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dear_mun2013-09-01 03:32 pm
exmariascientia) wrote in dear_mun2013-09-01 03:32 pm
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re: memes
Regardless of what you are telling your friends and collaborators?
I do not "squee".
Would you accuse my counterparts of it? Xemnas? The Seeker of Dark? No? Then I'd thank you to stop accusing me of such undignified behaviour.
Yes, that 'Arcana' Shadow and its kind are intriguing beings, and in that setting, I'm more than glad to have it in my possession. But comparing my reaction to someone who has been given a small fluffy animal is an insult, likely to both of us.
Do you understand?
~X.
I do not "squee".
Would you accuse my counterparts of it? Xemnas? The Seeker of Dark? No? Then I'd thank you to stop accusing me of such undignified behaviour.
Yes, that 'Arcana' Shadow and its kind are intriguing beings, and in that setting, I'm more than glad to have it in my possession. But comparing my reaction to someone who has been given a small fluffy animal is an insult, likely to both of us.
Do you understand?
~X.
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Um... I didn't think you did that. And I'm not even close to a fluffy animal...
[But he certainly is cute, despite any protesting he makes when that's brought up.]
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Might as well be one by comparison, in that form...She's not being scary here? See? No dark equipment or nonsense or...
Anyway. Sigh.]
I know I didn't, and so do you. But some people can't seem to let the concept go...
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Hey, excuse me! He still has skin, not fur. The closest thing he has to hair is that weird skirt thing. Why did you make him wear a skirt, Xehanort?It's not about what she's doing, it's about what she has done. And what she could possibly do at any moment. He doesn't want any more dark portals, thanks.]
Ah, muns are like that. Mine likes to tease me a lot. Sometimes when she goes on and on about how naive and stupid I am I wonder why she picked me up in the first place...
[Oh, but he probably shouldn't mention his weaknesses right now... Even if Xehanort already knew he was pretty gullible.]
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It's Traditional, okay?She smiles. Safe for now.]Yes, you're naive. It would be pointless of me to deny that. But different people find different things interesting, I'm sure you've noticed.
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Your tradition is stupid.Ryoji looks away. He knows all too well that's true, but she didn't need to say it out loud.]I guess that's true...
Still. Why did you find me so interesting? Or just... darkness in general. What draws you to it?
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That's a complex question, Arca- excuse me, Ryoji.
[Slip of the tongue? Really?]
It was a teacher of mine who first introduced me to the subject. An old man who'd hardly touched on the potential it held. As we went on, though... the concepts became more and more intriguing. The fact that there's so much hidden beyond what we see in the light, but that we're too frightened to allow ourselves to deal with it... that's a part of it. There is more to life than what we see. There is more to our nature. And I will discover it, regardless of what it takes.
[She's not looking at him as she finishes her speech up.]
But more than that... it spoke to me. It was always as if I were meant to learn what it taught; always waiting for me to discover it. You're aware of my memory problems, yes? As I've worked with it, it's felt like I was coming home to those memories I can't recall. It feels like the path through them will take me through the darkness... and I'll welcome whatever it brings me.
Perhaps you can understand, in part. And perhaps you can see why you caught my eye. A lost child of the dark - how could I not be interested?
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He notes her little slip-up, and furrows his brow just slightly, a bit concerned. What was she going to call him just then? He shakes it off eventually though. At least it didn't sound like any of his other less desirable titles.
He listens attentively, still polite despite no longer being in a lower position... but when she finishes, he shakes his head.]
I will admit darkness is an important part of life. So many of us have hidden secrets and desires, parts of ourselves we don't understand and therefore don't try to own. We try to hide it, and I know that isn't right.
I also know that I do have deep connections to the dark, connections I can't avoid. I know using it may help some people, or seem to help them. It can help you with your memory, and it can help me survive.
But I still don't think it's right. The path through the light is more difficult, but it can offer you a better life if you ignore the things darkness promises you. Darkness can't be entirely avoided, but it doesn't need to be completely embraced. Accept the part of you that is dark and move on. That's what I believe I need to do. I've been understanding my nature and why I did what I did, and once I forgive myself, then I can start moving towards being a better person.
[Many would argue that he already is a better person, but Ryoji doesn't have the self-esteem to look at himself positively just yet. He's trying, though, and that's something.]
- actually, suddenly reminded of my mirror-universe Xehanort too. XD
It actually takes her a little before she responds, softly.]
Then you do more than some, who would claim that all we ever need is the light.
...Oh dear does Ryoji really need another Xehanort after him?
I'm glad you knew what I meant. I don't think you can really only need light, and I don't think you only need darkness. There's a balance that needs to be achieved, and it's probably different for everyone.
Mirror Xeha is a sweetie. Somehow. It's Complicated. :p
Balance, yes. It'd be a beautiful thing if the worlds could truly discover what it meant.
Okay Ryoji would be cool with a sweetie Xehanort XD
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