voice test; reaction to recent chapters & preparing for application

[alarum]

It's not that I mind being here. I'm ... grateful, actually.

I just wish that it would have happened earlier. Before I ruined everything.

You have treated me with more kindness than I deserve but I don't want pity and I still doubt that he would want me to come.

Comments

ahhh not updated but wth

[plasters]

Who would?

1/2 probably for the best ...

[alarum]

2/2

[alarum]

I'm sorry.

[plasters]

I didn’t— [ Wait. something’s not right. ]

Soubi? What’s going on?

[alarum]

I'm sorry I left.

I couldn't—

He wouldn't let me.

[plasters]

[ He doesn’t understand a thing you’re saying. However, he isn’t so stupid that he cannot guess who ‘he’ is. Especially considering how beaten up about it you are. It still doesn’t make sense, though. You were with him before he got here. Perhaps you had a bad dream. Maybe that’s all it was. Or has HE forgotten? ]

Seimei? Is that who you mean? But … I don’t … remember you leaving, Soubi. Or do you mean coming here? Because that’s okay! We’re both here now.

[alarum]

That's not it. I'm happy I'm here but—

I betrayed you, Ritsuka. You should order me to leave.

1/GOD KNOWS

[plasters]

But—

2/GOD KNOWS

[plasters]

But I don’t remember anything like that!

3/4

[plasters]

I can’t punish you for something that hasn’t happened yet! And if it was big brother then you couldn’t help it, right? Soubi!

4/4

[plasters]

But … why would Seimei—

[ He doesn’t get it. It’s all too much for him to handle. Sure, Soubi is Seimei’s Fighter but didn’t he abandon him? Doesn’t he have Nisei now? Did he do this to hurt him? Hurt Soubi? ]

[alarum]

I don't know.

( still after all this he can't say anything bad about seimei. not in front of ritsuka. )

But it happened. Even though I said I could still be your fighter, it happened.

[plasters]

[ He’s trying to pull himself together for you! ]

It’s okay! It’s my fault—I promised you that I’d handle my brother. And I didn’t, even though I don’t remember. I’m sorry.

[alarum]

It's not you fault, Ritsuka. There was nothing you could have done.

It was me. I ... I made Ritsuka sad. You mustn't blame yourself for my shortcomings.

[plasters]

But you couldn’t help it.

[alarum]

You shouldn't be so forgiving. I don't deserve it.

[plasters]

Don’t tell me what to do!

[alarum]

( there is a sudden silence. this is better, this he can deal with. right now, the only way he could stop wallowing in what happened is if you tell him to. )

I just don't—

Can you forgive me?

[plasters]

I didn’t even say I was mad at you! Don’t come to conclusions on your own like that, it’s annoying!

[alarum]

You should be mad at me though. It doesn't make sense that you're not.

( he sounds tired however, as if he's finally starting to relax. )

[plasters]

Being mad about something that hasn’t happened yet doesn’t make sense. It’s stupid. I’ll deal with it when it has.

[ His voice breaks a little at the end there. He really doesn’t want you to leave, ever. Plus you’re hurting about it and that just makes it worse. ]

[alarum]

And until then I can stay?

I've missed you, Ritsuka. I don't— I don't want to leave you again.

[plasters]

Then stay.

We were going to go somewhere together, right?

[alarum]

This is my dream come true.

( it's a simple answer but it's true. )

How are you?

[plasters]

I’m fine. I miss everyone from back home and this is kind of weird but the people here are okay so that makes it easier.

How about you?

[alarum]

I'm free to be with Ritsuka. That's all I ever wanted.

[formerlyknownassaga]

For someone who supposedly doesn't want pity, it sure sounds like you're wallowing in self-pity right now.

[alarum]

I don't want anyone's pity and I certainly don't want your opinion.

[bloody_spy]

[Arms folded, sizing you up.]

Do you always prefer the sacrifice you don't belong to?

[alarum]

What are you doing here.

[bloody_spy]

What a stupid question.

[Nisei looks vaguely playful, but he isn't. Your attachment to the Loveless sacrifice disgusts him. What kind of fighter mopes because their real partner isn't dead, Soubi?]

[alarum]

Run back to Seimei.

( fortunately your opinion doesn't matter to him. )

[bloody_spy]

Keep wishing.

[He's aware. When he has something he can actually hurt you with, or permission to inflict real damage, you'll know.]

Seimei must have been a lot angrier with both of you than he seemed, to leave Ritsuka without a fighter.

[alarum]

( he tries to ignore you but unfortunately your presence bugs him too much. )

You think you know him so well, don't you?

( one day he will grow tired of you, just wait and see. )

[bloody_spy]

I wouldn't be speculating about his motives if I did.

[Nisei's trying to avoid that, but he knows it's a possibility. He had an excellent view of the whole thing when Seimei left you.]

Can you prove that your perceptions are any better than mine?

[alarum]

I don't see why I need to prove anything to you as I couldn't care less what you think.