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[imusntrunaway]

I don't care.

...

It doesn't matter where I go. Here, there. It's all the same. I'll be used by others and I'll hurt others. It doesn't matter if Asuka or Kaworu will be there. I'll hurt them, too. That's all... that's all I do.

Why do you bother asking? You don't care about me. It's already done. And I deserve this.

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[sixthanimorph]

Leave it to you to be the optimist.

Just out of curiosity, did you do anything for the holidays? Besides, y'know, sulk?

[imusntrunaway]

... was I supposed to?

[Ha ha celebrating holidays with people?? That's just silly.]

[sixthanimorph]

Well, yeah. I'd have gone looking for you, but I figured you were busy. Silly me.

[He really should have just kicked down his door and dragged him out kicking and screaming. Best Christmas present ever.]

[imusntrunaway]

[He's surprised. Wait. People want to hang out with him? What alternate universe has he landed in?]

Oh.

I'm sorry. I was... [Busy undergoing traumatic events over and over for the sake of canon review.] ... occupied. Sorry. I'm not used to, um. Celebrating.

[sixthanimorph]

Yeah. I kind of got that impression.

[He is going to have to see your room one day, Shinji. He's betting it's sterile and spare, with not a poster in sight or a TV to watch. Maybe he'll fix that.]

Occupied doing what? Writing bad poetry? [Geez, like your life needed to be any more depressing.] Did you at least get anything?

[changedbywar]

...hey, you want some hamburgers and hot dogs? Ice cream? You look skinny.

[imusntrunaway]

[A stranger offering him food?? What's your intention here mysterious woman?]

No. No thank you. I'm not hungry.

[changedbywar]

Even if you were, would you have said yes? [She grins, hands on her hips. Completely open in her body language and completely stereotypical American chick.]

I like being nice to people before I let myself say something they don't want to hear.

[imusntrunaway]

... Isn't that a troublesome way to handle others...?

[nail_cleanthatup]

It is truely a great thing when someone learns their place in this world.

[imusntrunaway]

Is it really?

[Because it sure doesn't feel great.]

[nail_cleanthatup]

Once you realize that no one cares about you, maybe you'll shut the hell up!

Unless, of course, there is something you truely want in tihs world.

[imusntrunaway]

[...]

I don't want anything.

[fallenhalf]

Why so pessimistic? Is the world ending again?

[imusntrunaway]

It's the truth.

The world might as well end. I don't care if that happens either.

[fallenhalf]

What makes you say that?

Don't speak of the Apocalypse so lightly. You might regret meeting the angel responsible for it

[imusntrunaway]

I don't care. [He repeats this in a monotone.]

[shine_like_a_legend]

Your mun to? They never care about us...

[imusntrunaway]

I don't care about her either.

She's no different from Misato-san or Ritsuko-san. [Or the rest of NERV, for that matter.]

[shine_like_a_legend]

...I have trouble imagining she's that bad.

[imusntrunaway]

But it's the same, isn't it? Giving orders. Following orders. There's no difference.

[the17th]

...You brood an awful lot, don't you?

[imusntrunaway]

[Oh. It's Kaworu.]

Maybe I do.

I'm allowed to think, aren't I?

[the17th]

Well, why wouldn't you be?

Maybe it would do you better to be more expressive. You always keep your sadness inwards.

[there's thinly veiled bitterness. A+ teenagers]

[imusntrunaway]

I don't want to burden others with my problems.