I'm not saying you didn't feel anything. I'm saying that you were not their target, and the threat to you was not captivity, death or, worse, Tranquility. You would have been whipped and let go. You do not get to understand what being a mage is like when you are not a mage. You do not get to tell me that your fear and suffering was equal to that of a mage. It wasn't. You're not a mage. You feel. You had to deal with difficulties. But you did not have to deal with as horrible a prospective future as apostates have.

And I used your word. Not the 'rugged' that I've gotten recently from elsewhere.