On the most recent episode. Spoilers in comments.

[hunting_trip]

[Sigh. Not even.]



I don't wanna talk about it. You don't even know how much I don't wanna talk about it.

Comments

[hunting_trip]

Cas, that's not...

[He sighed. This was about to get emotional. Gross.]

I mean, don't get me wrong, I'm pissed. You fucked up bad. You were a total dick- you worked with demons. You hurt Sam, and frankly, I'm probably going to punch you in the face. Maybe twice. I don't know.

[A beat.]

But you're still my friend, and damn it... it's hard, Cas. I really... I just... need you right now.

[doubtheaven]

I saw how you handled last night. I'm worried about you, Dean.

It's like you're.. giving up.

[hunting_trip]

Hey, hey, hey. I am not giving up. I just... got... distracted.

Plus, I mean, come on. It's like the universe is just... looking for ways to get to me. You know how it was with Ben, and this chick comes along and says...

It's just hard, alright? That's it. Let it go.

[doubtheaven]

Saying you'll do what you can is not very reassuring.

I want you to do more than that. I want you to survive.

[hunting_trip]

I'm getting by, alright? Jesus.

[Defensive.]

Just... lay off, mom.

[doubtheaven]

[He nods slightly.]

I wish I could be there with you, too.

[hunting_trip]

Yeah.

[Eyes the the floor, in his gruffest, tiredest voice.]

I know, Cas.