Back out for who knows what...(And back from the movie so Spoilers for Into Darkness)

[admirals]

Last time we did this you sent me somewhere and didn't keep me there. Now I'm glad you didn't, not the best place in the world but I wish you wouldn't think about doing it again. And no, further along won't help your case either, it's actually worse.

So leave me alone, or at least do what you keep promising someone and let me do my job.

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[captains]

[He snorts, it's a completely derisive sound] If I can speak freely- [He's not actually waiting for permission, because he's already dug himself a hole with the lying thing, it's not like refusing to sugar coat things is going to make it any worse] What Spock can or can't handle is the last thing I worry about.

[He only hadn't told the Vulcan about his planet because he had cared. He'd liked the alternate version of his first officer quite a lot- But that had been before. Before he hadn't recognized him and gone cave diving into his head a second time, touching all the memories Kirk hadn't wanted to share, having further transference. Before he'd been left to deal with what he'd done to Kirk's mental landscape all on his own.

He'd rather rub Spock's nose in the fact that it's all his fault, than hide the truth for his own well being. But then- He'd always had a bit of a problem with wanting to get even, with being right- More than he'd wanted to be morally upstanding] I'm not convinced that what I did, and what you did- Are really any different.

[He's not sure he can scream 'fuck you' any harder in his tone alone]

[admirals]

[He wishes he was surprised, but he's not. He stares at Kirk, reaches up and rubs at his face in a way that is mostly to give himself something to do before answering him, and then, well, shakes his head.

And gives him a bit more of a look at that and points at him.] No, because you can't take a minute to look past your own problems and consider the bigger picture.

If I had told Spock when we first met, whose to say he would have believed me? Me, the living, standing [for now] embodiment of an officer that's not either for him, or similar. And what happens if you need him and he doesn't listen? That for once someone listens to you and then doesn't do what you think they should.

And I never said I had no intentions of telling him, remember that.