canon is Datenshi no Namida;

[onlydancing]

You shouldn't fear. Please don't, don't fear! Sometimes we have to give up that which we love the most, even if not by our own will. I shan't pretend in regards to my life, but for all its failings - it was given to me by God and for that I am grateful. So that I could be Jean Paul's sister. So that I could be Mother's daughter... So that I could be allowed to dance. For all these things, I'm grateful. You have so many things in your life for which to be grateful as well. Please accept them, along with the bad things.

~ Lilith

Comments

[abdicate_you]

You speak of God, rightfully. What of hope?

[onlydancing]

Hope... I'm such a lowly woman, trapped in an eternal darkness - what can I hope for, except God's love?

[abdicate_you]

Then you have nothing. Humans have long since chosen greed instead of love.

[onlydancing]

It's true, that the human heart is sinful. Nevertheless, like Jesus said... Those who have faith shall be rewarded and be purified in Heaven.

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[abdicate_you]

[abdicate_you]

I wish to know more. About your faith.

[onlydancing]

You are not a Christian?

[abdicate_you]

I am Illyria.

[onlydancing]

Illyria... What a beautiful name.

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[abdicate_you]

Once. Today, it is but an echo.

[abdicate_you]

Who is your god, human?

[onlydancing]

God is our Father, the creator of the world. He is his Son, Jesus Christ, our Saviour. And he is the Holy Spirit that gifts us with faith.

[abdicate_you]

And you? What do you give in return?

[onlydancing]

Prayers. So many prayers...

[abdicate_you]

Love.

[onlydancing]

Longing.

[abdicate_you]

For what we lost.

[onlydancing]

That dream of Heaven...

[abdicate_you]

It belonged to me once. Days past, dreams and reality were only a breath apart. It was mine. Human longing is disgraceful in comparison.

[onlydancing]

My yearning may be insignificant, but it has taught me of God's true nature. Incomprehensible.

[abdicate_you]

Your god is nothing but a human construct. I could kill you right now without remonstration. Without consequence.

[onlydancing]

I wonder whether God would really care about a demon woman who has already tried ending her own life... Would you not simply be finishing the work I couldn't?

[abdicate_you]

A demon. [And now she'll be walking closer, stiffly. Cocking her head slightly at Lilith, though of course it won't be noticed.] A demon that reeks of humanity.

[onlydancing]

No, not a demon. It's my name... I bear a demon's name.

[abdicate_you]

The mother of halfbreeds.

[onlydancing]

Yes. By Archangel Samael. For that, she shall never return to the Garden of Eden.

[abdicate_you]

Choosing instead to grasp the power offered through such an existence.

[onlydancing]

Why do I have to bear the curse of my name? Why should I be so unloved by my mother? How often... haven't I asked those questions?

1/2

[abdicate_you]

[abdicate_you]

Repugnant. Your grief is revolting!

[onlydancing]

Yet it is all I have left. It is what fuels my faith.

[abdicate_you]

So that is all you offer your god. The smell of fear and weakness! [Her voice is rising in anger.] You don't deserve the luxury of faith. You don't deserve to be heard.

[onlydancing]

No, you are right. I don't deserve any of it, but God is great. He grants his blessings in spite of how undeserving humans are.

[abdicate_you]

Only to spare his own creations. Humans are inherently selfish, just like the concepts you erect. To imagine grandness while you possess none by design alone.

[onlydancing]

We are selfish, aren't we? But God listens when we fold our hands in prayer, even so. That is my hope.

[abdicate_you]

Yes. Worthless as it is.

[onlydancing]

Yes.