Because the world needs a little slush with our snow. (Spoilers likely within)

[badappled]

I don't know why you've brought me here. If you're trying to torment me, I'm sure there are better ways. 

But if it's what you want, so be it. Nothing can be worse than what I've done. I can feel it in my chest like a cancer. You can't ignore your own heart, can you? You can drink potions to forget love, but you can't ignore what you are.

Or what you're becoming.

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[theboywiththebook]

[Henry's really not sure what to say. Mary Margret did something wrong and something he NEVER expected she would do. She was supposed to be Snow White...someone who never would hurt another person. But, she did.

While he's not happy about it, he knows Regina has done much worse.

All he'll do is reach out a hand and take her's, giving it a small squeeze.]

[badappled]

[Oh Henry. What can she do other than let him comfort her? That's the goodness in him--a childish innocence she once had herself. Once upon a time.

But she can't look at him. She doesn't want him to see. The minute she feels his little fingers squeezing hers, she presses her lips together and shuts her eyes against the tears that quietly spill down her cheeks.

She wants to say something--thank you, maybe--but her voice is caught in her throat and she simply manages a sad, fleeting tearful smile.]

[theboywiththebook]

[Good didn't kill. It didn't do bad things. Sure, sometimes it might lie to protect others or fight back, but never killed.

But, hearing that Mary Margaret had a hand in Cora's death...he's not sure the people he once looked up to as heroes were that anymore. Heroes. Emma, Gold, Charming, all of them were considering the idea of killing Regina.

If only magic hadn't been brought to Storybrooke no one would be doing such terrible things.

He looks up to her when she offers him that smile. What can he say to even comfort her? Unlike Regina, she at least regretted what she did. All he can do is reassure her that:]

You won't become that.

[badappled]

[She studies him for a moment before gently brushing a piece of hair away from his forehead. She'd been so sure before all this. She knew what it meant to be good, and she knew that good always won. That gave her strength.

But that faith was shattered. She shattered it herself.

So does she lie to him? Or does she shatter his faith? Instead, Mary Margaret asks in barely a whisper:]

How do you know?

[Convince me, she silently begs.]

[theboywiththebook]

[He lets her brush his hair, just silently staring up at her. What could he do to convince Snow White that she still wasn't as bad. She took one life to save and protect them, but it still wasn't right.

Her question makes him think for a moment. 'How do you know?'

How did he know if she wouldn't become that. Regina was good once, wasn't she? But, from all the things he's seen of her...and what he's read of Snow WHite and seen of Mary Margaret. The answer comes to him quickly.]

You regret it. Regina's never done that. To the people she's hurt.

[Except with him. But, that's different. She loved him and hated everybody else. Snow regretted killing a person she hated. So...it makes sense why he believes Snow won't go down that road.]

[jolting]

Don't do anything drastic, Mary Margaret. And this is coming from me, so I hope you pay heed of it.

[badappled]

[She almost laughs but it starts to come out as a kind of humorless, hysterical little sob, so she cuts herself off.]

It's too late. But you know... [Her brow furrows, wondering.] I don't think I would have listened even then.

[jolting]

No, I don't expect you would have. Do any of us listen to reason when we are set on something?

I understand better than most what you're going through. It's not a comforting thought, I know, but you aren't alone.

[badappled]

No...No I guess we don't, do we?

But there's no excuse for what I've done. My husband--he warned me. But I didn't listen. And he was right. And now I'm...I don't know what I am.

[arach_nerd]

Look... you made a terrible decision. That does not mean you're going to turn into an evil sociopath. Learn from it, sincerely regret it, and try to make amends for what you did.

[badappled]

She doesn't want me to make amends. I can't force her to forgive me, and I can't force her to kill me. There is nothing I can do to make this right.

[arach_nerd]

I didn't say there was anything you could do to make it right. Making amends was a bad choice of phrase. Just, y'know, try to be the best person you can. It's not too late. No matter what she says. Someone who dived head first off the evil cliff isn't really an expert on morality.

[badappled]

What an...interesting way of putting it.

...Who did you say you were?

[thetrueme]

What are you becoming?

[badappled]

I wish I knew.

I only know that I can't be what I've always wanted to be. That road is closed.

[thetrueme]

By just ONE thing?

[badappled]

I saw my own heart. It had a black spot. She told me it'll never stop. And she could be right. She would know, after all.

[lifes_short_pop]

You can't change what's done, but...I'm not so sure there were other options on the table, other than finding a way to march up and do it yourself.

[badappled]

Dark magic should never be the only option. I should have listened to David new could have found another way.

[lifes_short_pop]

Magic? Don't know anything about that, aside from it seems to work and has so many disadvantages that only the crazy or desperate should even think about trying it.

I've...had to kill a lot of people. Some I regret more than others. Guilt is...something you need after the crisis is done. You're not out of danger. No one is. She'll be looking for payback.

[badappled]

I welcomed her to take it. She wouldn't kill me. But she wants me to suffer.

You say that guilt is something you need. But why? If you feel guilt, why do you do it again?

[untilmylipsbled]

And just what do you think you're becoming?

[badappled]

[post-curse and yep...still a liiiiittle awkward. Hi Kathryn.]

Someone I never wanted to be. Someone who would stoop to using dark magic against her enemy.

[untilmylipsbled]

[Oh, yeah, feelin' the awkward over here, too. The part of Kathryn Nolan that was gung-ho about being a lawyer is STILL trying to unravel the legalities of certain awkward marriages...

But she'll try to untangle that later. She raises her eyebrows.] Dark magic? You? That...IS surprising.

I take it this is a 'desperate times, desperate measures' scenario?

[badappled]

[ Yeeeeah...how does that even work ]

It was. We had to stop her. I had to protect my family.

{The slightest hesitance...]

But that was not the way to do it. Regina deserves to hate me for it.