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[milligan]

What, were you expecting a happy ending for me? From this show? Really? Things didn't get any happier after the first season's finale and you're already on the seventh, so I don't know if you're holding on to hope just because you can, or you're just being masochistic at this point.

Look. You knew Dean was going to make that choice. It wouldn't be Supernatural if he didn't— And no, we're not talking about how I feel about that, I'm not even a real Winchester. That's not my thing.

My point is, if I even make it out of the cage, looking up the Winchesters is probably the last thing I'd wanna do up top. It's nothing personal, except for the part where it really kind of is. Deal with it.

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[milligan]

[ All the things that could've gone better if they just weren't who they were, huh? The only real consolation Adam's gotten out of this Apocalypse mess is the secure knowledge of his mom actually being in heaven. Not that that's too nice a thing, considering. Angels, man. They're such dicks. But if she's at peace, he'll make himself find peace somewhere. ]

I did wonder why you weren't all there all of a sudden. You know, back in the cage? Not that you remember any of it, apparently.

Seriously, though - not a thing?

[chosenfamily]

I will. The wall surrounding the knowledge isn't that stable and my mun's looking forward to knocking it down.

According to her, it did get pretty bad, though. Seeing Lucifer everywhere and getting to the point where the memories and hallucinations wouldn't let me eat or sleep. Probably would have died if Cas hadn't taken all of that shit on himself.

[milligan]

Yeah, I think we've seen that part. It's driving me up the wall how this girl actually found that compelling. Compelling. Because that's such a concern when you're hallucinating about the freaking Devil.

But at least you're out, right? And you're doing pretty okay, considering.

[chosenfamily]

Yeah. Compelling. I suppose that's one word for it.

Muns are really kind of fucked in the head.

[He snorts and shrugs.] As well as can be expected. Though the game I'm in seems to be real good at wanting to throw everything it can at us. Though at least we Winchesters aren't alone in the whole 'getting royally screwed' sweepstakes. We might actually be doing a little better than most.

((That would be maisondeportes, if you might be interested. Horror jamjar setting with a really large Supernatural cast. Including Lucifer and Michael.))

...See what I mean about screwed up in the head?

[milligan]

If you guys are doing better than most, then this is kind of the worst sales pitch ever, Sam. No offense, but you've seen the stuff you guys deal with? It's nasty.

[ But hey, what's a glimpse of eternity in Hell, right? ]

So what's the place like?

[chosenfamily]

Well, given the way it's working, you'd fall under that banner, too. Though...yeah. Can't disagree with that. It normally is nasty.

[It's really not much better where he is, either.]

Uh. Well. It's a house. Or, rather, it's about three houses so far. With lots of doors. And you never much know what's going to come out from behind those doors.

And there are the experiments. And the ghosts. And the creatures that come out at night...

We have a lot of people there from home. My mom's there. Dean, Cas. Couple of other angels. Ones that aren't assholes. [Well, Sam's still withholding judgement on Rachel, for the most part.] Uh...and Lucifer. But he's not going to be interested in you.

[milligan]

[ What.

Lucifer being around and not interested - Adam probably has a modicum of trust reserved for Sam and all, considering that wonderful ride of a time spent in Hell, but this just doesn't sound on. ]

Hang on for a minute and can you explain that? Lucifer? With you? Not interested? Are you kidding me or did you leave some part of your sanity behind, Sam.

This is Lucifer we're talking about. He's a persistent S.O.B., I'm sure you didn't forget.

[chosenfamily]

Not what I said. I said he wasn't interested in YOU. He is still way, WAY too interested in me.

[Invading his fucking dreams again. Poking at the wall. All that.]

He apparently wants out just as much as the rest of us. Which, given that I haven't said yes to him back home yet when he's from, I know why he wants to get home so quick.

As for my sanity? Work in progress, man. Work in progress.

[milligan]

He doesn't care whose back-up I am, does he. [ Is it too much to hope, is what he's thinking. ] How long is that lack of interest stay that way until he figures out you did end up saying yes, though. I mean, Sam, we were in the cage.

I guess if he doesn't know, then you're fine, but what if someone else does?

—This is a mess.

[chosenfamily]

I don't actually remember that right now. Though if my mun has her way, that part's not going to last. That part should go well. Really.

He doesn't want you, Adam. He's...got this idea that we're literally made for each other. As long as I'm here, he's not going to be interested in you. And if he does start looking like he's going to get interested in you, I'm sure I can get his attention back.

Without Michael here, though, he might be a bit more...willing to wait, at least.

[milligan]

You'd really do that.

[ Sam always seemed to be the type to self-flagellate over whatever awful thing happened that might have even a single ounce of his being at fault, and maybe that had been one reason for why Adam had trusted him just a slight bit more than Dean. Too bad it didn't help either of them in the end.

Really, though - under vastly different circumstances, Adam wouldn't have minded knowing the Winchesters, might have even thought of them as family. It's just unfortunate that they all met after Adam died the first time, but that might just be part of being John's kid. You never lucked out. ]

[chosenfamily]

[This time it isn't just a little bit Sam's fault. Adam was in the Cage directly because of him. (Okay, yes, Lucifer and Michael had been the catalysts, but Sam had grabbed Adam as he fell.)]

[Sam's smile is wan, but real enough.] Yeah. Yeah, I'd really do that.

You were never supposed to be part of this, Adam. Dad did his best to make sure you were kept far away from it. Unfortunately, the Winchester luck seems to be genetic.

[More literally so in the House where Sam's stuck right now, but at one's at least running in their favor.]