Muse is confused

[lost_sailor]

 Mundane, I don't understand why writing an application for that hero has made you reconsider your plans for me. We both know where I'm going to end up eventually, but there's no rush to do it now.

Not that I mind. It'll be nice to see Sheba again, and finally meet Matthew and Karis.

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[seekinganswers]

She'll make up her mind eventually. And in the meantime, you're lucky enough to avoid the worst of what's going on in the Tower.

I have to admit... I'm a little jealous.

[lost_sailor]

There's nothing to be jealous about. I'm just here. It's...too quiet.

What's happening now? I heard about Felix, and I'm sorry I can't make it sooner.

[seekinganswers]

Sometimes silence is better than the alternative. [She never, ever wants to hear so many thoughts at once ever again.] ...I'm sorry, I'm being sort of a downer.

Don't be sorry. It can't be helped. [A pause, and then she continues.] The Administrators... they're up to something. They're altering our minds to make us keep tabs on each other.

I'm hoping that my mun decides not to sign me up for it. I already did it once, and I don't want to use my powers against people like that ever again.

[lost_sailor]

That place sounds worse everytime I hear about it. There's nothing wrong with your views-- they're actually helpful.

It just makes it more important that I go there. Friends shouldn't have to fight friends. [Especially if the friends were all that they had.]

[seekinganswers]

I keep thinking, "It can't get worse." And then they keep proving me wrong. I'd laugh, but... [She shrugs.] I guess it's really not that funny.

I'm looking forward to seeing you again. I just... [She frowns. This is something that's been weighing on her heavily lately.] The Administrators are cruel and in some ways our muns are even crueler. I wouldn't put it past them to try and make one of us do something awful to the other.

They've had Felix kill me, once. And they've had me kill one of the friends I managed to make there.

...I don't want to think about what they'd make me do to you.

[lost_sailor]

It's isolated. Nothing that cut off can exist forever. They must be lying-- please, try to remember that if it gets too hard for now.

[He glanced off and stared into the distance, as if he were seeking a glimpse of land that lay just beyond the horizon.]

...nothing can be so awful that it will destroy us, no matter how far these Administrators and the whims of our mundanes may push our limits. I refuse to believe that.

You're one of my friends. I trust you.