On possibly apping to Thusia

[lifewithoutrest]

Why do you insist on torturing yourself?

Yes, I am aware I'll be required to die, but perhaps you should consider exactly how long I've been alive. I have led a fulfilling life, had rewarding work. And despite what you may believe, this isn't an end, so much as a new beginning. You understand as well as most what I've lived through, so you must also understand the appeal in escaping it all, even if only briefly. I'm content in my life, but I've made my peace with death.

You've no need to worry.

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[fosteringdyslexia]

You're going to die?

[lifewithoutrest]

It's inevitable, I'm afraid. There's an end for each of us, perhaps it's time I met mine.

[fosteringdyslexia]

That's not fair. We just met.

[lifewithoutrest]

I do apologize for that. But this isn't the last you'll see of me, I'm certain.

[fosteringdyslexia]

How are you supposed to help me if you're dead?

[lifewithoutrest]

Not all deaths are forever.

[fosteringdyslexia]

Now you're making no sense again.

[lifewithoutrest]

This won't be forever.

[fosteringdyslexia]

But death is final.

[lifewithoutrest]

Under most circumstances, yes, it is.

[fosteringdyslexia]

So how come yours isn't? Because you're so old?

[lifewithoutrest]

My age has little to do with it. It's more a matter of the manner of my death and the reasons for it.

[fosteringdyslexia]

Sounds complicated.

[lifewithoutrest]

Yes, it is.

[fosteringdyslexia]

Just...be careful okay?

[lifewithoutrest]

[That gets a small smile.] I will.

[fosteringdyslexia]

[Seems a little satisfied with that. Is this what having a friend feels like?]

[lifewithoutrest]

[Perhaps. Though she tends to see herself as more of a protector.] I trust you'll look after yourself while I'm gone?

[fosteringdyslexia]

I looked after myself before you came along. I'm sure I can do it when you're gone.

[lifewithoutrest]

Yes, I suppose you did.

[fosteringdyslexia]

It's not like I had much of a choice.

[lifewithoutrest]

No. But you should make it your choice. Don't let their opinions change how you see yourself.

[fosteringdyslexia]

Opinions don't feed me.

[lifewithoutrest]

I'm glad.

[fosteringdyslexia]

So...do you know when you're leaving?

[lifewithoutrest]

Not yet.

[fosteringdyslexia]

But you'll let me know, won't you?

[lifewithoutrest]

Of course.

[fosteringdyslexia]

Thank you.

[backbaby]

I'm not sure I like the sound of this Helen.

[lifewithoutrest]

Whether you agree with it or not is irrelevant. It's my decision to make, Nikola.

[backbaby]

Why choose to die? What do you possibly get out of it?

[lifewithoutrest]

I get a reprieve, Nikola. I've lived longer than anyone has a right to, if I can choose when to end it, how. [She isn't going to finish that thought.]

[backbaby]

[He taps his chin in thought for a moment.]

Interesting.

[lifewithoutrest]

[She just watches him, trying to decide how to take that.]

[backbaby]

I can see where you are coming from. The way you see it. Me it's just selfish, i mean who else will put up with me for as long as you have?

[lifewithoutrest]

You certainly make it challenging. I do regret leaving you on your own. [A small smile.] Lord knows the trouble you'll get yourself into without someone around to rescue you.

[backbaby]

Me? Trouble?

Never.

[lifewithoutrest]

But rarely more trouble than you're worth.