On the most recent episode. Spoilers in comments.

[hunting_trip]

[Sigh. Not even.]



I don't wanna talk about it. You don't even know how much I don't wanna talk about it.

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[daughters_of_janus]

Bad day kitten?

[hunting_trip]

Bad life.

[daughters_of_janus]

Aw it can't be all bad.

[hunting_trip]

Sister, you don't know the half of it.

[daughters_of_janus]

We all have our pains kitten. It's just how we handle them, maybe talking about it will make you feel better?

[hunting_trip]

Yeeeahno. I think I'll take a pass on that one. Who the hell are you, anyway, and what's with you and cats?

[daughters_of_janus]

I'm Jeanette. And it's just a nickname, would you prefer duckling?

[hunting_trip]

Hi, Jeanette. Don't sweat it. Some people just aren't nickname people.

[daughters_of_janus]

Alright, so where are you from? My sister and I have a pretty popular club in Santa Monica.

[hunting_trip]

South Dakota.

We sure do love... being... close to Canada.

[daughters_of_janus]

I could never do that, too many wolves in Canada.

[hunting_trip]

Oh, no, yeah, totally. Wolves. Pretty scary stuff. Thank God they've got all those Mounties to make them feel secure.

[daughters_of_janus]

The problem is some of them are Mounties I think.

:D A DEAN

[bbinatrenchcoat]

Hello Dean.

=D A CAS

[hunting_trip]

...

[Wait-]

Cas?

<3

[bbinatrenchcoat]

Yes, it's me.

<3!

[hunting_trip]

[He can't even... that's not possible. He starts forward and then stops again, wide-eyed and uncomprehending.]

I don't... am I dead?

[Beat.]

Again?

[bbinatrenchcoat]

You're not dead, Dean.

I'm still alive.

[hunting_trip]

No- no, no you dissolved into a pile of goo. I saw it. And there's no way the big guy'd bring you back, after what you-

[He falters, squares his jaw.]

You know, after the whole God thing.

vague cas is vague since mun has no idea why cas is brought back

[bbinatrenchcoat]

I can't explain right now, but The Lord has brought me back.

Give it about four episodes, and hopefully we'll find out.

[hunting_trip]

...Damn it, Cas, if this is the universe fucking with me, I swear to god, I just...

I just can't, man. Not this, too.

[bbinatrenchcoat]

I'm sorry, Dean.

It's not as bad as it sounds.

[hunting_trip]

No, it's always as bad as it sounds. Actually, it's usually like... six percent worse than it sounds.

[doubtheaven]

Sam mentioned me. I was a little surprised.

[hunting_trip]

Yeah, well. Sam doesn't know what he's talking about.

[Sam totally knows what he's talking about.]

[doubtheaven]

You're right. You shouldn't feel anything for me after what I had done. I caused so many problems.

[hunting_trip]

Cas, that's not...

[He sighed. This was about to get emotional. Gross.]

I mean, don't get me wrong, I'm pissed. You fucked up bad. You were a total dick- you worked with demons. You hurt Sam, and frankly, I'm probably going to punch you in the face. Maybe twice. I don't know.

[A beat.]

But you're still my friend, and damn it... it's hard, Cas. I really... I just... need you right now.

[doubtheaven]

I saw how you handled last night. I'm worried about you, Dean.

It's like you're.. giving up.

[hunting_trip]

Hey, hey, hey. I am not giving up. I just... got... distracted.

Plus, I mean, come on. It's like the universe is just... looking for ways to get to me. You know how it was with Ben, and this chick comes along and says...

It's just hard, alright? That's it. Let it go.

[doubtheaven]

Saying you'll do what you can is not very reassuring.

I want you to do more than that. I want you to survive.

[hunting_trip]

I'm getting by, alright? Jesus.

[Defensive.]

Just... lay off, mom.

[doubtheaven]

[He nods slightly.]

I wish I could be there with you, too.

[hunting_trip]

Yeah.

[Eyes the the floor, in his gruffest, tiredest voice.]

I know, Cas.