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dear_mun2013-04-22 12:45 pm
solo_patria) wrote in dear_mun2013-04-22 12:45 pm
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On Events At Valar:
Madame Secretary-
Once again, I fail to see where anything, other than about ten words of what I said was so awful that it drove someone I had no interest in interaction with away from me. In other words, by sticking to my guns, and forgetting to pretend that I had any concern for someone I thought nothing of in a personal sense, I have won this round and do not have to put up with their clingy, overly emotional, extremely uncomfortably familiar behavior again. Why should I feel guilt or remotely bad because someone I have no interest in interacting with beyond their status as a fellow human being has decided to take offense to me being myself?
Simply because someone expresses emotion towards me is no reason that I must show them any emotion in return. I am tired of the lying, tired of the pretending, and tired of the playing nice because you worry about causing your fellow mundanes some sort of personal distress. I respect that you have done many things for me, but I will no longer live a lie for you, and will no longer continue with being trapped because you will not support me or speak up for me when the other mundanes dismiss me as a figment of your writer's imagination.
From this day forward, I shall have contact with others, of course, and I shall work to make the world what it ought to be for all people and all humanity, but I shall NOT allow you to pull me back into the traps of allowing people to think that I am their "friend" when I have little time for their antics, their disrespect for my decisions, my friends, and my life choices. I shall NOT allow you to place me in a situation where I am compelled to pretend that I trust someone just because I know them, or they express care for me. People may do what they will with me, but I am in no way obligated or required to trust them in return, particularly when they heap abuses and criticisms upon me for acting to the dictates of my conscience. It in no way means that they are my friends or that I must extend that friendship anyway, and I will NOT have you allowing others to assume such things again.
Moving forward, we WILL both make this clear, should we need to, and we will not fail each other as we have done thus far, shall we make a bargain of that point?
Speaking of my behavior and my friends, I do owe Les Amis an apology for abusing the rhetoric used as we envisioned our republic in a sarcastic argument, and for demeaning them, their sacrifices, and Patria herself. I mean to be a better man than that. I OWE them all a better man than that, and I will need help not only in making a full and proper confession to all of them, perhaps individually, as this is serious enough to warrant it, and in making amends for the way I have handled things in the past few weeks. It was abhorrent and disgusting, and while I know that they never would do so, they are within their rights to drop me for the things that I have done, the ways that I have disrespected them. I will need your help to do so, and to keep from failing them, their sacrifice, and our republic again. Please help me in doing so.
-A. Enjolras
Once again, I fail to see where anything, other than about ten words of what I said was so awful that it drove someone I had no interest in interaction with away from me. In other words, by sticking to my guns, and forgetting to pretend that I had any concern for someone I thought nothing of in a personal sense, I have won this round and do not have to put up with their clingy, overly emotional, extremely uncomfortably familiar behavior again. Why should I feel guilt or remotely bad because someone I have no interest in interacting with beyond their status as a fellow human being has decided to take offense to me being myself?
Simply because someone expresses emotion towards me is no reason that I must show them any emotion in return. I am tired of the lying, tired of the pretending, and tired of the playing nice because you worry about causing your fellow mundanes some sort of personal distress. I respect that you have done many things for me, but I will no longer live a lie for you, and will no longer continue with being trapped because you will not support me or speak up for me when the other mundanes dismiss me as a figment of your writer's imagination.
From this day forward, I shall have contact with others, of course, and I shall work to make the world what it ought to be for all people and all humanity, but I shall NOT allow you to pull me back into the traps of allowing people to think that I am their "friend" when I have little time for their antics, their disrespect for my decisions, my friends, and my life choices. I shall NOT allow you to place me in a situation where I am compelled to pretend that I trust someone just because I know them, or they express care for me. People may do what they will with me, but I am in no way obligated or required to trust them in return, particularly when they heap abuses and criticisms upon me for acting to the dictates of my conscience. It in no way means that they are my friends or that I must extend that friendship anyway, and I will NOT have you allowing others to assume such things again.
Moving forward, we WILL both make this clear, should we need to, and we will not fail each other as we have done thus far, shall we make a bargain of that point?
Speaking of my behavior and my friends, I do owe Les Amis an apology for abusing the rhetoric used as we envisioned our republic in a sarcastic argument, and for demeaning them, their sacrifices, and Patria herself. I mean to be a better man than that. I OWE them all a better man than that, and I will need help not only in making a full and proper confession to all of them, perhaps individually, as this is serious enough to warrant it, and in making amends for the way I have handled things in the past few weeks. It was abhorrent and disgusting, and while I know that they never would do so, they are within their rights to drop me for the things that I have done, the ways that I have disrespected them. I will need your help to do so, and to keep from failing them, their sacrifice, and our republic again. Please help me in doing so.
-A. Enjolras