Indecision over which game AU to toss at wethelost is annoying the muse

[suicidoll]

((Canon is Gundemonium))

I'm glad you acknowledge the how much the differences will affect me, but have you considered the possibility of overthinking the decision? There's truly no need for all of this stress you're putting us through, especially considering your current stance on your games and my voice. Frankly, I disapprove of your thinking I'm so unbearable, but it'll take more than my word to convince you otherwise, won't it? If you are to place me elsewhere against my will, I'd rather you do it with confidence than hesitation; the latter will harm you more than it'll harm me.

I'm a survivor. Regardless of which incarnation of me you choose, I'll persevere; it's what I do. Review your notes thoroughly and consider the possibilities before making your decision...and do take your time while you do so; confidence is one thing, but impulse is as bad as hesitation.

...And if I have to hear that "oven and microwave" metaphor one more time, I'm leaving.

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[suicidoll]

(It's definitely enough. Though it still bothers her to think he was one of the many victims of the Taboo Noise, she's relieved that he's finally out of there.)

Precisely; my incarnations are vastly different from each other, but both are much better off than when they started. One finally found happiness and decided she would live her life to its fullest. The other...

(She pauses, shuffling a little bit.)

...well, you already know her. Things became much worse for her after you left, but...she's strong.

[notsogrimreaper]

[Worse after he left? That's hard to imagine... Was that just coincidence, or did his erasure actually cause her difficulties? It's hard to say, and he's still not used to the idea of someone caring... so for now, he'll just believe his death was a good thing.]

It could have been worse if I was still there. I'm sorry I couldn't help you, though.

[He shrugs, smile a little more forced, but still honest.]

As long as both versions of you are better off, and still will be if you get sent somewhere else.

[suicidoll]

I'm not so sure of that. Your spirit did a lot for everyone there. Even more than you think.

(She is, of course, implying that she misses him, but it wouldn't be Kreutzer if she was so direct about everything.)

One's currently getting adjusted to her new life in that place, at least. The other...well, the Reaper is already planned to go elsewhere. I understand Personas are involved, but I'm not too familiar on that subject. Do they sound familiar to you?

augh sorry lost my tag

[notsogrimreaper]

[Ryoji chuckles softly, flashing a sheepish grin. It's quite nice of her to admit that, even in such a roundabout way.]

If you say so! Thanks for saying that.

[And that's certainly a surprise. Ryoji raises an eyebrow, but smirks at the question. Do Personas sound familiar to him? They're more familiar to him than almost anything else.]

Funny you should ask something like that... In my world, Personae were facets of your inner strength, used to fight beings called Shadows, which fed on human desires and fears.

Actually, back when I rescued the Reaper you as Thanatos? That was a Persona. Minato's, in fact, from when I was trapped inside of him.

No worries! Happens all the time

[suicidoll]

...Then wouldn't that make you a Persona yourself?

(After all, we're talking about inner manifestations becoming their own entities. It's kinda surreal.)

Re: No worries! Happens all the time

[notsogrimreaper]

Well, in a sense. It's difficult to explain. I was sealed inside Minato, as Death itself, but after spending so long inside him, I started developing a personality and morality... a 'human' side. We had a strong connection, and that connection allowed him to borrow some of my power.

So in a sense, I am his Persona, but I am also a Shadow. Does that... make sense at all?

[suicidoll]

...It does, actually. By growing as an extension of him, you grew into your own entity. Fascinating...but also very questionable, if I'm to be honest.

[notsogrimreaper]

Yes, that's exactly it. Minato gave me so much more than I could have ever had existing on my own...

But why do you find it questionable?

[suicidoll]

Perhaps not questionable, but...a little unsettling. I imagine the process had few differences from budding and...

...perhaps the imagery is what has me thinking so.

[notsogrimreaper]

Imagery?

[... oh god she doesn't think-]

I-It really wasn't like that! It wasn't like I was... it wasn't physical!

[suicidoll]

Then how does it work, exactly?

(She doesn't really want to know, but at the same time, she does.)

[notsogrimreaper]

I don't exactly know how to explain it. It was more like his spirit and mind captured my own essence within his, almost purifying it. I gained a human side after spending so much time with him, so it must have been more of an emotional connection.