be so quick to throw barbs, Vincent.

[Well, that's certainly terrifying. In his normal, weaselly way of reacting to making people angry, he recoils physically and puts his hands up in a defensive manner.]

That was all just a joke. Please...calm down. [That change in demeanor, though...Vincent thought about turning tail right there.]

Don't blame me for what happened to you. It's not my fault your real mother was insane.

[that bizarre, calm demeanor is still there and she looks at him rather judgmentally for a moment]

It does not have to be your fault for you to contribute to the suffering by using the weaknesses of others against them whenever possible. And you were so quick to turn against Claudia when it was convenient for you. Despicable.

[and then all of a sudden that previous look of rage is returning, her old demeanor leaking back. On Heather's part there's a lot of sick satisfaction in the fact that he seems scared of her, and Heather feels very smug, and some part of her actually considers just beating him to death for just a moment. That scares her and she has to take a step back]

A joke. Right. You expect me to believe that? If that's true, you've got a worse sense of humor than me. You'd like me calm down, wouldn't you? You like to piss people off, but when it gets more than you can handle you run away like a scared little girl!

Well, I'm not gonna calm down. What are you going to do about it, huh? Nobody else to do your dirty work now, is there?

You say "turn" as though I was ever on Claudia's good side or that I wanted to be.

[Well, time to get the fuck out, since he likes not being beaten. He doesn't appear nearly as scared.]

What am I going to do? I'm going to leave you to...stew in your own anger. Until next time, Heather. [Yup, he's just gonna calmly walk away from this.]

Fine, go! Run off like some little kid or something. Like I even care.

[but she does because she really doesn't want to be alone right now, but she's never going to let on]

Run off to your... church or whatever. See if I care. Go steal some money from the offering box and buy yourself and Ferrari .

[and she's probably just going to sit there and cry for a while because Alessa's dead and Harry's dead and Claudia's dead and this whole thing just reminded her all over again]

[Vincent stopped at the door and listened to the rest of what she says. Ah, those last defiant words were like music to his ears. He didn't say anything more and left Heather alone with her feelings, his departure signaled by the door quietly shutting. He wouldn't give her the satisfaction of even a door slam.]

on the two muns planning 'shippy things

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PS, your Heather is amazing and I love her <3

dankeschoen!

<3 <3 <3

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... this thread is adorable

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asfgkl <3

:3

c:

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your Vincent is so spot-on. I really love him <3

skdfjsa Thank you!

you're welcome! <3

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I am such a bad person for enjoying this XD

That makes two of us.

XD well then I don't feel QUITE as evil

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