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dear_mun2012-10-19 12:16 am
justthedoctor) wrote in dear_mun2012-10-19 12:16 am
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Someone's good at pep-talks, when he wants to be.
Now, now, let's not have anymore of that, yeah? You know you're not a bad person, and you know people do not look at you like you're a bad person. And even if there are some that do, you shouldn't worry about it, because those people don't matter in your life.
No, you are not worthless, you know how I feel about hearing you say that, I've never met a worthless human being in all my life so don't think on it anymore! Who cares if the crochet is easy for you, you still do it and that's a skill not everyone has. And even if everyone did know how to do it, not everyone would, which means it's the time and effort and thought and love that you put into it that makes it special. Not everyone has a great, big package of it waiting to be shipped out, do they?
And who cares if you can't find the right pants in time for Halloween? It's your first costume, and nobody is going to care that I wore a pair of brown slacks with blue pinstriping and you're wearing some other color. You've got the shirt and the tie will come together quickly, and you'll have your hair cut just right. You're a perfectionist with these things, and it's an honourable trait, but you shouldn't be so hard on yourself. You'll be brilliant, and you can simply work out the final details for next time! No no no no, don't get started on the weight, either! You're working on it and that's what matters! You are still pretty and you know it because there are times when you look in the mirror and even though you don't think you should, you think to yourself "I look pretty today." Not just everyone can wear that bright red lipstick so well, yeah? You remember how surprised it made you when you put it on last Halloween and despite all your expectations it looked gorgeous! Everyone loves when you wear it, including yourself, so you should wear it more often. Everyone needs to do things that make them feel pretty, or handsome, or whatever descriptor you want to use for yourself that day.
No, cheer up, I won't let you keep listening to those "brain wolves," as you so appropriately call them. You and I both know what they reallyare, and you know in a little while, they will get quiet again and you'll be ok again. There's no sense making yourself sick because you're depressed and have trouble disbelieving the things it puts in your head. You watched that episode with me and Amy and Vincent last night, and you understood and believed what I said then because you know, and I know, we both know, and when it passes, you'll believe it again. You'll be ok. You're a smart girl and people love you, even if the depression tells you they don't. It will be ok. I promise.
No, there is nothing wrong with letting the muse in your head comfort you, silly girl, just think of me as a manifestation of the part of your brain that is stronger then the depression who is talking to you in a way that you'll listen.
Now. Go send a message to Miss Heather. You know she worries about you. You'll feel better after talking to her again, you always do.
It's ok. I promise. I never break my promises.
No, you are not worthless, you know how I feel about hearing you say that, I've never met a worthless human being in all my life so don't think on it anymore! Who cares if the crochet is easy for you, you still do it and that's a skill not everyone has. And even if everyone did know how to do it, not everyone would, which means it's the time and effort and thought and love that you put into it that makes it special. Not everyone has a great, big package of it waiting to be shipped out, do they?
And who cares if you can't find the right pants in time for Halloween? It's your first costume, and nobody is going to care that I wore a pair of brown slacks with blue pinstriping and you're wearing some other color. You've got the shirt and the tie will come together quickly, and you'll have your hair cut just right. You're a perfectionist with these things, and it's an honourable trait, but you shouldn't be so hard on yourself. You'll be brilliant, and you can simply work out the final details for next time! No no no no, don't get started on the weight, either! You're working on it and that's what matters! You are still pretty and you know it because there are times when you look in the mirror and even though you don't think you should, you think to yourself "I look pretty today." Not just everyone can wear that bright red lipstick so well, yeah? You remember how surprised it made you when you put it on last Halloween and despite all your expectations it looked gorgeous! Everyone loves when you wear it, including yourself, so you should wear it more often. Everyone needs to do things that make them feel pretty, or handsome, or whatever descriptor you want to use for yourself that day.
No, cheer up, I won't let you keep listening to those "brain wolves," as you so appropriately call them. You and I both know what they reallyare, and you know in a little while, they will get quiet again and you'll be ok again. There's no sense making yourself sick because you're depressed and have trouble disbelieving the things it puts in your head. You watched that episode with me and Amy and Vincent last night, and you understood and believed what I said then because you know, and I know, we both know, and when it passes, you'll believe it again. You'll be ok. You're a smart girl and people love you, even if the depression tells you they don't. It will be ok. I promise.
No, there is nothing wrong with letting the muse in your head comfort you, silly girl, just think of me as a manifestation of the part of your brain that is stronger then the depression who is talking to you in a way that you'll listen.
Now. Go send a message to Miss Heather. You know she worries about you. You'll feel better after talking to her again, you always do.
It's ok. I promise. I never break my promises.
Daww, poor thing. *Hugs*
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But lucky for her, she's got me in her headspace now, and so when she retreated there to try and not think about it, I was waiting. I may not have to worry about saving the planet while I'm here, but that doesn't mean I won't still try my hardest to make the bad things stop, even if it is on a much smaller scale.
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It is my modus operandi, after all. Thank you. It will. We simply need to be patient.
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Do feel a little sorry for anyone sharing space with you though.
[small shake of the head.]
It will be a never ending rush of 'We Will Do It This Way And No Other'. People don't know what they're in for.
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I'll have you know she enjoys having me in her head. She simply points me in a direction, lets me out, and enjoys the results! Rather like one of those nature shows on the telly. "here we have the wild Doctor in his natural habitat: in the middle of explosions, with lots of running."
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Anyone who shares the headspace o' that twig is bound to be wonderful, crazy, but wonderful. I know where you're comin' from with that whole mess, it can really bog a girl down, can't it? But don't fear, you'll be brilliant!
[And of course, provides an approving slap on the back for the Doctor, for being such a watchful, protective thing.]
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Exactly! She's done a great job if I do say so myself! She doesn't want to believe it, and she keeps trying to discredit the times she's had others say as much, but I certainly think so! Just like I told you, she is special, so forget all of that negative nonsense.
And look at you! She's always so happy when she sees you because she feels so much like you! Big girl with self-esteem issues an' secretly thinks she's obnoxious and nobody cares about her. [...So he's just gonna come right out and say it like that, huh?] But you're still a beautiful woman and smart and sweet and kind, and my very best friend. You make her so happy because you remind her that people really don't think those things, and let her see from the outside how false all those things she thinks about herself really are.
[And just like that, he leaaaaans against his BFF and nuzzles and bumps playfully. Because he doesn't get enough Donna-time, not at all. He's going to take advantage of it while he has it. <3]
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I can see that mouth o' yours certainly hasn't changed. Y'filled out a little, but you still run that mouth like the suns 'bout to burn out!
[Still, she melts a little. Oh, all right, a lot. Not only because he's all nuzzles, but because his words sting in their truthfulness. She can relate to his Mun very well on this subject; it's a hard place to come from. For a minute, her face battles with the look she wants to give the Doctor, but she resigns herself to a stubborn smile, and throws her arms around him. His very best friend, he's got that right.]
Be proud of those curves; I won't hear of it otherwise. You think this beanstalk could pull off a dress like we do? No, he certainly doesn't have the rear for even his own trousers! [Okay, that's a small lie, but she's not looking!]
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And he is seriously the most graceful drunken giraffe!]Of course I still run my mouth, when I'm the voice of reason, I have to. [And then Donna hugs are a thing, and he's giving hr a squeeze and kissing her forehead to show he didn't mean it, even when he did, before giving his own indignant yelp.]
Oi yourself, Donna No-AH!!! Oh! You just made 'er laugh! [And now his grin is stretching from ear to ear.] That's more like it! Good ol' Donna, you wonderful girl!
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And my, hasn't the Doctor become hands on? All kisses and squeezes. She'd like to find some remark to make about this, but she'll just bask in a job well done; both in getting a rise out of the Doctor, and giving his Mun a laugh. She smirks, nudging him in the side playfully.]
Definitely worth keepin' me round.
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Add to that the fact that creativity often goes hand-in-hand with instability and it's no mystery why they suffer so much sometimes. Because let's face it: any creature who can take so many voices and beings into their minds and channel them at the drop of a hat so beautifully is at the very least creative, and at the very worst absolutely mad.
if anyone would know, it's me.
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[And he caught that bit at the bottom.]
I wouldn't say you're insane, doc. And neither's your mun.
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[He almost looks like he's going to reply to the last bit, but he stops short and suddenly looks uncomfortable.]
...I would say you simply haven't seen me at my worst...but you kind've have...[And it got you killed...
And then he gives a tiny laugh, scratching his cheek uncomfortably and glancing away.]
Amusingly enough, Mun's first instinct is to agree with you, and to cite any number of psychiatric reasons I believe I am if I'm really not: Depression making me believe things that aren't true, like it does her, or perhaps alien psychiatry being so subtly different between Gallifreyans and Earthers that what appears mad from a human standpoint is actually perfectly normal for us.
But then she realizes even those excuses maybe don't explain it away fully based on my past history and behaviors, and has to eat her words...[He brightens up suddenly, though, smiling again as if the conversation hadn't taken a suddenly troubling turn.] Either way, I can accept it and live with it without letting it get me down, and that's what's important. Worst-case scenario, I'm simply a very high-functioning madman.
Mun isn't, to be sure. Even she recognizes that, even when the depression makes her feel like she's going. So that's good, at least.
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[There's a slight smile there.]
Well, at least your moral compass is set right, doc. That's something to be thankful for, huh?
And your mundane. Well, we all get a bit down. She ain't gonna get far with this depression with you 'round.
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[ because he's never not going to be awkward at attempting to make people feel better. ]
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Exactly! That's what everyone tells her! That's what I tell her and Miss Heather and her mother and everyone who sees the things she makes! She thinks they're simply being polite, or that if they tried themselves, they'd see it was really easy and not something she should be proud of, which is just wrong. I'm still learning yarnwork myself, but she just dismisses it offhand. "Oh, but if he really took the time to learn, he'd be so much better then me, he's the Doctor! Everything he does is brilliant!" [No, he totally didn't make his voice sound a little girly at that.] Which may be true, but that's beside the point. The fact is, she still taught herself, and she still does it well when other people can't at all. [And yes, sadly enough, that is quite a compliment in Doctor-speak.]
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Self-taught, huh? Man, that's gotta be tough-going. [ Because making spiderwebs are a pain in the ass, he can commiserate with the 'difficult for others' thing. He blinks. ]
You're a doctor? A doctor of what?
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It's quite nice, how a little sleep can reset all those bad feels and make them go back into hibernation.
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She is lucky to have someone like you to look out for her, though!