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[bellabellabella]

You're being ridiculous, mun. Is this the third time you've resolved to app me to this place?

[Edward, that's really not-]

That is the perfect way to put things. You may have kept the idea in the back of your head, but you continually have delayed.

In any case, that is immaterial.

If you must subject me to these so-called games then do so, but do not attempt to drag others of my world or my family in with me. They have done nothing to deserve such treatment.

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[seeyounextfall]

[NO]

Just one.

[bellabellabella]

There's someone who you think deserves this place who you'd be willing to inflict on the people already there?

[seeyounextfall]

I don't think anyone deserves that place, and it's not like I could do much inflicting. Unless you changed me. Then I could hold my own.

[bellabellabella]

[VAGUE PANIC]

Bella, no.

[seeyounextfall]

If you don't change me, it's pretty much a guarantee that I'll trip to my death in my first battle.

[Is that what they're called? Battles? I should really read these books.]

[bellabellabella]

Bella, no.

[Slightly frantic.]

I'm being sent there. Not you. Please be reasonable.

[you really should and eh, fight, battle, same dif. Mostly it's just killing people.]

[seeyounextfall]

I am being reasonable. If you're going, so am I. You don't have to face it all alone. I can help you.

[Good times.]

[bellabellabella]

Bella, people are going to be dying.

[BELLA YOU CAN'T A;SLDKGHFLKJ]

[seeyounextfall]

I know. [Dang nabbit, her voice shook a little. But her expression's firm.]

[bellabellabella]

[His eyes are burning a little and it looks like he might be losing his mind a little at the thought.]

Bella, no.

[seeyounextfall]

[A little? Not enough to make her stop. Though she does come closer, as if that will help him calm down.]

You said you don't have a choice, right? Well, I don't either. It just so happens that my Mun and I are in agreement.

So you can tell me no all you want but it's not going to change anything.

[bellabellabella]

[Tracing her face lightly, eyes frantic.]

Please, Bella, try to convince her otherwise.

[seeyounextfall]

[Meets his gaze, her own eyes anxious. Just because he's better equipped to kill people doesn't mean it won't take its toll on him.]

You first.

[bellabellabella]

I already have, remember?

actually i don't remember much lmao ONLY VAGUE THINGS so excuse me if i'm mistaken

[seeyounextfall]

Yeah, I remember you didn't try very hard, just like you're not trying very hard now. Because you think you deserve to go, but you don't.

THAT IS A-OKAY YOU'RE FINE

[bellabellabella]

Bella, she's already submitted the application. How am I supposed to stop it?

[Not addressing that second point let's hope she doesn't notice.]

whew

[seeyounextfall]

[Don't mind her, she's just going to start having a panic attack. So, yeah, negatory on the noticing right this moment.]

thumbs up

[bellabellabella]

[WHOOPS. Bella you're worrying Edward again, he knows that look.]

Bella?

[seeyounextfall]

[Does he know the textbook signs she's exhibiting? Accelerated heart rate, trembling, breathing as if it's difficult to do... She wills herself to calm down. If she goes to pieces over him leaving, he'll never believe she can handle that place and he won't change her, won't let her follow him...

As if he could stop her.]

[bellabellabella]

[YUP gosh dang it there's so little he can do.]

Bella, please calm down. You need to calm down.

[seeyounextfall]

[She can't stand to burden him with her human frailties but it's even worse knowing he's only acting out of kindness, that he barely even knows her to be putting up with them...

Thinking about that is not helping.

I'm with Edward in the meadow, I'm with Edward in the meadow, I'm with Edward in the meadow, she shuts her eyes and chants internally, going to her happy place and slowly beginning to calm down. She holds herself to hide the last of the trembling, mumbling an apology.]

[bellabellabella]

[He barely knows her, but he'd like to know more about her - she's intriguing in her opacity. And she doesn't deserve to be here.]

You have nothing to apologize for.

[seeyounextfall]

... I need some time. [And no, she can't believe that she - of all people - just said that.]

When do you go? [Wow, her voice didn't break this time.]

[bellabellabella]

She's only just submitted the application, Bella. She hasn't been accepted.

[seeyounextfall]

But she will.

[Double checking his eyes for liquid topaz-ness. He's impossibly strong no matter what - and maybe he won't be sent in precisely the condition he's in now - but she'll feel a smidgeon better pretending he will, assured that he's well fed if nothing else.]