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[Steve and his mun are hoping that it might become more likely that Bucky ends up there. He needs his best friend and Tony's mun loves the idea, even if it will make Tony sulk. And Steve knows Bucky can hold his own, but he's not going to stand by and do nothing if the snark escalates too much.]

[Despite his smile, there's still a hint of guilt and grief in his eyes.] Even if you were a spirit, I'd still want you there, but we'd all prefer a role where you're alive. I think that you could be a knight. You can't judge someone just be certain parts of their past.
[Steve wouldn't eventually give Bucky his shield if he didn't believe that he was a good man even after everything that had happened before.] But we have a rogue there. That'd probably work.

I wasn't sure if you'd want to keep your arm or have it the way it was before. But you're right. You earned it. If you want to keep it, then you should.

[It's almost impossible not to grin when he considers the idea that he punched Fury through a wall, even if he knows he shouldn't be amused by it. Sometimes he really dislikes SHIELD, especially right after he was revived. But the smile dims slightly.] She saw scans of that, but didn't know what issue it was in. I know it wasn't my fault, but it doesn't make it easier. Never will.

The first one she read was the one of me on the courthouse steps. [His voice is strangely calm considering he's discussing his own death. Or as close to death as he seems capable of.] When I was killed.

That... might just do.

*Fiiine. Bucky does catch that glimmer of sadness, and shakes his head, stepping closer to give his friend a tight hug. Very tight* Hey, whatever happens, I'm coming back, and so did you. Don't you forget that, all right? Not the easy way, it's never easy when we're fighting the fight, but we don't let go of those who matter that easy.

And... I know. It's never easier, and that's why I didn't let them keep you in the dark for even a few more hours, once I was awake. The rest of the world doesn't know and a great big bunch of them don't even care, but you, you and Nat - you've carried the weight of my absence for too long. No more.

Ah. *closes his eyes for a moment* I'd been such a coward. *not able to face Steve. Even when they'd been fighting together again. Maybe if he hadn't run away, things would be different. But... too late for that, now. He's not running away on him now, not any longer.*

Anyway. Can't change the past, and maybe it's a better idea not to try.

((Sneaks the message here instead of the subject line. The game is pretty slow and the AC is almost non existent. The mods even do the AC for you. It's one of the most laid back games I've ever been in.))

[The hug is welcome, especially since most of the time he doesn't know that Bucky is alive. It does feel kind of strange since even after all the years with the serum, part of him still thinks Bucky should be taller.] When was anything ever easy for us? We wouldn't know what to do if it was.

'M glad you told me. If you hadn't, I would've dealt with it, but... [But if he'd found out the truth, even knowing the reasons why he hadn't been told, Steve would be as devastated by those lies as he'd been by Bucky's 'deaths'.]

Even if we could change the past, where would we start? When we were kids or during the war? Too many thing'd change and who knows what that'd lead to?

Thank you. It's less the activity and more keeping track of one more set of storylines that goes with another game. Buuuut I'll poke at the application. ;) And if I do, it'll probably be from the time frame after Steve returns his memories using the Cosmic Cube and before Steve gets killed. For maximum reunion owie... even with the sliiiightly different backstory. Which I may waive, if the mods will let me.

Well, no, if I'd just shown up while you were composing my eulogy, that wouldn't be a good thing. I made Nick tell you. Hence the punching through walls, because he hadn't told you in the first place.

*headshake* No, things will remain as they ever have been. Even if they hurt. Just trying for a better present, right?

There really isn't much going on at the moment. Mostly it's been introductions and small plot lines between the characters that know each other. The tagging is really slow (which I appreciate). Steve won't know anything about the Cube...oh so much reunion fun with that.

Probably best that he didn't. That way it was believable. [Because he never would have been that convincing if he'd known the truth. Knowing that wouldn't make him any less angry or ease his occasional dislike for the man. He still resented the trick with the hospital room.]

Yeah. A better present and a better future.

Well, it was a cosmic cube that was Red Skull's blue thing/tesseract in the movie, he just doesn't know that it's what brought Bucky's memories and all? Augh augh augh my brain, it's fried.

The eulogy? You did fine knowing, I'm told. But it wouldn't have been fair to keep you grieving any longer than they already had. You'll see when you and your mun get through it.

*slight, very slight smile* That's the idea.

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NP and I'm totally offering the enabling cookies now

<3 SOB SOB BUT TO BRAIN ANOTHER GAAME

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