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[ex_apricots766]

Everyone's leaving. Everyone leaves. It is true. I'm not eager at all to settle in again.

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[giancarlo]

You'll be okay.

[ex_apricots766]

I'll keep existing, but if all the capable hands in that household keep up this habit of deserting, it won't be 'okay' for him.

[giancarlo]

No idea what you're going on about, but don't waste your teenage years feeling deserted. There's other people out there. Don't cry.

[ex_apricots766]

[ he keeps a mouthful tucked in one cheek, and instead, smooshes gian's face between palms.

your optimism is grating, okay. ]

[giancarlo]

[he's just sickeningly lucky, he's inherited optimism and carelessness, too.

that doesn't mean he won't try to grate on Alois like an elder. Or bite lightly on one of the other's palms like a petulant child.]

Oi, oi, not the face.

[ex_apricots766]

Don't bite me, bully.

[notmeanttobe]

Of course everyone leaves. It's bound to happen eventually.

[ex_apricots766]

[ oh. ahh. um.

this is ciel's aunt, isn't she? he's much more straight standing, now. ] Of course, you're right. Inevitable, isn't it?

[ it still aches so much, though. what a soft child. ]

[notmeanttobe]

Loss, loneliness... All of it is inevitable. The faster you learn that, the quicker you can arm yourself for it.

[ex_apricots766]

[ see, jim had learnt it, but claude's changed him so much, too much. how is he to go back to such tough skin? he feels everything, now. intensified. jim macken was the polar opposite of that, of what alois trancy is now. ]

It does... seem a lot better, doesn't it? I slip up, even though I am rather good at reminding myself. 'Any day, now,' I'll think, and then it happens, and nothing inside of me is still at all.

How do you do it?

[notmeanttobe]

I needn't worry about it any longer. Death makes such things inconsequential. [She sighs and her expression softens.] I made many mistakes. I wouldn't want you to do what I did.

[ex_apricots766]

Ah.

You're aware of that, then? Is it strange? Knowing you're not alive anymore?

[wishgrant]

Why is everyone leaving us?

[ex_apricots766]

Because.

[ notice how no one left until after he came. wow. the problem is such an eyesore right now. gross, gross, gross. ]

Everyone is shit.

[wishgrant]

Don't leave me too, Brother, please don't.

[ex_apricots766]

I won't.

[earlofphantoms]

You'll have to make new friends. Are you up to the task? {His smile is all challenge, Alois.}

[ex_apricots766]

[ :( get out, vincent, with your gorgeous face ugh. ]

People oughtn't be that replaceable to you.

[earlofphantoms]

Who said anything about replacing them? It's about survival, isn't it? {This is called tough love.}

[ex_apricots766]

I don't really have any interest in it if I'm not doing it with the ones I want to.

[earlofphantoms]

So the world has to conform to you?

[ex_apricots766]

It's not difficult to just stay put. Or, for the ones who are leaving to take me, too. It's not difficult. It's not asking for too much.

[fortunetelloli]

Miss mun won't let me leave, and I'm happy because I don't want to leave you.

[ex_apricots766]

[ ;_; omg, just... sugargliders all over her. aka draping on her. aka they're probably dropping toward the earth because he's just weighted on her, pressing face affectionately into her hair. ]

[fortunetelloli]

[Mary makes a little pleased squeal as she falls with Alois,] You won't be leaving me either, right?