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[theoldgirl]

How am I supposed to approve of this at all? I can barely survive in that universe, and that is entirely disregarding the fact that I will perish if I am cut off from the Doctor this drastically. Yes, I am glad you were able to inspire the appearance of at least one incarnation of his, and he will certainly ease the strain, but he is not even one current to me, let alone mine. You know what I mean to convey. Was crippling and stranding me without my Doctor once not enough for you? I can see that you miss interactions between me and beings who aren't him, and I wholeheartedly agree with that sentiment, but at this cost?

You are no better than the Doctor when he gets it into his head to override my judgement and will, and I am no more favorably disposed towards you for it.

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[antitimelord]

Welcome to my reality.

Well, not the being so dependent on another being that you're probably going to die bit. That bit's rather stupid and not a part of my reality at all, for which I'm grateful.

[theoldgirl]

You would not be able to appreciate the positive aspects of this kind of bond, anyway. Your existence is so pitifully lonely, no wonder you are resentful and destructive towards everything.

[antitimelord]

I just mean to say it seems like a rather glaring design flaw, but I suppose that's only natural in an older model.

Yes, all I need is the love and friendship denied to me by reality and I can wrap up this universal destruction business and get to my true calling, hugging orphans.

[theoldgirl]

I suggest accessing the Doctor's memories before you try to insult me with inaccurate claims. It has nothing to do with models, and it has never been a flaw in my kind.

No, that was never an option for you. You were created for destruction, of course, but that does not exclude your existence being a miserable one. In fact, these factors probably account for each other in some way. If I did not seek to end your existence because you are dangerous, I would consider it out of pity.

[antitimelord]

I would, except that I have absolutely no intention or desire to do that, ever. Thanks, though.

How gracious of you. I'm deeply moved. Please, more insights into my character, sprinkled liberally with threats. It's nice to not have to do all the work myself for once.

[theoldgirl]

I have no intention of wasting more of my time on you. And you have a harmless, confused human to harass, do you not?

[antitimelord]

...Do I? I don't think I've been harassing anybody lately.

[theoldgirl]

The one who shares the Doctor's appearance. Is the familiarity bothering you?

[antitimelord]

You're reaching. It's not like he shares my face. My interactions with that particular incarnation have been fairly limited anyway. Barring the time I helped you completely betray his trust, of course.

[theoldgirl]

He trusts me to take care of him and that is what I did. You were merely a means to an end, and have no authority with which to comment on this.

[ofdrumsthesound]

Good luck. Other knows you'll need it.

[theoldgirl]

I would not have expected good will from you.

[ofdrumsthesound]

I know. But hurting you was never a goal of mine. Only an unfortunate side effect of yet another mad scheme.

[theoldgirl]

Oh, is that remorse? It changes nothing.

[ofdrumsthesound]

Maybe it doesn't, I don't know. But at least I've remembered how to feel it.

[theoldgirl]

I shall hope that anyone crossing your path in your future will benefit from that, then.

[ofdrumsthesound]

Don't worry, I've stuck to hurting people who deserve it lately.

[theoldgirl]

And upon whose judgement does that rest? Yours? I fail to see how that is different from centuries past.

[ofdrumsthesound]

No, not mine. I don't trust myself enough for that. I'm going off the judgement of the societies I'm in at the time.

Child abusers, rapists, wife-beaters--you know. Scum.

[theoldgirl]

Some improvement, I suppose. Not that most societies' standards for rightfulness are entirely reliable. What caused this?

[ofdrumsthesound]

I learned where the drums come from. And I have no desire to be Rassilon's puppet any longer.

I can probably never be sane, but I've stopped trying to be just like him. I don't need the universe, what would I do with it if I had it?

I'll stick to being a bipolar, sadistic cannibal, thanks.

[theoldgirl]

That question never seemed to occur to you or stop you before. It is a pity that you had to be broken entirely before gaining some measure of reason. Much suffering could have been prevented.

[ofdrumsthesound]

It wasn't until I realized that the drums exist to control me that I started to doubt their messages.

I know to fight them now, at least that much.

[theoldgirl]

Good luck to you too, then. For everyone else's sake.

[ofdrumsthesound]

For everyone's including mine, really. Madness isn't always much fun.

*And he blows her a kiss.* Thanks.

[i_jones]

The rest of us are thrilled to be there, I'm sure.

WHY IS HIS USERNAME DIFFERENT I HATE CHANGE

[theoldgirl]

The rest of you do not have such profound bonds to be severed.

But I am glad to know there will be some pleasant company, at least.

i wanted a username i could actually pronounce B( HOW DO YOU KNOW I'M NOT SOME IMPOSTER IANTO

[i_jones]

No, I had no particular attachment to my home universe or any of the people contained therein.

Well. Assuming my mundane gets around to introducing me into the game. She's been... busy.

YOU NAMED ONE OF HIS ICONS SMUGFACE that seemed a very you thing to do

[theoldgirl]

Did you not? I cannot tell if you are being facetious, again. Either way, that is not what I meant, and I would have thought you would understand that.

I am patient. But I do look forward to your appearance, so I hope she will not be busy for long.

[impossibled]

Overriding judgement and will's sort of what they do, muns. Once they get some idea in their heads, there's no getting it out.

[theoldgirl]

They are awfully like the Doctor, in that regard. Even when they are sympathetic to one's displeasure, they move ahead stubbornly.

[impossibled]

Especially if it's bad for us. Makes it interesting for them, I think.

[Which. Really isn't the best of prospects, but honestly? Five months and Oswin's pretty used to it. There's good mixed in with the bad that makes it worth it.

Better than being dead, anyway.]

So. You'd die without him, is that literally or...?

[theoldgirl]

Yes, very literal. We share a symbiotic bond. [Most things are better than being dead. Existing without the Doctor is not one of them.]

[impossibled]

[Don't have to tell her twice. Two more months.

For now, Oswin frowns.]

And she's just sending you somewhere even though you'll die?

[theoldgirl]

Well, she did manage to encourage the appearance of one of the Doctor's incarnations. He is not the one current to me, but his presence should be enough to mitigate the effects. Still, it will be hard.

[rougeofvoid]

c-c-c-c-COMBOB BREAKER

sry sry i was j noticin a theme here
anyways
i know its not much
but its gotta help some that we can hang out right??

[theoldgirl]

A theme?

Meeting you will likely be enjoyable, yes. Though I am not entirely sure what that will entail, I have to admit.

[rougeofvoid]

everybody was all kinds of from the same universe
i thought maybe i should open up the dance floor a little
there were just too many dicks

used to be i woulda said it would entail more shots than a lmfao song
i think im probs put offa that now tho
but we can have a lot of fun w/o anyone gettin hammered or possessed by candy

[theoldgirl]

Oh, I... see. Well, not many people outside of my native universe know me and thus would be inclined to comment.

Are you... referring to imbibing alcohol? I am certainly in favor of avoiding large quantities of that, and I am glad to hear you have stopped poisoning your body.

IT KEEPS HAPENING

[rougeofvoid]

im glad 3
*2

it doesnt have to be excessive tho
we could be like
ladylike and refined
and not drunk
i could just have mocktails
(bluh)
and u could chillax some

I WARNED YOU

[theoldgirl]

Ah yes, alcohol in moderation is acceptable. I do enjoy experiencing new tastes.